I'm going to tell you what's happening for the past few days.

Wednesday: I had my evaluations for ballet. I've never sweat so much in my life. Odviously it was partly because summer heat/working hard, but I think that it was also because I was so incredibly nervous. I think the first part was okay, but when we put on our pointe shoes, it was all down hill from there for me. I did so badly. I wanted to cry. I'm the oldest already, so if I don't move up, I'll have to quit because I don't want a huge between everyone else. That night, I could barely sleep. This happens every year and I'm already a terrible sleeper. I'm not sure when we find out who moved up and who didn't. I've been exercising more because that helps with my stress temporarily.

Thursday: I was stressed all day. I had a normal ballet class in the evening. Our teacher for that day gave us the option of whether or not we wanted to pointe. I decided to do it because how will I ever get better if I don't keep practising? I ended up doing awful and wishing I hadn't done pointe that day, but at least our teacher was really helpful and nice. I slept a little better that night, even though I woke up at 6:00 the next day.

Friday (Today): I exercised for stress release. I really hated my arms today (as if it's possible to get fat in one day). Most of the class went well today except for one or two things. However, those one or two things really got to me and I cried at home in private where no one would see me.

At this point, I'll be genuinely shocked if I move up.