Day 22-23: Voluntary Exit

House of 20's
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MEDIA AND NETIZENS CORNER

BREAKING NEWS: TAEYEON CONFESSES LOVE FOR G-DRAGON
1. JUST AS QUICKLY AS THE CUT SPREAD, AS QUICKLY AS MBC SUSPENDED VIDEO UPLOADERS.
2. YG and SM are obviously cleaning this up. Daebak!

FANS QUESTION AUTHENTICITY OF TAEYEON'S LOVE CONFESSION VIDEO

@jjfppah tweeted:
It was for a task, so Taeyeon was probably rehearsing a script.

@ndophd tweeted:
Duh!! This was a cut from the HouseWatch livestreaming, which only shows raw footages. This wasn't a nightly episode that was edited. Seems Sones and Exotics can't handle the truth.


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GARDEN AND FRONT PORCH, 3:17 AM (OFF CAMERA)

"I can't stay in this house. I will voluntarily leave tomorrow. YG's fighting to pull me out anyway," he softly said, piercing me painfully with those hazelnut eyes. Then... he said...

"I can't live with you anymore."

It hurt. Very much so, as a matter of fact. I was about to open my mouth to respond to him, but then he shouted: "I said don't talk!"

His scream reminded me that we were not supposed to talk to each other while inside the House of 20's. Obviously, that rule was broken from his side. Though I didn't want even look at him, it became very difficult to avoid his gazes. He was being far too emotional in this moment.

"I can't live with myself knowing you hate me when we're only a few feet apart, when we have to talk, when we have to work and play and live together. I can't do that," he continued, looking down, allowing me to finally look away and feel a little bit relieved. I was about to reason out, but his hand signaled me to shut up. "Please don't talk back Taeyeon. Just don't break the rules for my sake."

Again, I was shut up.

"I'm not forcing you to accept my apology. But knowing what we both went through, I know it's for our own mental and emotional health to stop living together. I'm going to voluntarily exit the house as soon as I hear from YG. This way, you can stay here until the end of the show."

That last part he explained did not help his case of shutting me up. I didn't like that he controlled the situation, even my ability to talk. He continued talking, explaining, shutting me off, until I couldn't take it anymore.

"You gotta stop doing this!" I screamed. Emotionally.

"Why did you talk back?! I was gonna leave so I broke the rule! You have to stay here inside!" he screamed back, just as flabbergasted and emotional as I was.  We were still in the vicinity of the garden hallway, and I hoped to God none of our housemates would be awakened by our shouting match.

"You're doing it again Jiyong! You are making me the bad person!"

"I'm not--"

"STOP SAVING ME! STOP SACRIFICING! JUST FREAKING STOP!"

"That's not the intention--"

"This forces me to accept your forgiveness, or I will seem like a complete ! This is another of your sacrifice for my sake! This is so unfair! This is very, very, very unfair!"

"I would never force you to--"

"WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS MAKING ME GO CRAZY LIKE THIS? I WAS ALREADY FINE! I WAS MOVING ON! I WAS FINALLY NORMAL! I DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE THIS AGAIN!"

I heard another person shout for me. No, that was me. All me. The pent up Kim Taeyeon, the calmed, caged, and sleeping Taeyeon was unleashed once more. Just as Kwon Jiyong brought out the best in me, he was also the person who brought out the worst side of me. The crazy, emotional, unstable and unhealthy me.

"DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW HARD IT IS TO BE ANXIOUS, OVERTHINKING AND STRESSED OUT LIKE THIS? IT'S SO ING HARD! I CAN'T GO THROUGH THE SAME ING THING JIYONG! I DON'T WANT TO FEEL LIKE I WANT TO DIE AGAIN! I DON'T WANT ANOTHER MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN OR I MIGHT NOT SURVIVE IT AGAIN!"

Oh God, here it is. I choked. My throat tightened. My stomach knotted. My mind twirled, and I ran out of breath. Shouting that loud caused me to run out of energy, of air, of sanity...

He worried, coming to my aid and saying, "Are you..."

"I c-can't b-breathe," was all I could say before he held me in his arms, catching me as I surrendered to gravity.

The anxiety attack was coming, and it was going to hit me hard.


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TAEYEON IN HOT WATERS FOR RELATIONSHIP INFIDELITY
1. How disgusting! Dating a 22-yr old, then cheating on him on live television? Really Kim Taeyeon? Way to represent this generation of women.
2. She said "loved," PAST TENSE. She was just resolving an open past so shut the up haters!
3. Thank you for bringing Baekhyun opp back to us. Rot in hell with your manwhore .


