Jung Kook pov:

I felt something cold in my hand, looking down I found that I was holding a knife.  I was just about to question why I had it when someone behind me called my name.  I spun around and felt my knife sink into something.  I looked horrified to see that it was V.  He looked down at the knife as he rested one of his hands on my neck.  With the other hand he grabbed my hand holding the knife and pulled it towards him sinking it slightly deeper into him.  I looked up as he smiled and pulled me into a hug causing the knife to sink all the way to the hilt.  When he released me from the hug he kept the smile and said, “wake up Kookie- ah.”  I looked at him confused for a second before I looked down at the knife buried in his gut.  And that’s when I woke to someone shaking me.  I opened my eyes wide to see J-hope smile down at me and say, “wake up Kook we got a jacket photo shoot in fifteen minutes.”  I thought to myself, ‘so does this mean it was all a dream and V is fine?’  I looked at J-hope dazed for a moment before I said, “mmm thanks for waking me hyung.”  He grinned and said, “its what I do, but in all honesty thought I only woke you cause your alarm was going off and its really noisy.  If it weren’t for your alarm I would’ve thought you were awake this whole time.”  I laughed a little and said, “oh well thanks anyways hyung.”  J-hope just stood and walked out with his usual big mouth smile.  I ran to the bathroom and washed my face before changing into a baggy red jacket with HBA black shorts and a pair of black and white sk8 high vans.  When I returned from the bathroom my arm was grabbed and I was swiftly pulled towards the dorm front door.  I looked to see that it was Rap Mon.  he held my arm in one hand and Suga’s hand in the other.  I looked at Rap Mon’s and Suga’s intertwined hands and thought, ‘since when did that happen?’  I noticed that Suga’s cheeks were now a light pink from my attention to their hands.  Jimin ruffled my hair as he ran past me with J-hope close behind.  Rap Mon kept pulling me along until we were out the door.  He let go of my arm and turned all his attention back to Suga.  I walked towards the van and stopped as I waited for Jimin to get in.  I jumped a little when someone wrapped their arms around me from behind and lifted me into the van.  I turned my head to see Jin.  He smiled up at me and said, “ready for the shoot?”  I shook my head and said, “always am.”  I took my place in the middle seat by Jimin.  Jin took the passenger seat beside the manager while Rap Mon, Suga, and J-hope got in the seats behind me.  I looked to the left of me and frowned at the empty seat.  I was about to ask where V was when I saw him running down the side walk carrying a black grocery bag.  I smiled as he jumped in taking the seat beside me.  As the van started to move I looked at the heavy breathing V and said, “what happened to you?”  he brightly smiled in his idiotic way and handed me the bag as he said, “I got you cookies Kookie- ah!”  I smiled and hugged him as I said, “thanks Taehyung.”  When I pulled away he bit his lip a little and said, “but you wouldn’t happen to have a band aid would you?”  I shook my head my hair ruffling a little as I said, “nope why are you hurt?”  He looked down his face turning red as he said, “well I scraped my knee falling for you… haha no im kidding well you see my shoes were kinda untied so I tripped and scrapped up my knees.”  I pulled on his shorts a little as I looked at his knee and said, “oh my god you should be more careful.”  He squeezed his eyes shut and grinned at me as he said, “its was worth it though because I still got your cookies.”  I lightly flicked his shoulder and said, “as much as I like cookies its not worth you getting hurt.”  He seemed to put as he said, “I thought your smile was worth the pain.”  I felt color start to form under my cheeks.  V looked up as Jin said, “I got you V, what kind of band aid you want?  I got sheer, fabric, water proof, oh and my favorite the ones that let it breathe.”  From the back I heard Suga laugh and say, “of course you got the band aids mama Jin.”  Jin stuck out his tongue as he handed a box of band aids to V.  As I helped V put the band aids on Jimin said, “you don’t need band aids just put some windex on it.”  J-hope mumbled, “or duct tape I heard that fixes everything.”  Four band aids later we arrived at the photo shoot.  Before we could completely get out of the car stylists swarmed around us.  Even thought I was used to the stylists I still cringed every time I saw one come towards me.  I felt someone nudge my elbows so I looked sideways.  