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Yixing was high. No, not just metaphorically… He was high as always. Well maybe not always. He wasn’t like this before. But he’s lost everything at one day when he was 14. No one could bear with the pain he felt that day. He had everything one person could ask for: loving parents, lots of friends and good grades he even had a boyfriend but that’s another thing. Then, that was all gone in a second. When he and his parents were going to the mall they had an accident. His parents didn’t die. At least while the ambulance had brought them to the hospital, but the doctors couldn’t save them. The only one who survived was Yixing. But again, he was so close with his parents it was impossible for him to move on from their death.  From then he literally stopped talking to his friends, broke up with his boyfriend, didn’t go to his classes and he didn’t even leave his house unless it was for drugs or a little alcohol or when he didn’t smoke weed he’d go to a club or a party or something. And all this since he was 15. Fake IDs, fake ‘friends’…everything was fake, and Yixing was broken. If not broken then bent. He had a guardian but soon he gave up and left Yixing when he was 17. And he was alone. Until certain someone came and changed everything.

~ ~ ~

It was Friday and Kris was bored. As soon as he got home he plopped down on his bed and put in his earphones but then his phone vibrated as he got a message from Chanyeol, his best friend.

Hey do u wanna go to a party at JongIn’s? I heard it’ll be awesome

He just smiled and texted back

Sure im bored anyways when should we go?

I pick you up at 8

ok

It was 6 so he had two hours to get ready. He took a long shower and picked out my clothes. When he thought he looked fine enough he styled his hair and it was already 7:45. He waited for Chanyeol. He came a bit earlier than he said and they headed to JongIn’s house.

“Hey man what’s up?” JongIn asked right after he opened the door for them.

“Nothing really… dude I hope this will be good cause I’m hella bored so better make it exciting!” Kris said and walked past his friend who just laughed him off. Kris got himself something to drink and sat down on the couch.

There were a lot of people. He hardly knew the half of them. While he was looking at the dance floor he saw a guy. His moves were mesmerizing and Kris couldn’t bring himself to look away. Although the boy was so thin and you could see just by looking at him how sad and tired he was, in Kris’ eyes he was beautiful.

 He got up from the couch and walked up to the dancing boy in front of him. The guy didn’t seem to care about the people surrounding him. Kris stood behind him and slowly started to dance together with the boy. He gently grabbed his waist from behind and swayed their bodies to the music.  For a few minutes they stayed like that but then the boy suddenly turned around, looked in Kris’ eyes and Kris could swear his heart skipped a beat. The guy’s eyes were so dead it almost scared him. He had huge bags under his eyes and he just looked so tired and Kris didn’t know why.

“Yixing” the boy said and Kris nearly fainted. He tried to smile and said.

“Yifan” Yes he-for some reason- told the guy his real name. And they danced until Yixing suddenly grabbed him by the neck and smashed their lips together. Kris was surprised at first but since he already drank quite a bit he easily warmed up to the kiss. It was sloppy and messy, teethes crashing.  He pulled Yixing closer to him, flat against his chest and Yixing fisted his hand in Kris’ hair. They pulled away for air but as soon as they breathed in they attacked each other again. Kris quickly carried Yixing upstairs in an empty room and pressed him against the wall. But then he tasted something salty and he stopped kissing him. Kris looked down at Yixing and realized that the other was crying, not really crying but his tears were falling out while he kept his eyes closed. Kris didn’t know what was wrong so he just cupped the other’s face in his large hands.

“Hey Yixing! Is everything okay?” Yes he was worried and he didn’t know what happened. The boy just shook his head and tried to kiss Kris again but he didn’t let him.

“No, Xing look at me! What happened?” but Yixing just lost his patience and quickly left the room. Kris was utterly confused and just stood there. At first he wanted to go after him but then he realized he didn’t even know the guy why would he run after him? But after sometime the door opened and two figures came in eating each other’s face of. Kris recognized Chanyeol and grabbed his arm.

“Oh hey bro you were there? I didn see you ya know! look here he’s Baekkie isn’t he just a cutie?” Chanyeol said smiling wildly and Kris knew that he was totally drunk.

“Oh yeah I see, nice to meet you ‘Baekkie’. Then…um I think I should leave, bye!” He said then left the room. He looked around for Yixing but didn’t find him so instead he decided to go home. Chanyeol would be alright. He wanted to ask JongIn about Yixing but everyone including JongIn seemed to be very very drunk. So he just left. That night he didn’t sleep at all.