 

MBC HOUSE OF 20'S SUFFER TV RATINGS DIP WITH LACK OF GD AND TAEYEON CUTS

@skjcisoow tweeted:
Gaaahd these past episodes were so lackluster without the loveline of GD and Taengooooooo!

@fhjeosouc tweeted:
1 week without GD and Taeng is torture. Bring them back pleeeeeeeeeeease!

@djjifslo tweeted:
The force love triangle between Suzy, Soohyun and Yuna can't even save the show. The GD-Tae-Yuna kept this rolling. Bring them back!!!

PRODUCERS CONFIRM GD-TAEYEON APPEARANCE IN THIS WEEK'S HO20'S


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FRONT PORCH, 4:05 AM (ON CAMERA, AIRED IN THE NIGHTLY EPISODE)

Jung Hyungdon: It's been too long since we got a glimpse of the most controversial icons, Big Bang's G-Dragon, and SNSD's Taeyeon. Tonight, we can't ignore the public clamor any longer. Watch as the two housemates shared an emotional interaction inside. As their talk got deeper and deeper, as Jiyong and Taeyeon shared about their innermost feelings with one another, perhaps the coldness of the night had a bad effect on our Taengoo.

"You're... having... an anxiety attack. ," observed Jiyong, holding the weakening woman in his arms

"Oh my God, I can't b-breathe. I c-can't," Kim Taeyeon weakly muttered, fully falling in his hold.

"Taeyeon, oh ."

"Make it... s-stop..." she begged, struggling to inhale as much air as she could, but her tears were preventing her from doing so. "Stop it, p-please!"

Jiyong could see her attempting to breathe in and out as he assisted her in sitting down on the garden couch. However, Taeyeon failed in her meditation and breathing exercises. The emotions were just too powerful that all she could do was cry and inhale desperately. Jiyong stood up and went to the two-way mirrors surrounding the garden, and knocking in each one by one. He then reached the door where the PDs usually entered from, barging and knocking with no regards.

"Someone open this door! Anyone! I'm going to break this ing door! PD noona, PD hyung please! Taeyeon needs help!

Park Myungsoo: Uh-oh? What's going on? Our Taeyeon, who almost had an ulcer attack a day ago, suddenly found difficulty breathing! Of course, our strong Jiyongie came to her rescue. But this was no ordinary attack. For our viewer's information, SNSD's Kim Taeyeon was actually hospitalized after this incident. We will provide you more information about her health condition in just a few moments.

"Help me. I c-can't breathe. I n-need water. Water. P-Please," Taeyeon begged, now holding on to and stomach in the hopes of normalizing her breathing.

"DAMN IT, WE NEED WATER IN HERE!!!" Jiyong shouted, giving another round of knocking. "Anyone, help please! What's taking so long?"

"J-Jiyong, h-help me..." Taeyeon's plea caused him to give up on calling for help, and he came to her aid once
more, sitting by her on the couch. He held on her hands, his tears couldn't be avoided. "I'm here. I'm so sorry Tae. I..."

"Get out of the way Jiyong!" someone shouted, and when Jiyong looked back, he saw that the entire medical crew and production staff have finally entered the garden vicinity.

"She needs to go to the hospital," he explained

"We know, Jiyong. Let her go!"

He explained further that, "Taeyeon had anxiety attacks before, and they were never good--"

"She will get help, don't worry. Now get out of the way," the PD said, brushing him off and pushing him away from the ambulance door.

"I want to be with her! I gotta go to the hospital with her--"

But Taeyeon was escorted inside the door, surrounded by medical professionals. Finally, the door was shut closed on Jiyong, leaving him alone and worried with the rest of the PDs.


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MBC ENDS GD-TAEYEON LOVELINE DRAUGHT WITH HO20 THURSDAY EPISODE
1. Whoah, what's with the change of pace MBC? Showing GD all concerned for Taeyeon... wow. Amazing of their thick-face.
2. I smell a master media play coming from SM and YG. How would they play this out with their leading stars becoming emotional infidels?

TAEYEON NEARLY FAINTS WITH ANXIETY BECAUSE OF G-DRAGON?
1. What could they have talked about for Taeyeon to almost faint like that? Their past seems to be larger than life, having risked being tagged as cheaters.
3. Lee Byunghun: Thank you, G-dragon. Kim Hyunjoong: Thank you, Taeyeon.


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GARDEN, 9:03 AM (ON CAMERA)

"Oppa? Hey, wake up?" a female voice said.

Jiyong felt someone nudge his arm, and he opened his eyes. Quickly, the rush of the past hour's events came back, causing him to jolt up in panic.

