Okay, so I've just gone and deleted all of my blog posts from the past half a year or so because I know they just sounded whiny - all 'my life and i'm a baby' and false promises to be back and updating and me disappearing. 

This isn't one of those blog posts. This is me saying that I am back in a place in my life where I want to write, and where I can dedicate more time to being on AFF and in this fandom. I've missed it, but I feel so embarassed about how awful I have been that I am tentative to come back. But I want to - so I'm going to. I don't think I'll be on here every day, at least not for the next few weeks, but I'm actually getting some colour back in my life so I think I'm reaching a place where I'm happy again, with myself and with my life. 

I've deleted a few of the forewords for fics that never got written, they are false promises to my readers and more pressure on me. Definitely will not be running the Secret Santa or any events again, and I can only apologise for the mess I made with that - I don't want to talk about it nor hear about it because it really messed me up for a while. I'm going to put a few fics on hiatus until I get onto my feet and onlyw rite what I want to work on, not things that I started so now need to be finished.

Ihave my last ever exams for my degree in 12 days and then I actually have time to myself that isn't just dedicated to work or university. 

No false promises, no 'I'll update loads more'.

Simply a quick note saying hi, and sorry, and if you might still want to be my friend and talk to me, my line is justjadeyy.