I smiled when I saw V holding and M&M  cookie out to me.  I gladly took it and held it as I let it heat the tips of my fingers.  I was just about to take a bite when the cookie was taken from me.  I said, “ya!”, but quickly shut my mouth when I saw that it was PD Nim.  He smiled and said, “I expect good photos from you today since you’re our golden maknae.  He then turned around and walked away as he ate my cookie.  I pouted at the loss of my cookie but stopped when I was pulled towards the dressing room.  I was handed a pair of pitch black skinny jeans with holes in them along with a white shirt with gold designing.  When I changed into the clothes I was rushed into a worn leather jacket with a buckle hanging form it.  we would start off with doing individual pictures which I hated because if elt lonely not having someone to joke around with like V.  I went forward and did multiple poses until I was allowed to sit down.  I happily sat with the others as J-hope went to take pictures.  I sadly told V about how I had lost my cookie to PD Nim.  He only patted my back and shook his hand in the air as he vowed to get vengeance for the loss of the cookie.  I couldn’t help but laugh at how serious he got over it.  I had to talk to Suga while V took pictures, but we didn’t really talk seeing as suga was too pre occupied with Rap Mon.  when V got back the manager gave us an hour break to eat lunch.  I ate two blueberry muffins and drank a little water.  I laid down on the bench where V and Jin sat.  I sat between them and rested my head on V’s lap.  V leaned back and said, “ok well you got this whole break to get some sleep.”  I adjusted my head on his lap and closed my eyes as V softly stoked my hair.  The last thing I remember before falling asleep was the feel of V moving my bangs to the side as he whispered, “sleep well my Kookie- ah.”  In my dream I was inan abandoned school.  I began walking down the hallway looking fro a way out when I heard screaming from the far end of the hallway.  I ran towards the room the screams came from but hesitated by the door before I entered.  When I looked in I saw someone with orange hair shackled to the wall.  He wore a white shirt that was slightly ripped to reveal the cut and bruised skin.  I don’t know why but I began to laugh a cold laugh that wasn’t mine.  The orange haired boy looked up at the sound of my laugh.  A grin plastered across my face when I saw it was V.  I thought to myself, ‘why the hell am I grinning?  V is in pain and im laughing and grinning?’  V weakly smiled and said, “Kookie- ah you’ve come to save me.”  I narrowed my eyes and walked over to a table I hadn’t noticed before.  I felt like my body was being controlled as I grabbed a hatchet off of the table.  I watched in horror as I turned towards V hatchet in hand.  V looked at me a little nervous as he said, “um that hatchet is to cut the shackles right?”  I felt a husky voice come from my mouth and say, “sure V that’s what im doing.”  V’s eyes widened as I raised the hatchet and brought it down into his shoulder.  His eyes widened partially before he let out a shrill yell.  I pulled the hatchet out of his shoulder and let it fall to the floor.  I couldn’t believe what I had just done but for some reason I continued moving.  I walked back to the table and looked over the different weapons and torture devices.  I picked up a razor blade and looked at it as the light hit the dull side of it.  I smiled a little and turned back to V whose head was now sagging down.  I brought the blade under his neck and he immediately lifted his head up.  He looked at me with unwavering eyes as he whispered Kookie- ah wae?”  something snapped inside of me and I began bashing his face with the dull side of the razor over and over.  I started to see the beginnings of bruises on his face.  He raised his hands to stop me but I just sliced his fingers with the razor blade.  He yelled out in pain and that’s when I woke to a real cry of pain.  I opened my eyes to see that I was on top of V pinning him to the ground.  I held a hair straightener in my hadns as I hit him with it.  someone grabbed me from behind and started to pull me away.  when I realized what I was doing I immediately let the hair straightener drop to the floor.  Out of the corner of my eye i saw that it was Jin who was pulling me away.  I didn’t even resist but rather let my body sag as I tried to process what I had just done.  When V was free from under me he scrambled backwards and stood up.  I looked at his face to see three red marks from where I hit him.  He raised his hands and softly touched the red marks.  