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I’m so nervous, am i the only one who felt nervous? i always like this whenever i’m about to go to the next level of my life , tomorrow is the day ,i will step my foot on the next high level of my life , to enter a new world , senior high school ,they said it’ll be the best times of your life, they said it will be as good as gold, i’m not that sure though, i pass the junior high school smoothly, i mean , i’m still me , the obedient girl, pure, innocent,book freak , good score, obey the rules , just normal and sometimes i feel it’s so boring to being just me, just an ordinary human being, will i be the different girl in my new step of life? Well......... i don’t know, and i don’t think i would , being a good daughter for your parent is somewhat a good thing to do and i’m on that good terms all this far, yesterday i was so frantic about all the things and it’s always my mother who can tamed me , mommy said someone from a long long a go is coming back , but she forgot about that person right after my mommy talking with the parents of that person on the phone, just great, i was cleaning up my room , sweeping the floor and i was trying to reach out for dirt under my bed with broom but i got no dirt , maybe mommy had cleaned it up for me , oh but instead of meeting the dirt i see a small box under my bed , i don’t remember about this one, so i reach for it and clean it from the 10 cm thick dust , i wondering what is that , i try to remember but i can’t so i decided to just open it directly , but suddenly a glass lizard fell off the ceiling and they looks like tehy just fly around threatening me and the box with all the stuff inside the box fall free from my grip because i am so shocked , what’s that could be ? i bent down to pick it up , it’s a photo ........  and some pendant .......... i check the photo out first , i was startled when i see it , it’s an old memories , it’s a photo of me, a girl beside me holding a doll, wrap her hand around my shoulder, wearing glasses smiling warmly with the “V” sign, there’s also  boys , there are the 4 of them , the two of them is pinched the other guy who stand between them making a smug face, he looked scary and charismatic at the same time, but i found it weird because noone made such a face when they were being pinched from their right and left side, another tall guy showing his teeth standing in the centre of the frame, we looks so happy, and those pendant..... then... i suddenly cry, i personaly can’t believe that these stuff is still here. i just wish that i could have the heart to throw all of that things, i wish...

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“hey can you lend me the dishes? Table number 4!” “okaay, wait a sec” i run to get the dishes , today is really crowded with costumer , well it’s always like that everyday ,  i’m so happy to help my sister out to help her with our ramen shop, our old ramen shop , my sister smile to me when i lend her the dishes she want,

“ya! You wash up and go rest! Me and omma can handle this by ourself , you need to wake up early in the morning tomorrow, aigoo my little brother is now a senior high school student aigoo ommaa he has turn to be matured , can’t you see?” my sister pinch my cheek so hard while my mother laughing her hearts out while serving ramen, i just smiling widely because i really love the moments , the moment i had with omma and my older sister , it’s just heartwarming

“ah , no i want to help you untill all the costumers gone and our ramen is sold out!”

“omma is serving the last 2 bowl, go get some milk and get ready to be a senior high school boy hahaha” she push me with all her strength , she is right , i need to prepare for tomorrow ,

But i’m scared , my school is one of the high-rank school in town , rich peoples places , i’m araid if i will make friend there , oh god , i sigh and  intentionaly drop my body to the bed, close my eyes and wondering ............ i sat up and stare at a frame that placed on the table , its glass shining as i keep on staring on it , i reach out for it and smile , i hug that things and whisper my pray in my heart

“god, i want to be as happy as i am and those face in the picture, and i will never stop hoping for them to come back filling my boring day like the old times, even if you can’t bring them back to me, i just wish that i will meet peoples like them to be my best friend” i keep it in my chest and drove off without even remember to get a glass of milk.

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“bye los angles , welcome seoul, sobs , sobs, tweet”

“honeeyyy it’s allright, we can coming back to LA in your holiday , don’t cry again, or your dad will get angry”

“well, i just tweet that in my twitter account mom,but mommy....... i love it there, living in LA i just love it there...... i love every single things i had there , i don’t want to come back to seoul” i just can’t stop nagging just to make my parents feel guilty to make me come back to seoul , i don’t want leaving  LA!!! There’s no point to live here in seoul , i keep pouting untill my parents agreeing on going back to LA

“stop acting like kids, you are now a senior high school student , don’t be like that or you will never make friends in your new environtment!” my dad yelled as we get in the car

“but dad, why didn’t you tell me the reason ?? why seoul? Why leaving LA?! Why?!!” i tightened my grip on my chanel bag my feet pressed against my luboutin pump and making a sulky face in the most sulkiest way

“look, it’s not a little kiddo’s problem , understand? Just sit prettily we will visit your grandma first” my dad looking up straght to my eyes, it makes me shiver , i better stop yelling at him , i sigh and cling on mommy’s arm

“you angry ur daddy again, sweety” mommy kiss my forehead lightly and smile ,

“yah do whatever you like, i can’t accept it, why didn’t we just move to alabama? California? Or las vegas maybe? Or to eourope?! Germany? Why to seoul ugh” i rolled my eyes for the nth times already, my dad just won’t spill me the answer and my mom just busy sighing

Hey i’m a ing senior high school student from tomorrow onwards , and i hate the fact that i will do it in here ,in seoul , not LA! I hate it!! Looks, my dad just hiding all the things from me and he only tells mom what happened , did he think i don’t understand that he was facing a big problem?! I might still be his little daughter but hey! Who knows if i could help him out , he will regret his decision to not telling me everything! Damn it dad!!

