One year has past.Since the day I meet you.I still remember the first day I met you.Your come to my office with my friend to hand up something.My offfice mate introduce you n me.For the first day we meet,you already give me your idiot smile.I remember clearly how you look.And plus I remember your peace.Its childish.Then the day passed.For me,you only a worker there.Officemate with my friend.Everyday I stop by there,I just give a bit smile then ignore you.I dont even take any moment to speak to you,laugh with you.You just some stranger.HAHA Im still remember you did some interview at me.Why Im so nerveous?Well before I enter that company,when my boss did interview with me,I am not even nervous hell like this?But with you?Guess Im still stupid can figure,that I already fall to you.The nervous surrounding broke when I accidently answered you Im drive a bus everyday go to company.Hell,you laugh like no tomorrow.But that time Im just smiled.Taken look back,If I cant fly to that moment,I will laugh with you too.As time goes by,we become more close.I call you 'Abang' .That sound so sweet.Only you I call abang.I miss the moment when you call yourself abang to me.When you busy,I always have thing to say,I call you many times,you didnt reacts at first.But ended up you with your gentle,sweet voice said 'Why?Abang here.I did not run anywhere' And when you look at me,I know,that gaze knock my heart.I fall hard to you.When I enter your office without looking at you and greet you,you make me felt something when you wake up from your place and come to me.Stand near me and look deep in my eyes.You ask why?Is something wrong?Then you start it.When I dont respond very well,you start to dance like idiot.you amke anything until I smile.Even you fooling yourself.When I smile,you laugh.Loudly.You know,you always make my day.How can Im not realize at all before?I love you.I need you.When Im in trouble at office,my mind straightly thinking of you.I need you with me.And guess what,its You beside me already calm me.How can I resist you when you stubbornly want to know whats my problem?You will eavesdropping me n my friend conversation.God,you really have a sharp hearing.How can you know everything?Aside then my friend always complain you always harping to know everything.Then you exists like superhero.You help me all the way with my problem.The funny is the way you help me.Sometime we fight.You teased me,Im angry.You angry back, I dont care.I still remember we scrambe over a phone.HAHAHA You like it right?You repeatly dressup my anger.And you laugh hesterically.Hey,Im in problem you know?Its always ended I think I settle it by my own.But lastly actually its you settle down for me before I did.And I always knows late.When I did,I go to you.Like hell Im shy.Crazy shy.But you jerk.Wear an innocent face.And when I try to tell you,you was like 'Abang did what for you?Abang cant remember.Can you tell me?' Then you always pretend you busy.Busy my .You busy laughing me.But Im not stupid what kid.I always walk away then 'I dont know abang.I forget what you did.Bye' Then I heard you shout.Angry.Oh my,I love you because of this.Really love you.We turn the office like playground sometimes.HAHA.I still remember we fight over a screwdrive.I am angry at you.You bastard.I beak you with screwdrive.And you say 'You think abang will let you did this to abang?Once again you died.' And I beak him again.And he reached his ruler,he hit me with that thing.Hard.I hit him twice.But he hit me many times.Then the scene of scramble for screwdrive happen.And for the first time our hands.Touch.Its not because you strong dear you win.Its because the touch.Hell yes,we touch and we close.I can felt you breath.I can fell your body warm.And our eyes did not left each other.How can I stand that moment?My inner side already fall to the earth.I cant resist anymore.I fall hard again with you.Speak about touch.Abang you bravely held my hand.And you run after that.I kept in my mind your smile after held my hand.Its just unreadable smile,Indeed its was most sweet smile you ever give me.You make me precios when you always want to show you re the one know me better than others.Even my friend at company did not know my adress.But you did.And you tell others.You proudly said my name when other dont know.In crowd you always spot me.You call for me.Make me look at you.You always make me blush infront senior.And on of them is your mother.You teased me alot infront of them.You always like to see me hold my anger.Thats you.You  chase up me at stairs when you see me.You laugh when hear Im scream.Im cursing.Im angry.I said a bad thing at you after that.But you just laugh.You re crazy man.Still remember abang?We fight at store?We almost locked in there by officemate.We are to loud.HAHAHA.Its one of the funniest thing.I remember how much you freely did whatever you one infront of me.You hip harrow infront me.You dig your treasure gold at your nose infront of me.Sometimes you always said 'Here,spank my buttocks now.And you direct your buttocks to me.I just laugh.Crazily.You always be crazy one.You tell me about you family.Not to mention your mom like me as well.Remember your mom call for me sweetly when she s enter meeting room.Both of us like'whats is wrong with this person?She s keep call me.And ended sit beside me.I see you gaze.Your smile after that.You tell me about how you feel lost someone you love.You protect us when boss angry,You keep denying something happen.I hate that.Really hate.I wanna know why.But you refuse to tell.At one of compony program frommorning to evening you stay with me,Beside me.Do you know Im never tired when you around.When  the other co worker acting like didnt know me,you were there.You shows them you know me.We are close.You tell them about me 'She s lazy,she s acting innocent,she s crazy,she s just pretending..blahblahblahblah.' You evil how can you say that.Truthly,you teh one that success bring my inner side.My craziest side that I have been hiding from others.Its you.Other co worker think Im shy,quiet.But they were wrong.Its you bring all the devil out.And you keep blaming me when you show your devil.When nobody care how will I go back,its rainy.Its always you ask.When nobody care my shoes detached,its was you ask 'How your shoes?' When nobody ask is my fever already recovered.Its you said said 'Are you okay now?' When nobody know I banging my head at walls,its you know.'You okay?Did you lost ur memory?Have your craziness gone?' When nobody ask about my mother,you did.When people believe Im said Im okay,you know Im  not.But I cant help to dislike your childish side.When Im not greet you they way you greet me,you will ignore me whole morning.When Im ignoring you whole day,you will act like Im dont exist the day after.When Im not even looked at you,you will never laid your eyes at me either.When I said I dont care you replied with I dont care too.You will queit when Im shouting at you.Then you never reprimand me after that.You act like Im dont exist when Im upsetting you.Why you like this?Many things I did,you always there.You make me fall inlove with you.You become annoy when I talk about other man worker at you.You angry when you hear I flirting with a policeman.You ended up tell if someone ask,you tell them,'This kid seduces the policeman,doest she have anything todo?You angry and annoyed voice make all the person ask suspicious.Lol,you make it obvious.You hate me when Im ask where other boy.You yell 'Why you ask?He dont care about you.He dont like you'You yell many times when I ask again.I know you hate it.You always wait for me to show myselt at your office.You lonely without me.You always say,its boring without me.And you didnt say it to me but to my friend.But you never admit.When Im about to go, you said 'Its too early,just stay here more' When you see me with other,its always me you call.You teased.You make me felt like Im exist.What should I do?Im totally in you.Its you make me alive,its you make me feel there is others people care for me.There is others people look for me.Its always you.But why?You make me confuse,You never told me you like me.You love me.Why?You promised me you will propose me in 2 years.But why?You neve said anything.After Im left the compony,you dont even contact me.Just lately you wassap me,but there is no sweet word.You mock me,make me angry.Why?But when we meet,you show excitement.You smile like before,dancing,and laugh.I can feel the loved atmosphere.But until now,actually you make my heart suffer.With all this thing you did have you love me?Did you just felt its nothing?You always did this to every female worker?Did you just think me as sister only?Or DO YOU LOVE ME?