Key POV

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"Hey Key.. yah!!! Are you trying to suicide again???" Someone shout and grab my hands when i

was standing on the bridge..

"Yah!!!yah!!! who are you??? And why you say that i'll suicide???" I shout back to him before i

look at his face..

I feel so irritated when he grab my hands and say that i wanna suicide.. Okay.. i was standing on

the edge of the bridge like someone who's try to suicide, maybe.. But honestly i just wanna feel

the morning breeze while standing on the bridge, like someone that starts to jump in the river.

"Yah, don't you think i don't know Key! You try to kill yourself again don't you?" He said again

"Hyung???" I said when i look at Jinki hyung..

"Still wanna ask who am i???" Jinki hyung said still hold my hands while he was walk, half

running..

"eh, sorry hyung.. i didn't know that it was you, when you grab my hands" I said..

"You didn't recognize my voice??" Jinki hyung asked..

"Yeah, hyung.. you know" I said giggle..

Aigoo.. Why he keep forgot about it.. It happens again.. I was standing on the bridge, and he

came then shout at me, like i'm gonna suicide..

"Hyung, didn't i ever told you before?? I didn't wanna suicide, i just wanna feel the morning

breeze from the river bridge.." I said try to explain..

"ah, you ever told me about it??" Jinki hyung said look confused at me..

"Oh, yeah.. Whatever just forget it.. Even though i told you million times, you will end forgot

about it" I said

Jinki hyung was sick, he's like have amnesia or Alzheimer or whatever it said when someone will

lost all his memories or already lost his memories, but it was different.. No one know what kind

of illness it is.. He ever told me that maybe he will forgot me someday.. as day goes by, it's

already 2 months since we met, but he still remember me.. We ever met someone before, they

talk much things but then he forgot about that person the day after they met, the very long time

he still remember someone it was a week, but after that he will forgot the person.. I was so

thankful that he still remember me, well i still prepare for myself that someday he will forgot

about me.. Its fine with me if he just remember my name, at least he still remember me..

"Hey, you will go with me on my apartment right???" Jinki hyung asked.

"What for??" I ask him back

"I'm bored all alone at my apartment, so i need someone to accompany me" Jinki hyung said

smiling as we walk to his apartment..

His smiling face that i can't ignore.. The smile that i want just for me.. He's killing me with his

smile.. Well, it's become a daily routine to go to his apartment every morning, every day after

standing on the river bridge just to feel the morning breeze, and before i go work.. Spend our

time together, just both of us, like a lovely couple, but we're not.. Honestly i was fall for him.. but

i didn't wanna him know about my feeling, and thinking that i'm weird.. Even though he will

forgot that i ever tell him "i love you", but i don't wanna tell it, i just keep it inside my heart, it's

enough for me that he still remember me, have a good relationship with him, and always on his

side..

"Okay.. i'll accompany you before i go work" I replied smile at him..

We arrived at his apartment after walking around 15 minutes.. I prepare breakfast for us, eat and

watch tv together before i leave him..How i wish, i will always on his side, do those things

together with him..But that's all just happen in my dream, live with him and spend all my time

together with him..

"Omo.. I'm late for work" I said when i saw the clock on the wall.

"You should be hurry then" Jinki hyung said..

"Okay, hyung.. Bye.. see ya" I said as i walk to the door..

"See ya Key.. Good luck" Jinki hyung said with a smile as he walks me to the door..

"Ne hyung" I replied smiling.

Everytime i leave his house for works, i always scare that he will forget about me.. That's the

reality that i can't face..

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"Hey Key, you're late again" Minho said as i enter the shop..

"Yah, don't tell boss that i'm late again" I replied with a smile..

"Are you from your lovely hyung apartment again???" Minho asked lift his eyebrows..

I just can smile to Minho as an answer..

"Why don't you stop go to his place?? Didn't you tell me that you are afraid that he will forget all

about you soon??" He asked again..