My eyes widened when I saw that there were several burn marks on his hands from where he tried to defend himself from the straightener.  He looked at me a little shocked before stylist came to him with ice bags and I was dragged away by Jin.  Jin kept pulling me along until we were outside.  He looked at me with a slightly scared expression as he said, “Jung Kook ah what was that?”  I blinked several times as I began to stutter, “ uh uh I-I don’t k-know.”  He began to bite his lip as if trying to figure out what to do.  He ran fingers through his hair and said, “ok you’re switching seats with me in the van on the way back.”  I nodded my head as I said, “yes hyung.”  He patted my shoulder and said, “just stay out here for a couple of minutes until everybody’s ready to go.”  When Jin walked back inside I sat on a bench and began massaging my neck.  I thought, ‘when will these nightmares stop?’  I stood up when I heard the door open.  Rap Mon came out first followed by Suga of course.  V walked out with J-hope close by.  V had band aids on his face and cloth bandages wrapped around his hands.  He seemed to avoid my eyes as he passed.  I reached out my hand wanting to apalogize to him but Jimin came up grabbing my hand as he said, “so this is where you disappeared to.”  I kept my eyes on V’s back as I soflty nodded.  As everyone packed into the van Jin softly pushed me towards the front seat by the manager.  When we were all in the car Rap Mon said, “V what happened to your face it looks like you got in a fight with a stylist.”  V just said, “no I was putting away a hair straightener and I didn’t know It was still on so I burned myself.”  Jimin laughed and said, “very smooth very smooth.”  Jin interrupted and said, “ok you guys stop messing with V.”  Rap Mon and Jimin said in unison, “yes mama Jin.”  “stop calling me mama!  It makes me feel unmanly.” Jin yelled.  I just stared out the window as I thought, ‘after what I did to V I cant believe hes covering for me.’  when we got to the dorm it had already become dark outside.  Suga decided to order a pizza so we sat and watched a movie while we waited.  J-hope, Jimin, and V sat on the couch while Rap Mon and Suga sat on the love seat leaving Jin to sit in the recliner.  Jimin squished J-Hope into the side of the couch so there was extra room.  Jimin patted the couch between him and V as he said, “Kook theres a spot for you here.”  I glanced at V to see him staring at me before I shook my head and said, “um no I think ill just work on some lyrics in my room.”  I turned and began walking towards the hallway but I stopped when I heard V yell, “Kookie- ah!”  I turned slightly to look at him.  He waved his hand sand said, “come sit with us.”  My stomach wrenched a little as I thought, ‘why is he being so nice to me after I practically bashed his face with a hair straightener?’  I slowly walked over and sat down next to him.  V smiled slightly before he turned his attention back to the movie.  Jimin leaned his head on my shoulder as he said, “I love this movie, don’t you Kook ah?”  I said, “mmm ive never seen it so I don’t know.”  I looked away from V’s face towards the t.v.  from the first two minutes of the movie I could already tell it was going to be a horror film.  I was so focused on the movie that I didn’t notice twenty minutes had gone by until the door bell ran causing me to jump.  Suga immediately jumped up and ran towards the door as he said, “pizza pizza pizza.”  J-hope paused the movie and everyone got up to get pizza.  Everyone grabbed five slices beside me and V.  I only got two slices and V got one.  as everyone made their way back to the living room I said, “hey guys im gonna be in my room if you need me, I-I don’t really get into horror movies.”  I quickly went back to my room closing the door behind me.  as I was about to take a bite of my pizza there was a soft nock at the door.  I opened the door to see V balancing his plate on top of his bandaged hands.  I looked at him confused and said, “do you need something?”  he smiled and said, “yeah you need to feed me.”  I stuttered, “w-what?”  he just pushed past me and sat on the ground as he said, “hurry Kookie- ah the pizza is gonna get cold.”  I just closed the door and sat next to him as I said, “now tell me why I have to feed you.”  He frowned, “cause you did this to my hands so im gonna guilt trip you into feeding me since I cant feed myself.”  I bit my lip a little, “you’re lucky I feel guilt or you would be going to bed without dinner.”  He nodded, “im lucky to have such a caring Kooki- ah.”  I said, “you know you’re giving me mixed feelings, cause I feel bad about the hair straightener incident but I also feel tingly because you talk so sweet about me.”  he smiled and said, “you feeding me is pay back.”  