Being alone hurts more than you think,

having the waves of constant struggles hitting and causing you to sink.

I heard the constant ringing but chose to go my own way.

Not getting attached I've learned was a mistake.

It only causes heart-aching pain.
The pain dulling me,
causing me to go insane.
I thought I was alone,
having to face my constant fears,
trying to make everything clear.
All alone.

I ignored you.

I ignored the constant ring.
I tried so hard not to get attached,

I left you, I tried to act like a match.
But in reality a match without a lighting strip is broken.
I was broken.
My heart in tiny shattered glass pieces.
Tears fell down my eyes for many reasons.
Then again I heard the constant ring.

You kept trying to get me to listen,

calling me trying to find out if i was all right.

But I missed it,
I let it ring,

the sound of my phone repeating.
It went on like this for many nights,

I was a mess and it was such an ugly sight.
Then again I heard the constant ring.

 

This time was different,
Finally, I answered my phone.

I guess I was just tired of being alone.
I cried so hard that night
and you told me that everything was going to be all right

I answered the constant ring.

 

Now I've realized my mistake
Yes I still go through some pain
But it's bearable because it's not just me.
It's us, it's we.
Our laughter becoming that constant ring.

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A/N this was actually like a part two to the poem in the forward.