Pain, Regret, Fear.

Things I have all felt.

Yet I'm glad I felt these things.

I healed from my pain making me a better person and learned from this.

Regret caused me to learn to never take anything for granted, cherish it, look closer at the things surrounding you.

Fear caused me to have both pain and regret.

 Because of fear I almost lost the one person I never wanted to lose. 

He was the last person I ever wanted to lose.

To never see, touch, talk, hear, love.

No it was because of all three I have the one person I love and will never lose.

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"Jungkookie-ah, give me some!" I looked over at V who puffed out his cheeks.  I held a bag of my favorite cookies.

"No. You'll end up eating them all if I do."  V stuck out his bottom lip as he said,

"No, I promise."  He used his index finger and crossed his heart.

"Fine, here."  I passed him my cookies.  He grabbed out three and passed me back the bag.  He surprised me when he laid his head in my lap.  I felt my heart begin to race.  I turned my attention back to the tv. "Jungkookie-ah one more." I looked down at V and found him with his eyes closed and his mouth open.  I pulled a cookie out of my bag and slowly moved it to his mouth.  Suddenly V grasped my hand and brought it down to his mouth.  I took in a sharp breath as my fingertips grazed his lips. I wanted to bind down and kiss him but I knew I was too scared.  I feared what his reaction would be.  Yes, it was fear that kept me from showing him how I truly felt.  V suddenly opened his eyes and smiled at me. "Kookie is the best."  I felt butterflies begin to rumble in my stomach. I felt myself begin to blush.

"We're back!" I jumped when I heard Suga's voice.  V quickly stood up and ran to Jimin. It pained me to see V grab onto the olders arm and use the same puppy dog eyes on him, beggin for his treat.  I ground my teeth together as I watched Jimin smile at V and looked into his bag, grabbing out V's treat.  Suddenly my attention was grasped, when someone placed my favorite ice cream in front of my face.

"Kookie-ah!" I looked up and smiled as Jin smiled down at me. "I got you your favorite flavor." The older sat down next to me and held out my ice cream, waiting for me to grab it. I took it,

"Thank you, Hyung." I smiled at him. He ruffled my hair and smiled at me.

"Ah, share with me too Jungkookie-ah." I smild and shook my head okay.  I watched as he brightened up.  I took out my last cookie and held it out to Jin.  His smile widened as he took it from me. I quickly got up and went into the kitchen. I grabbed two spoons and walked back to the living room.  I sat down on the couch and held out a spoon to Jin.

"Here you go Hyung." He sat close to me as we shared the ice cream.  I hadn't realized Suga had started to play a movie until I heard a loud scream.  There on the screen was a woman running away from a man with an axe. 'Aish. Suga why the scary movies?' I wasn't scared but I knew V and... My train of thought was lost when I felt Jin grasp my arm.  He was shaking and forgot about the ice cream.  I filled my spoon and nudged Jin.  He looked at me wide eyed. "Hyung. Have some ice cream." I smiled at him as I motioned for him to open.  He seemed to forget about the movie and ate the ice cream. I had to do this until I ran out of ice cream. Of course we had shared but when I ran out Jin went back to being scared of the movie.  He grasped my arm and hid his head when someone died.  I wasn't paying attention to the movie and instead was trying to figure out what to do to get Jin out of watching the rest of the movie. "Ah, Hyung do you wanna go find a snack in the kitchen?"  I watched as Jin's wide eyes looked at me and he bit his bottom lip.  I helped him up and walked slowly to the kitchen.  Jin latched tightly to my arm.  When we got the safety of the kitchen Jin let go of my arm and looked down at the floor.

"Aish... Hyung is such a baby. Even the gloden maknae is tougher than me." Jin seemed to be pouting.  I walked over and ruffled his red hair.

"Ah, Hyung I still think your cool." I smiled as Jin looked up at me.

"Really?"

"Yes." I watched as he smiled at me.  We began looking around the kitchen for snack and sat down.

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"Jungkookie-ah." I awoke to someone shaking my arm. I opened one of my eyes to find V shaking my arm.  I quickly sat up and looked at V.

"What's wrong V-Hyung?" He seemed to be shaking.

"Jungkookie-ah I'm scared." I realized he was still scared from the movie. "Can I sleep with you?" I felt my heart race as he said this.  I quickly scooted over.  V huddled close to me.  I couldn't help but feel happy.  I liked having him close.  We both fell asleep huddled closely.