"Taeyeon? What happened? Where's Taeyeon? What time is it?" he asked consecutively, standing up and making sense of his surrounding. He was still in the garden, having fallen asleep in the couch. The female housemates were all outside with him, still in their night pajamas.

"We don't know," answered Soojoo. "They asked us to gather in the living room for an announcement. Your punishment has been lifted."

"But Taeyeon--"

The booming voice of Elder Yoo Jaesuk cut him off. "Go to the living room, Kwon Jiyong. I will update everyone about Taeyeon."

"What happened oppa?"

"Where's Taeyeon unnie?"

"Oppa, your eyes are puffy. Did you cry all night?"

The ladies kept throwing questions at GD, and they along with him made their way inside the house. The male housemates were already completely gathered in the living room couch, and they all greeted Jiyong with so much questions. When everyone has sat down, they all looked at the living room television, where Elder Yoo appeared through a livestream.

"Last night, Taeyeon was rushed to the hospital due to an acute anxiety episode."

The collective gasp of the housemates could be heard, and everyone's face filled with worry. Yuna even cried. Jiyong, on the other hand, just sat there on one couch, looking at the ground, punishing himself over and over.

"She is already in a better condition, but she would need to rest and recuperate. The doctors required two full days of recovery for her. She is currently with her family and friends at the hospital. At this point, we are unsure about her status as a competing icon."

"Oh my god!"

"She had an anxiety attack?"

"Isn't there something called anxiety disorder?"

"What caused it?"

"That is serious! What's going on?"

Jiyong was the lone soul in that house who knew the truth. Kim Taeyeon had been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, causing her to check out from reality and suffer from bouts of panic attacks whenever she recalled the traumatic memories of the past. Jiyong knew that many of those traumatic events involved him.

"Ultimately, a discussion with Taeyeon, her family, and SM Entertainment, shall decide if she will continue competing as the Ultimate Icon. Right now, the competition shall continue as normal with the nine remaining icons."


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WILL SM PUSH FOR TAEYEON'S VOLUNTARY EXIT?

PUBLIC WANT TAEYEON OUT OF THE HOUSE OF 20'S

TAEYEON'S MENTAL HEALTH BECOME A HOT TOPIC
1. She had a history of depression, and now an anxiety attack. She is crazy!!!
2. Whoah. No wonder she is shameless. She is a total whackjob.

WHY DID SM AGREE TO REVEAL TAEYEON'S MENTAL STATE?

NETIZENS SPECULATE ABOUT KIM TAEYEON'S MENTAL ILLNESS


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COUNCIL ROOM, 11:24 AM (ON CAMERA)

Elder Yoo: What can I do for you Jiyong?

Jiyong: (bowed down) I would like to respectfully tender my voluntarily exit from the house.

Elder Yoo: For what reason?

Jiyong: (looked up, facing the camera that streamed towards Elder Yoo's place) I want to see Taeyeon.

Elder Yoo: What if she doesn't want to see you?

Jiyong: (paused, breathing in and out) It still wouldn't feel right staying inside when I caused her possible withdrawal from the competition. If there's someone who should be disqualified, it's me.

(Silence)

Elder Yoo: Do you think leaving the house would make Taeyeon stay here? If Taeyeon chooses to still withdraw, then your voluntary exit would be pointless.

Jiyong: (tearing up, anxious and unsure) I just want this to end. Joining this show wasn't a good decision. I just want to see Taeyeon. (bowed his head and started wiping his tears)

Elder Yoo: How should an icon react under pressure?

Jiyong: W-what? (Looked up)

Elder Yoo: You should realize by now that everything that has happened in the last 48-hours is a test of character. The Korean youth, 3000 of which is currently camped outside the House of 20's for you, idolize you. They look up to you, value your opinion, are inspired by you, dream to become like you, and most of all, respect you. Do you think that giving up the game because of one challenge is a good example to them?

Jiyong: (confused) But my personal life is now involved. Mixing my professional life from my private affairs caused a very important people in my life to be hospitalized. I caused her ulcer the other day, I caused her anxiety attack last night, and I don't know how to live with that Elder Yoo!

(Silence)

Elder Yoo: I am sure you are aware that many people consider you a trendsetter, an icon. Why else would you be invited to the House of 20's? But it seemed you have forgotten to be careful, mindful, of your actions.

Jiyong: (shook his head repeatedly) I don't understand what I'm supposed to do. I was told my company wants to pull me out. I know I've set myself up for trouble by being careless inside the house. Right now, I really don't even care about the media or the netizens. I just need Taeyeon to be alright!

(Silence)

(Looked down and covered his face) I really don't know what to do or say or how to react or behave in here. Let me out so I can freely behave without the weight of the world watching me. I really just want to know how Taeyeon is.