The next day he received a text message from Chanyeol.

God dude my head hurts like hell…and I guess I did something stupid..When did u leave?

You mean ing that ‘Baekkie’ guy yeah maybe that was stupid..he was a stranger…and I left when you two were getting it on…

well no not the ing part was stupid..more like that I think I love him Kris..

wtf? love at first sight or what? at first ? jesus Yeol you’re hopeless

yeah I know…but I’m still your bestie:P oh and I saw you with a guy…what happened with him?

Yeah right…um yeah he’s name is Yixing and I don’t know…I kinda liked him tho

Yixing? that Yixing?? JongIn told me about him…well he didn’t know much but well he said that kid is dead…all he does is just partying, drinking, smoking and sleeping around…seriously what’s wrong with him?

JongIn said that? Does he know him?

I don’t know bro…

Kris then got dressed picked up his jacket and headed to JongIn’s.

“ Hey, did you left something here or what?” asked JongIn with a grin and let him in.

“No I’m just here because Chanyeol said that you know some things about Yixing. You know, that guy who was here yesterday. Do you by any chance know his phone number? Or his address?” he asked him and he really didn’t know why he was so interested in this guy.

“ Um well, I’m not sure If he has a phone or not but I think I know where he lives.” He gave Kris a little paper with the information, Kris looked at it with wide eyes since the guy was basically his neighbor.

~ ~ ~

Yixing really didn’t know why he ran away from that Yifan guy but he couldn’t handle it. Yifan was so nice to him and he didn’t know what to do. At every party he attends he’d pick a guy that seemed like he wouldn’t mind a one night stand and leave with him. But then Yifan came and Yixing didn’t have a choice. He looked in his eyes and he didn’t know what to do. So he ran away. The next day he woke up to loud knocking on his door. He glanced at the clock and it was already 1pm. He slowly got up.

“Who is this? People don’t usually come to me…maybe this person got lost?” he muttered and opened the door but when he saw who it was, he immediately shut it back. Yifan?? How does he know where I live? And why is he here? We didn’t even do anything yesterday. Yixing thought then he heard Yifan’s voice.

“Hey Yixing! Could you please open up? I…I…I’m not really sure why I’m here..I just..oh come on please let me in I..I want to talk to you.” He wants to talk to him? Why would he? But Yixing opened the door anyway.

“Why are you here?” he asked, voice a bit hoarse. Yifan gulped.

“ Can you let me in? I’ll try to explain.” Yixing stood aside to let him in and closed the door. He led him to the kitchen of his very small apartment. Yixing stood in front of him and raised an eyebrow. Yifan looked at him then gulped again.

“So?” Yixing asked.

“Soo… You know.. well I’m not really sure…but you know… I really liked you when I saw you the first time that’s why I started to dance with you…and ..I don’t know…when you started crying I just had the urge to protect you or something and I couldn’t just leave like you did so this morning I asked around for you and JongIn gave me your address.” For a second Yixing stared at him with surprise in his eyes but quickly put on his ordinary poker face.

“I see. Thank you for telling me. Is there anything else?”

“Well..no, but I thought-“

“Good then I think you should leave, bye!” Yixing said, gently pushing Yifan out of his apartment and closing the door. He went back to his room and laid down on his bed. Why did he come back? What does he want from him? Why can’t he just leave like everyone? Yixing closed his eyes and fell back asleep.

~ ~ ~

Meanwhile Kris just stood in front of Yixing’s door. He didn’t understand what had happened a few moments ago. Why did Yixing kick him out like this? He sighed and went home. He didn’t even know why he was so concerned about Yixing.

It had been a week that Kris got kicked out and somehow…he just wanted to see Yixing again. You would say that it’d be easy because they lived close to each other. Kris even went to Yixing’s house almost every day but he just couldn’t bring himself to actually knock and talk to him. He thought that Yixing will just ignore him or shut him out again. But then one night he was walking home when he saw two figures talking in front of Yixing’s house. He didn’t mean to eavesdrop but it was Yixing so he was indeed curious. So when he went closer he could see that Yixing bought something.

“ Lay, you need to be careful, that’s some rough stuff.” The guy said and at first Kris didn’t know who was he talking to because, who was Lay? But then he realized it must be Yixing.