I held the pizza and he took a bite.  When he swallowed he said, “what would you do if I messed up your hair?”  I thought a little and said, “I would mess your hair up.”  He smiled, “if I slapped you?”  I said, “I would slap you back.”  He looked at his hands, “if I loved you?”  I pushed aside the pizza as I cleared my throat, “its been a long day so im going to sleep now.”  I turned off the light and climbed onto the top bunk.  I felt bad for leaving V in the dark but I didn’t want him to see my face right now.  After a couple of minutes I heard the door open and close.  I peeked down to see that V had left taking the plates with him.  I covered my head with the covers and thought, ‘ill apologize to him tomorrow.’  In my dream I was in an abandoned building.  I felt someone holding my hand as I walked.  I looked to the side to see V who was smiling at me.  out of nowhere the building around us began to shake.  V yelled, “kookie!”  before he pushed me and heaps of concrete and pipes fell on him.  When the dust cleared I looked over to see V lying between rubble with iron bars sticking through his chest.  My voice chocked in my throat as I ran to him.  V looked at me with a pained expression as he said, “just give me a chance.”  With that his eyes glazed over and his head tilted to the side.  I grabbed his orange hair and shook his head a little as I screamed, “no V don’t do this to me!  wake up!”  I woke up screaming tangled in my covers.  I fell to the floor trying to untangle myself.  I looked over to V’s bottom bunk but it was empty.  I looked around worried, ‘where could he be at this time?’  Jimin sat up in his bed and said, “Kook ah whats wrong it like three in the morning.”  I just stood up and ran out the door.  I checked every room including the hyung’s room but there was no sign of V.  I quickly grabbed a jacket and ran out the front door not even bothering to put shoes on.  I knew there was two places V went to by himself.   Either the park or the convenient store.  I ran to the park which was closer but there was no sign of him.  I then ran towards the convenient store my feet aching from the cold and hard ground.  when I was twenty feet from the store I saw that all the lights were off inside.  I thought, ‘he cant be here since the stores not even open.’  I was just about to go check the park again when I heard a small sniffle.  I looked over and instantly saw V sitting on the front steps of the store.  I ran to him and said, “V why are you out here?  I was so worried about you.”  I noticed that his eyes were red as if he had been crying for some time.  I knelt down and said, “V-V whats wrong?”  he in a breather, “you know I’m scared, I thought confessing was scary but I now know there’s something even scarier.”  I said, “what what?”  he said, “losing you.”  He wiped away a tear and put on a weak smile as he said, “anyways you don’t need to be out here Kookie- ah.”  I said, “but what about you, you shouldn’t be out either.”  He sniffle, “just leave me alone for thirty minutes. After thirty minutes ill return as regular happy V.”  he then took off his shoes and pushed them towards me as he said, “here wear these.”  I didn’t want to decline because he looked to exhausted for me to argue with him.  I silently slipped the shoes on and started walking.  After a couple of steps I heard V say, “Kookie- ah?”  I turned, “yes?”  he said, “ for now on just pretend like you never knew my feelings for you.”  I couldn’t seem to make words come to my mouth only tears came to my eyes.  I ran straight at him not even stopping until I ran into him pushing him to the ground.  I fell on top of him after losing my balance.  I held him in a hug not wanting to let him go.  I raised my face above his to see his expression.  He stared into the distance as a single tear fell to his cheek.  I slowly lowered my face and kissed his cheek where the tear was.  I then lifted myself off of him to sit next to him.  I watched him as he softly sat up.  When he looked at me I said, “V nareu saranghaejul sarameun neouya. (meaning:  the person that can love me is you.)  he smiled brightly and his eyes became watery.  He softly said, “can you please look away for a second?”  I said, “wae?”  his cheeks turned pink as he said, “cause I’m and ugly crier.  I laughed a little before grabbing his hands and pushing my lips into his.  Later we went back to the dorm and I fell asleep in V’s arms.  V seemed to be my own living dream catcher because as long as I was with him when I slept I never once had another nightmare.