Hey there everyone! I'm here today with a new blog post just to chat with you about my latest absence on AsianFanFics, and (if you follow me there) Wattpad. But to be perfectly honest, I've been pretty quiet all around the web. Lately I've been lazy and very distracted. Plus I was out practically every weekend, which is when I have the most time and energy to write. So that . If you have been reading my wall posts here and on Wattpad, you probably know that I was on the hunt for a dress two weekends ago. That I've been reading too many fanfictions. Lol. So many excuses, but they are REAL and TRUE so they aren't really excuses...

I've even been busy with piano. I'm currently preparing for this giant test thing that takes up a huge chunk of my time around this time of year since I take one every year. Then last weekend I had to search for shoes to go with the dress that I bought. AND I NEVER FOUND ANY!!! -___-" so sad. Therefore I will either be shopping this week or weekend again...Not only the important things took up my time, unnecessary things took up time too. I was absorbed into reading a lot of fanfictions. I read one after another as though I was drinking water after being stranded in a desert for an entire month lololol. Then I began watching old BigBang videos. Watched tons of korean dramas. Binged on YouTube videos. Wrote fanfictions for my friend. Yeah, that's what I've been doing >.<"

Now that I've said a whole bunch of random to keep the majority of my readers off my back, I'm here to say sorry. Sorry. And I really really mean it. I feel bad. I honestly do, because I always think about you guys and how I haven't updated in a while. The thing is, when I force myself to write, I'm never happy with the end result. That's why I don't update until I want to, or feel the urge to pour out my feelings on the internet. The inspiration is there, yet it isn't. I'm entirely sure how to explain the way I've been feeling. I think it's just that I want to know that what I write, I know where I can continue it when I start up another chapter after that one. I think I just want...a sense of direction with the story? It's not that I don't, but it's that I want to change my original cheesy idea into something more angsty, a lot of push-and-pull, romance, plot developement to the limit, etc.

I want it to be good for you guys!!! That's why I take so long to update. I'm an overthinker with everything, so when I have a huge project like this, or art, or music, I overthink even MORE...if that makes any sense lol. That overthinking makes the process of publishing even longer since I take forever to decide on how to make the plot into something that's interesting, and not childish. Even though I'm a beginner writer, I put a lot of effort and pride into my work. I want it to be good. That's why if I go back and edit chapters (like I recently did), it's because I probably rushed certain things, or I'm not entirely satisfied with the final product that's before me. 

I hope that you aren't sick of me with being late, but I wanted to attempt to explain my weird brain to you all. And if someone is still with me at the end of this post, then THANK YOU~ *hugs* Comment or something if you made it this far hehe. Thanks for hearing me out, and I'll try harder to not overthink as much. Also thanks for the new subscribers ^^ Okay, I'm out. PEACE.