I think there is something wrong with me

Hi guys. I have a question to ask. Are birthdays supposed to fun? Because it's my birthday today and instead being with my family I've locked myself in my room and I don't know why! I was looking forward to a small party with my sister and her friend but then I started to feel depressed at the thought. Lately I've been pulling away from my parents and sister. I don't even like being hugged by them anymore, when they do hug me I just stand there and not try to pull away as fast as I can and as soon as they let go I run to my room. I don't even talk to my sister at all unless she is annoying the hell out of me. It's that one second I'm happy and laughing but the second my sister or parents talk to me I get angry then sad and back to angry and I don't know why hence the reason I lock myself in my room. I asked my mum if I could see a shrink so that way I know why I'm acting like this and she said she would talk to my dad about it but I don't think she ever will. I think I'm going crazy and more I ask myself why I act like this more crazy I seem to think I am. I think I need help but I just can't tell my parents because I don't want them to worry.

Sorry about the rant but I just needed to get this out there.

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sarangohpar #1 Jul 4, 2015 08:00:37

Hey :) From your description it sounds like you're going through the hardships of being a teenager? Sorry if I got it wrong but I feel like your description is kinda the typical behavior of a teen :) I'm 15 right now and I can relate to most of the things you say. I think it's just a phase of growing up because you're finding your place in the world. My birthday was actually like 6 days ago and I spent the whole day in my room. I actually told my parents earlier that I was definitely not going outside and I ended up watching dramas the whole day and social media. As for you being depressed when you think of the party with your sister and her friend, maybe you wanted some time alone or perhaps you don't really know her friend that much. Also there is the age difference regardless of it being one year or ten years. When people hug me I feel super awkward, even kisses on the cheek from parents feel weird. To be honest, I don't know the reason to that but it happens. You're not alone. I believe it relates to hormone changes or whatever it's called but if you're not a teenager then maybe this is just a period of time where you feel like you have no one to talk to. Whatever the reason, it will be just a phase so don't be too depressed over it. Talk to your friends if you don't feel like talking to your family. That's what friends are for. We're all here when you need people to talk to so don't worry. :) <3

sleepingprince #2 Jul 1, 2015 11:16:44

Happy bornday . I hope that you'l feel better soon .

unexpectedfeel #3 Jul 1, 2015 07:25:03

I'm not the best adviser in the world but the most you lock yourself in your little world, the most you'll feel bad. It's not a great option but it's good if you can talk about it with your family, it's already something and just try a little to go against this, it's emprinonning you and maybe your sister annoys you, maybe their presence annoys you sometimes but it's way more better than being lonely, fighting !

shie-chan #4 Jul 1, 2015 06:55:33

so u have a problem "I asked my mum if I could see a shrink so that way I know why I'm acting like this and she said she would talk to my dad about it but I don't think she ever will" you need to solve that "it" ur talkin abt or be more specific so I'd knw
i think ur just feeling lost (yes that happens) like u dunno where u wanna go or where u should be ? something happened right?and ur not feeling like the same old u anymore and maybe u dunno what the root cause of ur problem is and that's driving u more insane?
but u can still list out a few things u feel like is related right?! and then try doing something new instead of following ur daily routine and please sleep and don't skip meals,start going out actually if u play sports all that stress will go away :D i knw it sounds stupid but it helps a lot ! try something new and get really into it! and right now ur overthinking this is vry normal specially if ur a teenager(personal experience lol). we can never be that child we once were,so its normal that ur not so touchy-feely as u were..now open that door and get outa here ur missing a lot if ur staying inside and btw srry if this was too long lol i just couldn't help it bcuz i've been there done that and talk that problem with ur mom and dad..idk what happened but i feel like u knw "that problem u want ur mom to talk abt with ur dad" was what made u like this,time changes people but u shud always stay positive and HAVE A HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ^O^ btw try seeing a doctor if ur having mood swings i think ur just stressed these days and other ppl dun notice it but u don't want to burden them and u feel like they won't understand even when u tell them ,let me tell u this is normal and u can get over this once u tell them and sort it out

informantxgirl #5 Jul 1, 2015 06:15:39

Well, have you been getting enough rest and eating properly? I know that if I've lost a few hours of sleep on a consistent basis or am eating poorly, my mood tends to suffer. If your lifestyle hasn't been so well lately, that could be it. If your depression continues, though, and you feel upset all the time, it's better to go see a doctor, see if there is anything that might be affecting you on a physical level. Sometimes it could be a vitamin deficiency.