Jessica

So, I'm still not over Jessica leaving SNSD and I just discovered I haven't been using the blog feature much.

Attending the Best of Best in the Philippines tore my heart apart. On one hand, I kept cheering for them, on the other, the cogs in my head kept turning, forcing me to face the reality of Jessica's absence. I also panicked when I realized I failed to identify which was Jessica's parts or was I too caught up in the moment? Huhu

The release of their video made me rant on twitter. I couldn't even understand why I was giving points against them. I just couldn't handle their first video without Jessica. Everything just makes me want to cry. I, I mean we, haven't really had closure and it's really messing with my head. I'm supposed to finish my thesis, but then the predicament with Soshi just keeps popping into my head. So Nyuh Shi Dae, can you please give us peace of mind?

Why did you have to do this?

I haven't let out all the tears that need to leave my system. My Sone friends and I organized a cry-over but we didn't even get to the crying part.

My main thought after the concert was: "Sica's not dead, but why am I grieving like she is?"

I actually made a sign that says: Yoona, please bring Jessica back (with the assistance of my ever-wonderful Arirang buddy who translated for me). Alas, I was too far back for my sign to be read. -_-

Edit:

I just realized that this post coincided with Jessica's birthday. Happy Birthday Sica! We always got your back.

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SoshiiTricia #1 Jul 1, 2015 23:13:16

Same here~ until now, I haven't watched CYMIYC and I think I wouldn't watch their comeback MVs
Anw, kung ako nga pumunta nung B.O.B, magdadala ako ng banner na malaki at Jessica lang nakalagay na nakaHangul tas isisigaw ko pangalan nya nang malakas huhu. Sabi ko nga bka pag ginawa ko un bka makick-out rin ako hahahahuhuhuhuhu

Lime320 #2 Apr 18, 2015 01:12:18

I didn't even watch the new MV because I don't want to see only 8!
I'm still frustrated and upset over this situation, and they way SM and SNSD is acting towards her isn't helping!

yoondel #3 Apr 17, 2015 14:16:41

So you're from philippines author ssi ??

Soshi1590 #4 Apr 17, 2015 13:24:46

I am not over it as well.
I forced myself to watch their video, only to agree with people that this concept was made for Jessi.
I cant bring myself to watch an interview, whether old or new, because i feel like my heart is torn to a million piece.
People are saying that with Jessi gone, others now have more lines in the songs, as if she was responsible for the distribution, maybe everyone else has more lines because of the lack of a strong voice like hers. You know? I am not complaining about the fact that they have more lines, i am actually glad, but this equal distribution could have been made a long time ago, but "someone" or "something" havent lost a powerful voice and now needs to cover it up.
Ok that was out of topic but i needed to let that out