Dear chhungxuan,

 

Hello~^^ #CHEESYTIME(?)

Mm..at first, i want to apologize to you, because to be honest this is not the main plan for my gift. Something out of the blue happened..so yeah, i can’t give you the gift that i’ve prepared.

This is maybe not a gift? Yeah, it’s just a letter.

Really, i don’t know how should i start xD You know that i’m a bit boring, right?

I admit it, i lack in many aspects, like i know that i’m not a talkactive person, i’m not funny, and..you know, i think the personality of mine that annoys you so much is..I’m too curious about so many things.

Dear the man who can’t leave,

Yeah, anonymous said that love is like two persons pulling a rubber, one to the left and one to the right. And when one person give up by let the rubber go, the other person will be hurt.

And right now, we are still pulling the rubber together. And in this state, the rubber is tight enough, and if someone let the rubber go, the pain will be really hurt. But if the rubber is keep pulled, it will become tighter and tighter, until the rubber break by itself.

            Although the rubber is already tight, but maybe the rubber’s elasticity is different from the other rubber. Maybe it’s a strong one, that’s why.. it didn’t broke until now. And i hope, it will last long.

            I won’t lie, someone i felt like i want to just let you go. My friends also told me to do it, but still..again and again, i couldn’t..i can’t. Because, there are always one reason that stopped me from leaving you.

            I love you.

            One year..

            That’s not a short time, that’s my longest relationship in here. At first, i didn’t even thought about this. Because, i don’t know. I really didn’t do anything, i just follow the rhythm.

            “Is it a possible thing if i wait for you?”

            That time, when you said that. Somehow, i felt loved, i felt that someone is there for me. Someone is on my side. But back then, there was one man by my side too, one man who loved and i love so much. One man that’s perfect, just like a prince who ride the white horse. Sounds too much, right? Yep. That’s why. It’s too much for me, i felt left out beside him. He was just too ‘white’ for someone like me. And, it was proven by the relationship that didn’t last long.

            You,

            You can (tried to) follow my rhythm, so do i. And at the end, i realize that i felt so comfortable with you. I didn’t have to hide my hidden side, i didn’t have to ‘keep cool’ in front of you. I can acts like myself. And you are still there. Comfortable-ness is the main key of a relationship, right?

            Well, to be honest.. i typed all of these without thinking, so i just type what’s on my mind. Forgive me ok x’)

            You know what?

            If i looked back, i laughed immediately. I remember, all of your cheesiness (i have the captures!XD), and..our ‘young’ love. :D

            We are more mature now

            That’s what you said when i show you the caps. And it’s true! We are~ :D

            Ah, you’ve received the 13 songs right? So, let me show you my favorite line from those songs..

 

“Staying by the side of someone. I’m both unfamiliar and scared in this kind of thing. Only now, I understand love. Those days which I always push you away. I said that it wasn’t love between us..Thanks for the trust you have given me. Looking back now, there are lots of memories I really didn’t know that was actually love

I Love You.”

 (Lee Seunggi—Now I love you)

“Can you hear me? Are you there?
I’m sorry I couldn’t hug you more
I’m sorry for being so selfish
In front of our breakup, in front of you
But there are words I couldn’t say because of my pride
Let’s not break up
Cause I still love you..”

(Mad Clown ft Hyolyn—Without You)

“Someone I can love from my heart. 
Someone I love from my heart. 
In the center of my love, 
you, my heart, are there”

(ONE OK ROCK—Wherever You Are)

“Wonder if the star in the sky

he know how I feel,my loneliness

maybe that is why he is there with me

he just there all through the night.”

(Jeong Eunji—If I Leave)

“I try to comfort myself, telling myself to stop
But I can only forget you with my head
Because my heart still remembers you
I throw a fit but I keep thinking of you”

(FT ISLAND—Madly)

“Do you remember that day,
The day when we’ve met for the first time?
I still remember it,
Those words you’ve promised”

(G.NA—I’ll Back Off, So You Can Live Better)

“These days, it feels like you’re mine,
it seems like you’re mine 
but not. It feels like I’m yours, 
it seems like I’m yours
but not.”

(Soyu & Junggigo—Some)

“Please let us just love, please let us stop fighting
Sometimes we doubt and argue but still (but still) but still I love you
I'm still young (still young) but would you trust you, till always (I only love you)
Please let us love, I will promise eternally”

(A Pink—Let Us Just Love)

“Now that sadness slowly accumulates
Although I know that you really left
I can only hope to be nicer to you when you are back

Why am I behaving so stupidly
The time that you gave me
Is just time for us to even things out between us”

(SNSD’s Taeyeon & Tiffany—Lost In Love)

“All I wanna do wanna do
Is to become stronger
I’m left alone and I try hard
But the person who is hurting is me”

(KARA’s Jiyoung—Wanna Do)

“Hey it’s so strange, really strange
I’ve never been like this before
Whenever I see you, my heart pounds and trembles”

(SISTAR—Loving U)

“They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong”

(Shania Twain—You’re Still The One)

“The girl who can’t say good bye
The boy that can’t leave
The two of us are no longer in love
So no no no no no no

Love is passing,
Love and heartbreak are one and the same
Hearbreak takes love and goes away.”

(Leessang ft JungIn—The Girl Who Can’t Break Up, The Boy Who Can’t Leave)

            Dear Song Buttrick-ssi~

            Maybe this present is a bit..messy(?) well, forgive me;~; But you know..

            I wrote this while smiling and giggling, i hope you like it because, of course i like it(?). Ah, forgive my broken grammar x’(

 

Happy 12th 13..

Happy One Year, oppa!

Saranghae~:D

            With Love,

 

            iApinkeunji.