“ Yeah, yeah… why do you care anyways. Here’s the money.”

“I don’t care. We just used to say that to our clients.” The other guy shrugged and gave Yixing something. They waved to each other then the guy went off and Yixing walked to his door. Kris quickly followed him and when he reached him he grabbed his arm and turned him around.

“ What was that?” Kris asked and Yixing just looked at him with wide eyes.

“ What the Yifan? What are you doing here?” He asked while he was trying to shrug him off.

“ What did he gave you? Drugs?” Kris asked again and grabbed both of Yixing’s hand and took out the little plastic bag.

“ What’s wrong with you? Give it back! Who do you think you are??” Yixing tried to snatch away the bag from Kris but it was useless. He was so much taller than him.

“ Oh I see. Well good job Xing. Why are you ruining your life with these things? You shouldn’t.” Kris shook his head.

“ And who are you to tell me that? We just saw each other twice. Or thrice if we count this but- never mind you don’t have the right to just come here and tell me what I should do. You don’t know me and we’ll keep it that way.” Yixing pulled away, went in and slammed his door.

“ Why is he so hard to be with?” Kris sighed. At that second he decided he’d do anything to bring Yixing back.

The next day when Kris woke up he quickly took a shower and dressed up before he headed to Yixing’s. It was quiet. He knocked on the door. Nothing. He tried again, but nothing. He pulled down the doorknob and the door opened.

“ He doesn’t close the door? How careless…” he murmured and went in. He knew that he didn’t have the right to just walk into someone’s house but he couldn’t help it.

“Yixing?” Kris searched for him but didn’t get an answer so he walked into Yixing’s room. The boy was there, spread on his bed. It’d look cute if Kris didn’t saw the bags under his eyes and the now empty plastic bag from yesterday.

“ Oh my did he smoke all of that in one night?” Kris couldn’t hide it he was worried for Yixing and they didn’t even know each other. The other’s room was a mess, the curtains were closed and the floor was full of empty bottles and dirty clothes.  He sighed.

“ Yixing! Yixing!” He called for him, hoping he would wake up. Yixing stirred but didn’t wake up. Kris walked closer to him and shook his shoulder.

“Xing!” And then he got kicked in the stomach.

“ What the heck? Yifan? Why are you here again? And…why the are you IN my house??” Yixing got up and stared at Kris.

“ Calm down okay? I know I shouldn’t have come in but you didn’t answer!”

“ Yeah maybe because it’s 11 in the morning and I was asleep! And what if I just didn’t want you to come in?” Yixing shouted and Kris was defeated. He walked a bit closer.

“ Hey, calm your ! I just want to hang out with you! What? You don’t have friends? Jesus I just wanted to get to know you…”

“ Why would you want to know me…” Yixing mumbled “Ah my head hurts” he walked towards his kitchen and Kris followed him.

“ Why not? I want to be your friend.”

“ Hah…yeah friends…what are they..” Yixing snorted. Kris just watched as the other was searching through the kitchen then spoke up.

“ I thought we could hang out today. What do you think? Do you want to go to the park or something?” Kris asked and he walked to the fridge because he realized that Yixing didn’t have any intentions of eating. To Kris’ disappointment there were barely some things in the fridge.

“ Hey why is this empty? You don’t eat or what?”

“ I eat sometimes…why do you even care?” Yixing said and walked out.

“ Yeah okay, now I know why are you so thin. Stay here, I’ll be back in a few.” Kris said and ran out to buy breakfast. When he returned Yixing was still in his room, drinking.

“ Okay now we will put this aside, and you will eat this.” smiled Kris as he took the bottle away from Yixing and handed him the croissant.

“ Just what are you doing seriously? Yifan…look…I DON’T NEED YOU BABYSITTING ME! Do you understand me? I don’t need you…” he almost whispered the last part and Kris just thought that nope, he totally needs him. And he won’t stop.

“ Yeah whatever, just eat this. Please Yixing.” He pleaded and Yixing took the croissant though he was a bit hesitant.

“ I don’t see why I should listen to you…” Yixing furrowed his eyebrows but took a bite anyway. Kris just smiled. He decided he’d help this boy no matter what…he was already attached to him. He ruffled Yixing’s hair and plopped down on the couch. They were silent the only thing that could be heard was Yixing’s munching. When he finished the food he looked at Kris.

“ I’m serious Yifan….why are you here? I don’t even like you so why are you coming back?”

