Something landed on her arm, she felt water on her skin.

It’s raining…

Moonbyul looked up with closed eyes feeling each drop that landed on her.

"Yah! You'll get sick if you stay here!"

Kim yongsun... moonbyul smiled.

She opened her eyes and stared right in front of her

She wasn't there...

Kim yongsun... moonbyul smiled bitterly.

Hallucinations.

She can hear her almost every day.

Reminding her of what she needs to do,

Asking her if she already ate once she entered their apartment,

She can feel her hugs once in a while specifically on those days when moonbyul wanted to end her life.

"Don’t do it…"

She can hear her say whenever she finds herself holding a sharp blade placing it on the pulse on her wrist

"Don’t do it byul-ah." she would hear yongsun tell her with a smile.

"Please stop…" and she would feel yongsun hugging her. She’ll put the blade down and will collapse on the bathroom floor.

Crying.

"Yongsun-ah…" she would whisper her name to herself and a sob would escape

"Yongsun-ah!" she would say, louder this time.

She calls out for her every time but she wasn't there.

She never were.

I should've gone with her…

Ah, there it is again!

The ghost of the past.

"Byul remember my friend hyejin?"

"Yeah why?"

"She’s going to perform at a bar with her band later and she invited me to watch. Do you wanna come?"

"I want to but I have an exam the next day baby"

"Oh. That’s okay! You should study, I understand! It’s for our future anyway." yongsun hugged her smiling.

The sweetest smile she could remember.

It was also the last smile she gave her.

Because the next day, yongsun was gone.

"Let’s break up."

"kim yongsun are you joking?! If you are then it’s not funny."

"I'm not joking... I'm sorry byul."

A tear escaped moonbyul's eyes and it landed on the screen of her phone

She just broke up with her.

In a text message.

Moonbyul can't believe it.

Last night yongsun even kissed her before making her way to the bar where she's going to watch hyejin, asking her not to wait and just sleep so she could rest as soon as she finished studying.

So what the hell happened? She doesn’t know either.

Moonbyul cried that night and the next day.

The next week and the next month.

She cried for 6 months to be exact.

2 years of being in a happy relationship and kim yongsun ended it with a text message.

Happy relationship. What a joke.

“There was another man.” hyejin accidentally told her when they bumped into each other in a coffee shop. Hyejin waiting for her boyfriend, decided to sit and talk with moonbyul for a while.

Apparently yongsun and the lead guitarist of hyejin's band hit it off the night they met each other at the bar.

And after 6 months, moonbyul finds herself crying again.

She thought she had moved on but finally knowing why yongsun