Hey guys~
 

I know you all must have been wondering a lot about why I didn't update my fics for the longest time ever, and where I have been.

Kkk.

Well, as you know, this year is my last year in high school, therefore I need to study a lot and do this test, that test, etcetera, etcetera. I am the laid back type, too, I think. When other friends are studying like crazy, I would just read things and be like 'MEEEEH.'

Being laid back is good at one point, but it is also bad at another.

I always considered myself as a smart person. Well, I catch things faster than most of my friends, and I always study by myself. Like ever since elementary school up until now, I never took extra lessons outside of school. *I would just throw the books in the corner anyway.*

I have been stressed a lot. Partly because there is just too much things to do *like seriously, how can I stuff all that three years of Biology inside my head?*, but also partly because I am too laid back, too relaxed, didn't care about scores that much *well, lately I have been more diligent*, and I am easily distracted by gadgets, and also, fanfictions.

Kkk.

So I have decided to put AFF aside for a while, and study.

I know I catch things fast, and I did well. I can do most of the problems in the test. *I must not be that stupid right* But I feel like all of it are not enough. I always somehow feel lacking in many ways. The girls in my school *I go to an all girls high school, imagine it*, and mostly the students are the studious types. They all study well. If they don;t study well, usually they are born-genius. Like if you ever get a mark below 75 *that's the standard*, you will instantly feel stupid because the others get 100.

I know I should study like crazy, but I also don't want to study like crazy. It looks like you're forced to study and devour all of that thing inside your head.

Anyone here from Indonesia? You guys must've known how I feel.

There are also a time when the teacher called me because I got really bad in math. I am determined to do better since then, because the teacher spent her time teaching me the problems I didn't understand one by one, but mostly, for myself.

I wanted to do all the test with the best I can *at least I need to show some effort in it*, and then, maybe many years later, I am going to look back at myself right now, and say, "You've been through a lot. You've worked hard. Good job."

So yeah.

I write this long just to say sorry to you guys for neglecting you. I am so sorry. TT.TT

You know I usually update like once a week right? But then I suddenly disappeared for like months.

The feeling is like waiting for BigBang's comeback.

Moreover, iKON's debut.

Hahahahahha~ Seriously though. They need to debut fast!

The good news is, TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF THE NATIONAL EXAM.

*pops confetti*

Meaning, no more school!

*jumps around like crazy*

As soon as the test ended, my mind flied to you guys. Kkk.

I think that's it.

I really talk to much, didn't I?
I am not a talkative girl in person. Just... I become like this when I write my thoughts. Please bear with all of this bull-poop I wrote.

Hahahahah. Did I just write poop?

Okay well,

Bye guys~

-EunAe-