^{Alright everybody, I am KHJ fan but I just have to let my anger out.}

^{All of you know about the scandal that is ongoing, so I am not going to summarize it. I am utterly disturbed because of what's happening with Hyun Joong, because I've adored and supported him for a long time now. Last year was one hell of a difficult time for Henecia, and now that we were finally starting to settle down again and our wounds were healing, the nightmare broke out once again.} 

^{I know that all stars have their personal life, that shouldn't be meddled with, but since Henecia has supported HJ when he was at his worst, I think we deserve explanations. I can't say I have nothing to do with his personal life, because that would be one big lie: I do care about everything he is connected with and I wish I didn't, but that's a bad side effect of being in a fandom: when hard time occurs, you can't just raise your chin, turn your head and walk away. You feel obliged to be there, because of your uncontrolled feelings!}

^{Most Henecians didn't dodge away even for a brief second last year, we shielded HJ, we trusted him and accepted him even after he himself admitted his deed. That was a big step for me personally, because I am one hell of a feminist, and don't wan't to support any woman beater. The only reason I stayed was that, I believed when it was said that it was a fight between two, and not a fight between "attacker" and "victim". I believed him when he apologized for the whole world to see. I sensed that something was off with Ms.Choi at that time, because there were many proofs of false accusations. For all we know it could have been a push, a pull, a slap that became exaggerated to broken ribs and bruised arms/legs. I don't know, and I am not claiming anything either.} 

^{I feel uncomfortable talking about that case till this date, but it has been itching me so much that I have no choice.} 

^{To be honest, I am angry, and I feel betrayed, and I know that many other Henecians also share my feelings. I hate the fact that HJ went back to the lady that destroyed his image, tore away his pride and made people call him the worst names of all. He must have had a reason, I don't know, but I don't think it is right to excuse oneself with that argument. When Henecia was busy going on every place on the internet: newsarticles, fandomsites, blogs, instagram, facebook, twitter, tumblr etc. just to support HJ and try to prove his innocence, what was Hyun Joong doing himself? He was ing, and excuse the language, going back to that lady? They shared an intimate relationship while we were bawling. He faced the hardships, I guess the whole of Korea hated him, but Henecia too was hurt. Other fandoms trampled over us everyday, but we kept going. It was hard and it was sad and difficult to express our love for him, but we still didn't stop. I must say that HJ going back to Ms. Choi and Ms. Choi coming back to HJ clearly shows that none of them have selfrespect. If you have respect for yourself and value yourself, you will not go back to somebody who tore you into pieces while the whole world was watching. If you have selfrespect and selfvalue, you will not go back to the man you accused of beating you! If I tell the world that he broke my ribs, but still go back to him, then what kind of a woman am I?} 

^{I am angered that HJ is so effin stupid. Is it done in love? In fear? In pressure? IDK, but it sure was one wrong move.} 

^{Now comes the pregnancy. I hate dispatch. I hate that this matter was posted for the public to see. I would have liked it better if HJ had informed us about this himself. That way, I would have been happy, because that way "he would be sharing his happiness with us willingly". In this case, I feel sorry for 4 peeps. I feel sorry for Hyun Joong being tied to Choi in this way, I feel sorry for Choi who is tied to HJ whom she feels threatened by, I feel sorry for the unborn baby and I feel sorry for us Henecians. The world is bashing us again, and now some of us suddenly feel so weak. I hestitate going to sleep and dread waking up, because I know every day there will come new news that will shock the hell out of me.} 

^{I'd love to see HJ as a father, but I have a feeling (judged by what Choi revealed) that the child's mother will keep it away from his/her father. She says she want to raise it herself, and I am afraid the child will learn to hate his/her father someday. When it grows up and sees all of this, I bet it won't be good.} 

^{I hope HJ solves everything before going to MS. I don't want to be left hanging in the air just like this. I want him to clear his name and his agency to stop being such es. And I hope HJ has done a freaking DNA test, and not only confirmed by seeing US and PT.} 

^{And just to end it all: I don't think HJ is a bad person, nor a woman beater or a cheater. I'd rather call him dumb, stupid, and a COMPLETE fool, even though I love him so much.} 

^{Do not hate on me just because I am letting out what has been bothering me. I'd like to know what you think about this case?} 

^{- BeautifulJoongie}