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"JungKook!" I woke up to J-Hope's voice.  I found that I was alone in the room.  I slowly got up and wlaked to the bathroom.  I couldn't help but feel upset that I didn't wake up with V.  I quickly got dressed and washed my face before going to the living room. I found Jin sitting on the couch.

"Hyung where is everyone?"

"They all went down to the van." Jin said. He smiled up at me as he got up.  He quickly disappeared and reappeared holding a container of sliced apples and another smaller container of strawberries. "You don't have time to eat breakfast so I cut up some fruit for you to eat on the way to practice. We can't have our Golden Maknae having no energy during practice." I looked at Jin and grabbed the containers.

"Thank you Hyung." I followed Jin out of the dorms.

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I froze when I saw V sitting with Jimin and smiling.

I felt jealousy wash threw me. 

I quickly shook it off and sat down next to Suga.

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"Aish! Training is so tiring!" I smiled as V laid his head on my lap and over exaggerated his tiredness.

"You sound really lazy!" I looked up as Suga yelled this. I threw my towel at him and said,

"I'm sure you were thinking it." I laughed when Suga threw his towel at me.  V caught it and threw it back.

"Don't throw things at Jungkookie-ah!" I felt the butterflies in my stomach as I watched V stand up for me.  I smiled at him  and watched in amusement as Suga resorted to throwing the energy bars at him.

"Aren't you guys just using energy fighting over this?" Everyone stopped when Rapmonster asked this.  I laughed as everyone begn to throw things at him.  While watching V throw and laugh I finally decided that I would tell V of my feelings.  I decided to wait until later when we were at the dorms.

"Jungkookie-ah." I looked over to find Jin trying to dodge everything that was being thrown.  I laughed when a towel hit his face.  I slowly crawled towards him and laughed.

"Yes, Hyung?" He seemed to pout.

"Don't join in their games okay? Manager-Hyung will get on to you." I raised a questioning eyebrow.

"Okay, Hyung I won't." I smiled when he sighed a sigh of relief.  I shook my head and sat against the wall with Jin, watching the others throw things.  Just as Jin had predicted the manager did get on to everyone and made them clean up, excluding me and Jin of course.

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At the dorm everyone decided to watch a movie while Jin and Rapmonster cooked dinner.  I found that Jimin was in the shoer and V was supposed to be in our room.  I took this as my chance to tell V how I felt. I slowly walked down the hall.  I jumped when I was suddenly hugged from behind.

"Don't go in there Kookie." I recognized the voice as Jin's.

"Hyung why not?" I heard him take a breath before he said,

"Because neither you nor I will like the outcome. Please Kookie don't go in there." I could hear Jin's voice crack.  I shook my head and shrugged off his arms.  I looked back at him and frowned,

"I can do whatever I want Hyung." I watched as Jin's eyes filled with pleading.

"I... I just..."

"Hyung I don't need you to baby me." I glared at him. Jin looked pained but quickly turned and walked back into the kitchen.  A part of me wanted to run after Jin and apologize, but another part of me was deteremined to tell V my feelings. I slowly turned around and walked closer to the door. As I neared the door I found it was cracked open. I slowly peeked into the slit and was filled with shock.  Jimin sat on the desk with V in between his legs, kissing the smaller Hyung. I was shocked. I slowly closed the door.  I tried to make since of my shock. I wasn't shocked at what I saw, I was more shocked at how I felt.  I honestly didn't feel anything.  I had felt a slight pain at first but I seemed to not be fazed.  Suddenly I remembered Jin and what he said.

'Did he know about my feelings? Was he trying to protect me from that?' I suddenly wanted to see Jin.  I ran to the kitchen to find a frustrated Rapmonster.

"Ah. JungKook can you go get Suga and tell him to come here please."

"Sure Hyung, but where's Jin-Hyung?"

"I don't know he suddenly left." I quickly walked to the living room and found Suga watching his stupid scary movies.

"Suga-Hyung. Rapmonster-Hyung wants you." I watched as Suga got up and walked into the kitchen.  I turned to my last hope. "J-Hope-Hyung do you know where Jin-Hyung went?" J-Hope looked up at me puzzled then said.

"I think he went to either the convenience store or the park either way their both close together."

"Ah, thank you Hyung!" I quickly hugged him and went to the front door.  I saw that Jin's jacket was still there but his shoes that he had been wearing today were gone. 'It's freezing outside.' I quickly got my shoes on and my jacket before grabbing Jin's and running out the door.  I ran to the convenience store and asked if a boy with red hair had come in. I was glad when they said yes but that he had left five minutes before.  I quickly bowed and thanked them before running towrds the park.

