"I am standing here as I only see you
After this love, I don’t really know what will happen
Just like child who is always this way,
Will you warmly hold me closer?"

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Starring down at the floor, my mind was still trying to adjust to the event at hand. Busy people rush past us, speed walking to their desired location. Some heading out of the airport, others heading inside. Families stick together as their loved ones return from their flight, as well as others head onto them. No matter what was happening, or how you saw it, I hated airports. It was the sign of goodbye. I hated goodbyes. As I sat on the uncomfortable foamy chairs placed for those who were waiting, I couldn't help but notice just how calm he was about all this. Of course he was calm, this was all just part of his job. He was supposed to take care of me, protect me, make sure I stayed on the right track, maintain a positive life. That was his purpose here. But, he was never supposed to love me.

Lee Taemin wasn't just any man, he was an family friend that my parents believed would help me get over my depression, and stop hating the world as much as I did. They were right. At first, when I met him again, I didn't see the purpose of his stay. I saw him as a guard dog, a nuisance, a spy for my parents. Now, it's all different. His words, his wise ways, they're all part of something special inside me that I can't seem to let go. He's changed me. For the better. All those months he had stayed with me, always by my side, always there when I fell, always knowing what to do when I became stubborn, I experienced something new. My true first love.

It all still sounds crazy to me when I think about it. That's all I've been really thinking about these past few days before his leave, Him. I knew there was a limit to our time together, I knew there was at some point going to be a time when I would have to start getting used to not seeing him again, I didn't know just how madly I would have fallen in love with him. I begged my heart to stop feeling such a way, to get over it, but it seems like it's just as stubborn as I am. There is still so much I want to do with him, be next to him, just know that he is safe and sound. I would no longer be there anymore. Not after this day.

A light tap is felt on my shoulder waking me from my thoughts. He flashes an sincere smile, "You okay?" I flash a fake smile, one that I had been practicing for this day, "Yeah". His smile fades once I answer. Dammit. "Sulli-" "Flight 1549 will begin boarding in apporximently 10 mins" The announcer says clearly. 10 minutes. Only 10 minutes I had left of his time. Tears had already begun to build up in my eyes. No, Sulli. Don't break down now. You're better than this. Don't be sad, it's okay. I had to keep reminding myself about why this was for the better. I mean, I was the one who pushed him to go, I couldn't ask him to stay now. Not when such a great oppurtunity has arose for him.

Taemin was accepted into one of his top four colleges he had studies so hard for. Unfortunately, it was all the way in the States. No, would have been my imeditate answer if he asked me if he should stay, but it wasn't right. I saw him as he worked his of on all those college papers and essays, i saw how focused and intent he was on studying english and the other subjects he would cover over there. There was nothing left for him here. I was holding him back, and I couldn't be selfish with him as much as I wanted too. No, I wouldn't be selfish with him. I wouldn't ruin another relationship due to myself.

Getting up, Taemin starts making sure all his bags are with him. His phone is in his packet. His passport and wallet are in his pocket. He was ready. Standing up, I look at him, I mean really look at him. Taking in all his features, I close my eyes locking them in my memory forever in safe keeping. He sighs as a tear rolls down from my close eyes. Quickly, he takes me in an embrace that was much needed. Kissing my head, he pats my back, inhaling my scent as he breathes deeply. This was just as hard for him as it was for me. "Please don't cry, I hate it when you do that. It kills me." He whispers. It was true. Everytime I was sad, something in him was triggered and he couldn't help but feel sad or mad with me.

Breaking the embrace, I wipe my tears away with the sleve of my sweater. My puffy eyes were much more visible now, "I can't believe this is really happening. Time flies by so fast". He weakly smiles. "Yeah." His voice already breaking, "Sulli, there's something you should know." I cross my arms keeping warm and listening. "All these months I spent here, with you, I'm trully grateful for it. I know what you're thinking, even when you're silent. You mean more to me than anything, and I love you. I do. I really do. I don't want to leave you here alone, but I know this is for the best. We both know that." I nod, more tears coming out. "I wouldn't ask you to stay even if I wanted to." He chuckles noting my slight sarcasm.

"Flight 1549 will now begin boarding. Flight 1549 will depart in apporximently 30 mins." The soundspeaker says loudly and very clearly. "That's me." He says. I nod. Slowly but surely, he grabs me by my waist and takes me into a longing passionate kiss. Our last kiss. I run my fingers through his air once our kiss ends. Behind him, a line of people progressively turn in their passports as they enter the boarding area. He turns back and looks to before setting his eyes back down at mine.

This was it. It was time. The time I had prayed and wished for would never come, would never happen. We both keep quiet, only staring each other in the eye, locking one another in a gaze. His mouth twitched as if he was ready to say something, but quickly falls flat not wanting the moment to end either. One of us had to let the other go. I wouldn't let it be him, I couldn't bear it. This was it. This was our last time being in each others precense.

Slowly, I mutter:

"Will you warmly hold me closer?"

We both embrace in a hug. His arms wraped around me tightly, and mines wraped around him tightly. I was sure that this was the real deal, the real man for me. Lee Taemin. Hearing the announcement again, I bid him a goodbye and wish him safety. He kisses me quickly one last time before walking off. I watched him as he entered the boarding area, watched him get on the plain, and watched him fly away from my life forever. I love him, forever I will. Days after, Weeks after, even months, all I longed for was him. To be in his embrace. To be closer.

Authors Note:

Hello everyone, that was a quick oneshot of one of my favorite couples Taelli. I'm sorry if it wasn't that good, I'm still working and trying to improve on my writing. I hoped you enjoyed. Please leave me a comment below on what you thought. Thanks for reading. :)