“Um you see…I don’t really know…It’s just that at that party you were so mesmerizing and I suddenly had the feeling that I need to get to know you, that I need to protect you. I-I-I don’t know how to tell this..I guess for now I just want to know you better. You don’t need to push me away….I know you probably have your reasons but I’m just here to be your friend. Can’t you give me a chance?” Kris said and looked Yixing in the eyes. The boy in front of him looked so vulnerable right then with his teary eyes.

“Why are you saying that? No one wants to get close to me. They would me but wouldn’t want to know me. Why are you doing this? They say I’m dead and I probably am. What’s wrong with you Yifan? I was just fine before you came.” he whispered and again he didn’t cry, it’s just that his tears were there but they wouldn’t come out. Kris’ heart clenched at the sight and he didn’t know what to say…again.

“ No you aren’t dead, please you are alive Xing. You really look pale and all but you are here and you deserve to live happily. Why are you doing this to yourself?” Kris asked, worry evident in his eyes. Yixing just shook his head.

“ Please, Yifan just leave… I don’t want you to bother with someone like me. Please” He said and opened the door for him. Kris just sighed and walked out. He knew it would take a long time but he just wanted to help.

~ ~ ~

It went like this for a few weeks. Kris would go to Yixing everyday and he would bring him food or sometimes he would cook for him. Every time he was there he would try to open up Yixing. Every time he saw Yixing drinking or smoking he would speak to him and make him put those things down. It went like this and Kris felt that he had reached a point where Yixing would talk to him a lot more and he wasn’t that violent like before. He even smiled sometimes at him.  Once they were at the park late at night.

“ You know…I really like your name. Because your nickname is XingXing and it means ‘star’. It’s beautiful isn’t it?” Kris asked him. Yixing looked at him and Kris could discover a very small smile on his lips.

“ Yeah right. Yifan-“ He spoke so quietly, Kris had to lean closer to understand. “- Do you want to know what caused all of this?”

“ Yixing-“

“No, Yifan. Of course you do. I know by just looking at you. You are curious. Well, then I guess I should start telling you. You know...I had everything. I had parents that loved me. I had friends whom I was close with. I was a good student. When I was 14 I even had a boyfriend can you believe it? I guess it’s funny now… I was only 14 then. Whatever.  So I had a very very good life. I couldn’t ask for more. But you know it’s more painful if they take it away just in one day. We had an accident. My parents died at the hospital and I survived. I know…usually the people can move on from that but I just couldn’t. They were the most important persons in my life. They were my only family. After that I had a guardian…but when I started taking drugs and drinking he rather left me than help me. I didn’t speak with my ‘friends’ and they didn’t search for me…I guess they didn’t even care if I was dead. My ‘boyfriend’ showed up at times but I broke up with him. I was alone and I was addicted to everything that was bad for me. I still am. I ed up my life and I know you always took everything bad away from me but the feeling, the longing and the desire is still here and it’s killing me. I know you want to save me and I’m really thankful to you. Thank you for everything. But I ed up.”  Yixing glanced at him and Kris gulped. He almost started to cry and his heart just hurt so much. He couldn’t see Yixing like this so he just hugged him tightly to his chest.

“ Xing…I-I-I don’t know what to say I’m just…I’ll be here no matter what okay? You are better now I can see it. Do you want to know what I thought when I first saw you?”

“Yifan you already told me. There’s no nee-“

“ But I want to. I was totally mesmerized by you. You were beautiful. You still are now. There was just something in you that I couldn’t let go. I needed you. And even though you seemed broken and tired or even dead I just knew that I need you. I need you and I love you Xing. I love you.” He said and before Yixing could react he kissed him.

At first it was just lips barely touching but soon Yixing Kris’ lips, asking for entrance that he immediately gave him. It was passionate and Kris tried his everything to let Yixing know just how much he loved him. When they pulled away for air Kris rested his forehead against Yixing’s.

“ I love you too.” Yixing whispered and Kris kissed him again.

“ I’m so sorry that you had to go through that. I’m so sorry. I’ll be here and I’ll help no matter what. Everything will be alright again. I love you.”

“ You don’t have to be sorry. I guess I just needed someone like you to save me.”

The End

Sorry if I disappointed you guys T_T well I hope you liked it anyways~ bye! oh and sorry for the mistakes... english is not my first language~