"Jun!" I can hear her screaming faintly. She drops her textbooks on the floor as she rushes to my side and collapsing onto her knees. She's wearing her favorite blouse, the blue floral chiffon one. I remember the first time I saw her wearing it, it was our first date.

"Jun!" She screams again shaking my hand violently,with her other hand she reaches for her phone in the back pocket of her dark blue jeans.

"Sorry.."  I try to say, but my lips are dry and all the air in my lungs escaped.

"They're coming , Sweetie. It's okay." She says softly, she is trying to calm me down. Truthfully, I'm not scared that I'm dying. I'm just sad that I  broke my promise. I promised to never let her cry again, but here she is crying over me. Useless, you've always been useless. You could never make her happy. "Hold on." She says , I watch her tiny pink lips press into a straight line as her tears lands onto my shirt. I can see in slow motion that she is reaching her bloody hand towards my face, and when she places her hand on where my cheek is, I couldn't feel her warm hands or her thumb rubbing circles on my jaw. I felt nothing. I was numb.

"Stay awake. Keep your eyes open. I know it hurts, just wait a little more." My eyes focuses then unfocuses on her quivering lip. A pool of tears had gathered near the edge of her eyes. I'm so sorry, SooJoong. I didn't want you to see me like this.

As if she could hear my thoughts, she gave me a little smile and kisses my forehead. I struggle, using all my strength to reach for her hand, for one last time. Oh, how I wish I could just feel something again.

She looks down at my hand and I try to look into her eyes, but eyes wouldn't cooperate. My eyes land on her favorite blouse, all covered in my blood.