(Silence)

Elder Yoo: Watch this Jiyong.

Suddenly, the flat screen television in the council room came to life, revealing what seemed to be a video clip.

Jiyong: What's this?

Elder Yoo: This should give you an idea of how to react or behave, and what to do or say, while inside the house.

Jiyong silently watched a montage of multitudes of people camped somewhere, screaming and shouting. It was no ordinary montage. It was, in fact, a documentary clip showcasing what happened outside the House of 20's.

...Those are your fans and Taeyeon's fans, sacrificing comfort just to help you. The VIPs and Sones joined hands to feed you and save you when the elders punished you with fasting. As a campaign to stop your hunger, your fans have raised $100,000, and tons of food donations, for the hungry children of Africa and Nepal...


...Also, only ten hours after news of Taeyeon's anxiety attack, your fans have raised $50,000 in donations to the National Mental Health Institute. As a matter of fact, the video tag #understandinganxiety is trending globally right now to raise awareness for various anxiety disorders. Your fans are showing the world that people who suffer from anxiety are not crazy, not a whackjob, not abnormal. People can be cruel, but the people who look up to you and Taeyeon are quick to defend your name and honor...


...This is how much you and Taeyeon impact the youth. This is how influential you both are. You have to realize, know, and appreciate just how much you every word and every action affects millions of lives. Not just in Korea, but worldwide...

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PUBLIC DEBATES WHETHER G-DRAGON AND TAEYEON ARE "CHEATING"
1. Acting all concerned for Taeyeon, I wonder what Kiko and Baek must be feeling.

#STAYSTRONGBAEK AND #KEEPTHEFAITHKIKO TREND

MIZUHARA KIKO AND BYUN BAEKHYUN GAIN SYMPATHY IN SOCIAL NETWORKING SITES

CRITICS SHARE STRONG OPINION ON HOUSE OF 20'S IMPACT ON THE YOUTH
1. Icons of cheating. Yeah, MBC hit daeback with the so-called icons.
2. If GD or Taeng emerge victorious, how shameful for Korea's youth icon to be models of unfaithfulness and shamelessness. Icons of betrayal and infidelity.
3. World's most blind fans go to VIPs and Sones.


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COUNCIL ROOM, 11:45 AM (ON CAMERA)

Elder Yoo: What can you say?

Jiyong: (uneasy and still bowed down) Th-thank you, and I'm s-sorry.

Elder Yoo: That's all?

(Silence)

Jiyong: (looked up, calmed down) My fans have always had my back, and I am thankful to them with all my heart for doing good deeds in my name. Thank you. Thank you very much...

(Silence)

...but I still want to leave the house.

I want to see Taeyeon. I need to see Taeyeon. This isn't right. Meeting inside, hurting inside, being boxed in a world where the people freely judged us and our broken heart... I can't continue living with it.


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MEDIA AND NETIZENS CORNER

YG VISITS THE HOUSE OF 20'S
"G-dragon is an adult who has his own mind. I do not dictate his feelings, his actions, and his beliefs.bI will personally discuss with him his future in the House of 20's. If he says he wants to exit the house, then I will fully support him."

TIFFANY AND SUNNY ENTERS THE HOUSE OF 20'S
"Fany and I just came together with Taeyeon's family and the five other members. Taeyeon is not in good condition to make any decision. We can tell you this for sure: everyone who loves her thinks it's in her best interest to withdraw from the competition."


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COUNCIL ROOM, 06:52 PM (ON CAMERA)

Elder Yoo: Jiyong, thank you for coming back to talk to me after our emotional exchange earlier. Please prepare to leave the house in an hour.

Jiyong: (surprised) Are you finally accepting my request for a voluntary exit?

Elder Yoo: At this time, the van is waiting to bring you to the hospital. The elders decided to let you visit Taeyeon.

 

(Silence)


Jiyong: Will the whole world watch?

(Silence)

Elder Yoo: Yes, we will.


 

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TEASER

"I'm sorry Kim umma and Kim appa. I didn't expect to meet her in the house. If I had the choice, I would have prevented it."

"Please set our daughter free from the past, Jiyong. As her mother, I humbly beg of you. You already hurt her enough."

"Please tell me what I can do to earn your forgiveness again."

"Stay inside the House of 20's."

"What? Why? What for?"

"You both need to stay and learn to live together in this world. That is the only way Taeyeon can begin truly moving on."

Clearly, even up to this day, everyone who rooted for Taeyeon and me were still convinced that I slept with Mizuhara Kiko on the night of Taeyeon's 23rd birthday.


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