Randam kita... You dont know where you should go or what should you do.. You are stuck in the middle.. Damn.. Sorry for the language but i hate it when you cant do things you want to do so thats why i use my college time to have fun if i know the prof is effing boring and so on.. About the money part 'tipid tipid muna' so next time you can go out and btw where do you live?

I feel the same way to..

yuour 19..finished study then work hard.you will experience those things that you dont experience.

+I never got xmas presents and I watched my cousins get their since 6yo and much more, at least you parents tell you something when they go out, here they don't even tell me they are going anywhere.
Is frustrating I know and sad too, but look at yourself you 18, the worse already passed, you're an adult and you can do things for yourself now. You don't need to mourn over those stuff anymore, you can make and live the life you like for the future.
When you accept that you are responsible for yourself now it all becomes easier, because we cannot control other people we can just control what we do and if they fail with you is THEIR fail, you're not doing anything wrong, THEY are.
Also, people, our family they don't have to do anything for us, they will do a lot of thing because they care and thats where you see love, so focus on the people that care more for you and you dont need to be mean to the others but just give out just as much as you receive.
Sacrifice is only sacrifice when you don't care too much for that person, otherwise its called love and care.

It is unfair and is very sad.
I'm pretty much like you too. I don't live with my parents since I was a baby so living with my grandparents and eleven other uncles and aunties while growing up I never get to get much attention, I just grow up like that. Never once in my childhood I went to the club or cinema with any of them(once my aunties went to the club to swim but they told me they were going elsewhere where I would surely refuse to go, deeply I knew where they were going and I was hurt by that, I was like 6), I remember I went to the zoo when I was much too little but not after that. At the age of 6 my first cousin was born and to this day he is the family's everything. I was never angry at him, I was a bit jealous but I didnt do anything to him because the ones neglecting me were the adults not him. So my first time going to the movies, club, eating pizza, mcdonalds and a lot of things was after I was 18. I don't remember birthday parties, I had ONE surprise bday party at 9 cos I went to visit my mother in other state and my birthday was in that period of time, when I came back my mom here had a big cake, ballons and all that(I was jetlagged and didn't enjoy as much lol but I loved it) and the next was when I was 16, my uncle's wife made it by herself (I think because nobody did anything at my 15 birthday, I 'worked' to my auntie and her husband asked something and I told him that day was my 15bday and he was bewildered that not even her remembered and it was worse bc 15 it a big thing here, like sweet 16 in US) on my 18 birthday my friend called me, in the middel of summer break, to tell she had stuff done for my birthday and that I had to go, my auntie needed me at her business and when I told her and my grandma that I was not going because my friend made me a party and I was NEVER going to upset her so my auntie could wander around the city shopping, they were pretty angry and said I was ungrateful and all, I didnt care I went to meet my friends(+replies

No you're not. They're being completely unfair, and in my opinion from the examples you've given (pardon me saying this) they sound like they're neglecting you.