i was walk without my soul, i felt lost even in crowded place, i feel the darkness around me , i'm hurted , and there was you, standing behind me, reached your hands holding mine , embrace me, and whispered in me " it will be okay, you'll be okay, i'm here for you"

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one years ago in summer brezee, there was an accident who turned your life into the hell,

The car incident who make ur partner died on the spot, it used to be your 3th anniversary with her,

you've prepared romantic dinner at home, but she insist to go out to the beach.

yep !!!!she's really love beach so much, its been a while since you and her go to the beach, because u're always busy.

you persuade her to stay at home you tell her there's something you can't explained, like something bad will happen!!

but her persistent gave you up finally , because just see how bright her eyes when she talk about it, it melts you're heart.

Before arrived at your destination both of you got into accident.

you saw her blood all over her body, both of you really in bad condition , but you still manage to hold  her , hug her....

" hei, boo... are you oke" ? you shook her shoulder to keep her conscious

" hang on there boo, in a moment the rescue team will save us " you continu to talk

" its hurt, really hurt " she say

" ssshh i know i know, please please please bear up"

"jiyoonie,  i think i can't hold anymore.. if something bad happen to me, promise me to continue your life, be happy, forget about me, and love someone who love you like the way i love you, No.... more than i love you babe"

" no no no, you'll be ok!! don't talk to much"

finally the rescue team arrived, on the way of to hospital , the person you love , leaving the world..

and only you can be saved, after that moment, you like live body without a soul.

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There is a girl in hospital , a beautifull nurse with angel heart, everyone love her, any men dreams, a top candidate of mother to be daughter in law and so on .....

that nurse name is heo gayoon, no one can't belived she still single , no boyfriend, they don't know, that girl heart already belong to someone..that person is jiyoon.

her heart sank , her body numb, when she saw the person who just got in to ER (emergency room) is jiyoon. she was in charged to help the doctor in operation room at that time,  but she don't know what to do, just crying hard, and the operation team need to change with another nurse.

when jiyoon were fighting between life and death gayoon didn't stop praying, she even tell to the GOD no matter condition she is, she will not leave her, she will by her side untill the end of her life.

"Oh GOD you can take anything from me, anything.. even my life , even my breathe.. but please please GOD, not her.. save her for me GOD , in any condition, i'll promise to take care of her untill the end of my life "

 GOD listen to her prayer, jiyoon operation success but because bad injured , her brain blooding inside, Jiyoon can't interact with people but she can hear what we said,  just miracle and time will answer if jiyoon can be back to normal

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Flashback

2 years ago...

- Gayoon POV -

hmm..there is a girl who always come to our coffee shop , she always ordered the same coffee " vanilla latte" ... heiiii its my favorite too (u said that in your head) and book always in her hands. she's always spent her time about 30 minutes to drink her coffee and read her book here. even in weekend she's always come here. there is something that i don't know what its called... but like a magnet she pulled me to her charm to her world

Oh Oh Oh You appear just like a dream to me

Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me

All I need, every breath that I breathe

Don't you know, you're beautiful

Jiyoon make a new world to you, she pulled you to her world , you really curious to her, want to know more about her, you following her secretly like a stalker . You even wrote a few line in her cup everytime she's ordered a coffee and everytime you see her smile to your line , its make your day too. later you find out she's already have a girlfriend , you know jiyoon love her so much, you can tell it by her eyes, it makes you  broken heart but can't change your love toward her, you still love her , adore her. so much......

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Jiyoon wake up from her comma , its been a week .. and now here you are , lying beside her

you treat jiyoon like she understand your words just like normal person...

love lying next to you

I could do this for eternity,

You and me, were meant to be in holy matrimony

God knew exactly what HE was doing

When HE lead me to you

" hei beautifull, how are you this morning? here your vanilla latte love, hmm which book that i should to read for you today? tell me which one do you want? should i read the one of your favorite? oke , i will start reading.."

and its become your routine everyday..sometimes you will take jiyoon out with her wheelchair.

in one beautiful saturday, like usual you take jiyoon out and sit at the bench of near park from hospital hold your her hands

" you know what love?

i Loves all of you

All your perfect imperfections

You're my beginning , you are my ending

even all cut in all your face you are still beautifull , too beautifull..

you've got a smile that could light up the whole town

i adore you... how can GOD create the perfect creature like you ?

you caresses her hair to cheek and kiss the back of her hands, jiyoon finger move a bit like she answer what you said ..

"hahahaa, you like it? hmmm, i see.. from now on i will make a thousand poem for you, i think you need to discharged right now, lets just live in your house "

6 months since that incident you decided to take jiyoon to the beach, to the place that she’s afraid the most.. you tell her honestly,

you can saw her frightening look, she’s hold your hands tight, and it surprised you, because its the biggest reaction you get from her since she wake up from her comma

You prepared everything ...

Untill .. untill you arrived to that place of accident.. you drove slowly, very slowly and suddenly you can feel sweat from jiyoon palm in yours, her face became so pale, her body shaking and sweat all over her body, she’s scream and crying so bad, because of that you need to stop your car, you hug her tight , caresses her back and kiss on the top of her head.. kiss all over her face

“ shhhh shhhh, hei hei hei love i’m here i’m here... look, look.. nothing happen right? You’ll be alright babe, you’ll be okay.. shshshhhh..”

It takes an hour to calm her down, untill she fall a sleep and you continued to drove to your destination..

An romantic villa near to the beach, her favorite place..

The sunset already down..

Instead sleep in the villa you decided to sleep at your car, jiyoon improved so much.. she can responses you right now and it makes you happy..

Under the sky in a thousand of stars , on the smell of the sea, in the cold of night you fall asleep while embrace her .. you can feel her back , her stable breathing in your chest.. you and her become one, same rhythym.. and when morning come, when the new day greeting you, the new world comes to you too, you feel someone caressess your cheek..

“ gayoonie, baby... wake up.. don’t you want to see me? “

Ahhh it must be a dream, i hope this dream would be forever

“baby” now jiyoon peck your lips

Oh my, i must be wanted her lips so much

“ its not a dream babe, wake up please.. hug me.. i’m cold.. you took all the blanket”

you open your eyes a bit , because you feel someone body on yours

“ wh.....at, ji ji ji...yoon? you?!!”

“yes, its me”

Jiyoon pinning you down.. kiss your forehead, nose and finally your lips

You reply her with a deep kiss, the kiss that you wanted so much, for so long.. her soft and kissable lips, you feel so hungry you even bite her lips, it makes her groan from the pain.

“ ouchhh, its my lips thats tasty? Why you bite them?? “

“heheheheheh” you peck her lips once again

“ i love you jeon jiyoon, thankyou ”

Jiyoon burried her face in your ear and kiss it slowly , playing with your hair and whisper

“ what are you thanking for baby, i should be the one who say that, thankyou.. thanks for loving me with all your heart, thanks for accept me the way i am,  thanks for saving me when i get hurt , thanks for not giving up on me.

Thanks for eases my suffering, you are my soul medicine, teaching me the meaning of forgiving, and how to be loved again

I love you .."
 

" when you say you love me , Know I love you more
When you say you need me , Know I need you more

i Love you... i do"

a perfect spring , with new sunrinse greeting your love, welcoming you with a sweet kiss , taste like vanilla late, her favorite, your favorite.

God must be love us so much..

- Falling in love is like jumping off a really tall building , your brain tells you it is not a good idea  , but your hearts tell you , you can fly -