“sweety , don’t forget to talking with korean language , don’t talk with english or any others language in front of your grandma” my dad keep rambling on , i don’t want to hear anything thus i will not stop speaking with english, because i want to make my parent send me back to LA!

“sweety , i found it on your old box , i think you lost it when you were packing , it’s a heart shaped pendant” WHAT??!! I face my mommy and staring at that heart shaped things on her hand , i reach it and i keep it on my hand

“mom thanks, i thought that i lost it forever, thanks god, you found it” my heart beats so fast because im so happy to having that pendant again

“no problem dear , be careful next time , okay” i nodded and hug my mom tight 

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“YAH are you willing to help me or not?!” i throw a pillow to my friend who said that he want to help me , today i’m moving on , because from tomorrow onwards , i will get into senior high school and knowing that i need to wake up really really early if i stay at home with my parents i decided to move out from my so far away home, altough my mommy cry me a river before she letting her beloved son to move out , i do love my parents and my older sister , but i really need to move out , first thing first , i get really busy nowadays , second my mom will surely shouting at me everyday because i will came late from school , third, oh gossshhh i can’t wake up that early in the morning! , i know i’m not that matured enough to living on my own but i know how much i need to doing all these things, besides my friend is also moving in next door , so no worries to me,

“bro , your phone!” my friend shouted at me while giving my phone to me,

“mom”

“mommyy wassaP?!”

“my baby........ you know what? I missed you allready” i heard her almost crying and i sigh countlessly , oh god my mommy is too much aigooo

“mom don’t tell me you call me just because you miss me allready? Mom you just left an hour a go ...” i can heard my friend chuckling behind me , i sent him my death glare and told him to shut up

“yea , sort of , ah! I just wanna tell you that i accidently left the box you told me to burn , i forgot to bring it with me , i’m sorry but honey , i advice that you can give those toys to orphanage or kindergaten , they might need it , that’s a good idea right?”

“oh , okay mom , i will give them to the orphanage when i finish cleaning up my new room, thanks”

“okay then , be carefull okay , oh and umm, check that box out first before you give them to anyone else because i remember i packed your mini cars collections together with your old toys”

“moooom i’m searching my mini cars collection everywhere! Oh thanks god it’s still here i though i lost it all! , okay mom i’ll continue cleaning up my room , bye , love you” i drop my phone on my new coffee table in the booth ,

“TOYS” hearing that words , i run hurriedly in to my friends side , he found the box my mom was talking about! I’m so happy to finally find my cars collections ,

“shooo ! get out of my room , i can handle to cleaning my room by my own now, you can leave now” i give him a proud high five

“tschh!! You shameless!!! This room is allready clean!!! Now you told me to get out after i did all of this to you huh?!!” he smack me right in the head , i scream and smack his head back

“you fool!! It’s not like you’re the one who unpacked things!! You are just helping me here and it’s all mine! Just go shoo shoo”

“yaah!! Why are you so irritating??!!” he give me his nasty look , that’s fine really, we always bickering all the time ,

“i said get out ! why didn’t you get out huh?!!  Get out or i will kick you out of the band!!” i blackmailed him , i told him to get out of here because i need to unpacking my mini cars collection and i know he do loves mini cars too , same like me , and i know he will never get out if he didn’t get what he want so i better shoo him right now or never,

“whoaah!! Slow down leader! I’ll go i’ll go , just don’t kick me out of the band , bye!!” he said slaming the door , i just laugh at his act , he is dumb really , i sigh and open the box , i see a picture then my mini cars collection below!! OMG i’m so happy !!! i take the picture see it slightly and grab all my mini cars collection as fast as possible before that little came back just to ask me some random stupid questions , just when i saw my very very old mini cars , the vision of that picture i saw a while a go just came up all of sudden , i remember that picture!! I put my very old mini cars down back into the box and searching for that picture frantically , i don’t know it just something in my heart told me to found it , “yea found it!!!” i punch the air with my fist and staring at the picture in my hand , “WHOAA LOOK WHO’S HERE!!! Even i look really handsome when i was child! Ha this picture is good! I looks so happy a long back there ,hey! I have 2 beautiful friends back there? Ahahaha sweet! ah i will cut out myself from that photo and just throw the remaining away , i’m so cool from the first time i came to this world hahaha, i shake my head in annoyance of my own words

“now where’s scissors i want to cut my face out of that picture” i now searching for scissors but i can’t find it , then i realize that my room still looks like a mess , so ain’t nobody got time for scissors and cutting their face out of a picture , “let’s get your room very clean!”  i shouted and just pin the picture in the wall then continue to cleaning my room up.

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to be continue