i should let this one out. i struggle to find the right words, but cannot come up with a good image that will explain my point of view. everyone in my family obviously not supporting my happiness, my life. i wanted to achieve this dream but no one is suspporting me, aside of Him i asked for strength and His wisdom towards to a greater path that i will choose, but it is still blur for me and i dont know what to do anymore. Seems like i'm unworthy to them, i need more of their love and attention. It's i can't have tthe courage to tell them the truth i'm getting depressed by their insensitive actions towards me. including my friends, since i graduated i became distant to them or i withdrawn to our companionship. i'm starting to lose my confidence, my trust and hope that it affects also my perfomance in my job. *sigh* this iis embarassing. why i have to post this trash slash dramatic post of.mine. btw sorry for wasting your time to read this.im out//