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I almost collapsed from relief when I spotted the red tuft of hair sitting alone on a swing set, eating ice cream. I slowly walked up behind him and wrapped his jacket around him.

"Idiot Hyung. Forgetting your jacket knowing it's freezing outside." When Jin looked up I couldn't help but feel worried.  He looked like he had been crying.  I slowly wiped at his cheeks and said, "Hyung what's wrong?" He looked away and began eating his ice cream again. 'That damned ice cream.' I couldn't help my frustration as I suddenly found myself hitting the tub out of his hands. Jin didn't look up at me, he only stared at the fallen tub.  I crouched down in front of him trying to get his attention. "Hyung?" I grasped his hands. My eyes widened when I felt how cold they were. "Aish. Hyung answer me!" I looked up at him. Jin's eyes widened. I froze when he lifted his hand up to my face.  I hadn't realized I was crying until I felt his cool hand wipe at my cheek.

"Ah. Don't cry Kookie." I looked into his eyes and said,

"Hyung why did you leave? Why are you crying? Please anwser me." I could hear pleading in my voice. He looked up at the darkening sky.

"I warned you Kookie. I left because I didn't want to see the outcome.  I couldn't stand to see you upset. As for me crying.  Aish, I don't know." He slightly smiled but it quickly disappeared as he looked back down at me. "Why are you here?" Suddenly I felt frustrated again. He looked at me so innocently as if I were some little child.

"I'm here because of you. I ran to find you. You left without telling anyone where you were going.  Luckily J-Hope-Hyung thought you said something about the park or convenience store. You even left your jacket at the dorm what would have happened if you had freezed to death." Jin looked at me but seemed not there.

"Ah, it wouldn't have mattered." I couldn't take it anymore, my frustration tipped over the edge and I found myself pulling Jin by his collar causing him to fall out of the swing and both of us landing on the ground.

"It would have mattered. Everyone would have been worried. I would have been scared, because not seeing you is even more scary than Suga-Hyung's scary movies.  I would have been very sad if that had happened. You can't leave me Hyung.  Because I think I like you." I froze when the words left my mouth. Were the right? Was that how I felt? Suddenly it hit me.  The reason why I didn't feel shocked when I saw V and Jimin was because deep down I already knew that they had feelings for each other. I hadn't realized it yet but I was growing feelings towards the scaredy cat, red headed Hyung in front of me.  I had no more feelings towards but instead had overflowing feelings for Jin. I was suddeny overwhelmed with feelings of both fearful and happy.  I looked into Jin's eyes as he stared back at me wide eyed. I felt myself blush, doubt trickling into my confidence.  What would I do if Jin rejected me.  Would I take it cooly or would I be bawling my eyes out for the next couple of weeks? I pondered on this question as I stared at him.  Suddenly Jin broke out into a full fledged grin. He wraped his arms around me and said,

"I like you too Kookie.  I have for a long time, but I hid them because I knew you felt something for V and I didn't want to get in the way of that." I stared at him. Still trying to comprehend what he said.  But when I finally did I couldn't help but smile like and idiot and pull Jin closer pressing our lips together.  When we pulled apart we were both breathless.  Suddenly my face heated up as I realized that I had just kissed him. "Kookie you look very adorable when you blush." I tried to hide my face but Jin grabbed my hands. "Aish... Don't hide Kookie I like it." I looked up at him and bit my lip. As much as I wanted to stay like this it was very cold and the other members were probably going to start looking for us soon.  Jin seemed to realize this as he pulled me to my feet and fixed his jacket.  Suddenly he looked down at the ground and pouted. "I really liked my ice cream." I didn't want to see him pout so I quickly placed my hands on either side of his face and gave him a quick peck.

"Hyung I'll buy you a knew one.  A big tub too and we can share it." I felt my heart flutter as Jin smile at me.

"Ah... Kookie that would be even better than that ice went to throw it away.  As we walked towards the convenience store Jin laced his fingers through mine and we smiled at eachother.

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Of course when they got home they got a very serious talking to from Suga and Rapmonster. Jin was punished to do the dishes for leaving Rapmonster alone to finish cooking. Jungkook was punished to sweep and clean off the counters for leaving and not telling anyone where he was going.  Jin nor Jungkook minded because during that time they would share loving looks and adoring smiles, along witha  few kisses. >.O