"Yeah, i know.. but.." I replied..

"But...?????" Minho ask again looking deep in my eyes..

"I just can't hold myself to see him everyday" I replied looking down..

"I see.. you're in love with him..well, let's start work before boss mad at us" Minho said as we

start working..

Minho was right, i should stop meet him and start forget about my feeling and stop go to his

place before he forgot all about me, before he forgot about us.. But it's hard for me to stay away

from him, i ever tried it before, but i end up miss him so ing much..

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1 month passed again.. I'm happy that Jinki hyung still remember me, even though he start to

forgot some of our memories.. Oh, wait.. He start forgot some of our memories??? No.. please..

I don't want him forgot about our memories, even it's just an ordinary memories, but please don't

forget it hyung.. I don't want you start to forgot about me.. i start crying when i think about it..

Maybe i should tell him that i love him, before i regret it all, before i try to stay away from him.. I

was standing on the edge of the bridge where i always stand in the morning to feel the breeze,

while waiting for Jinki hyung to show up..

"Hey Key" I heard his voice calling me, i was so happy even he just call my name, maybe this is

what people say fall in love..

"Hey hyung, doing your daily routine.. huh" I said smile at him..

"Yup.. and you??? Its danger standing on the edge of the bridge you know, you might fall down"

He said smile and stand beside me that was sitting on the bridge.

"Yeah, you know.. Feel the morning breeze from here was so great" I replied.. I was so happy to

hear what he said.. he show me that he care about me..

"Oh i see.. wanna go to accompany me on my apartment before go to work??" He ask looking at

me..

"Of course.. i still have 2 hours left, before i go work" I replied with a smile and start walking side

by side with him go to his apartment..

We were talking on our way to his apartment, he talk about much things, talking about his dream, his favorite music and other things about him..

When we arrive at his apartment, as usually i always prepare breakfast for us, eat together and

watch tv.. While we're watching tv, i told him about my feeling.. i know it will sound weird, but i

try to say it straight..

"Hyung, i love you" I said

"I love you too Key" He said looking at me and smile..

"Hyung, i love you not as my brother, do you feel the same way too hyung??? I know i'm weird.."

I said looking on my feet..

"Hey, look at me.. I love you too.. and i know, what kind of love you mean" He said smiling and

hugged me..

"Hyung, you won't forget about it right???" I asked with an afraid tone..

"I'll try not to forget it.. just like how i try not to forget you" He said as he place a kiss on my

forehead..

I'm so happy that he love me too, i'm so happy that he said he will try not to forget it, and i'm so

happy that he said he try not to forget me.. Those words make me so happy, but i still afraid that

he will forget me.. That day.. i spent my night together with him on his apartment.. I feel like my

dream become true, be with someone i love and stay on his side.. I don't need to think to stay

away anymore.. But, who knows that everything will change so soon, who knows that he will

keep forgot about me?? after two weeks we always together, now he start to forget that he ever

said that "i love you" to me, it's not surprise for me, cos' i always prepare myself and still

remember that he ever said that someday maybe he will forget all about me.. It's killing me like

crazy.. But i tried to survive, at least he still remember me and care about me as his dongsaeng,

no more sweet kiss from him, no more i love you from him, just a smile that enough to give me

power everyday..

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"Key, you're here??" Jinki hyung look surprised to see me inside his apartment..

"ah.. ne.. hyung" I replied feel a little sad to see him look so surprised because of my presence..

He never be like that.. He never look so surprised to see me there.. but this time it was so

different..

I didn't realize that he was home with a girl.. now i know, why he look so surprised with my

presence, is it because he came with a girl..

"hello" the girl said with a smile..

"hello" i replied with a smile plaster on my face..

I didn't hate that girl.. i just can't believe why Jinki hyung came home with a girl.. i never saw

that girl before.. and if Jinki hyung ever met her, maybe he already forgot about that girl..

"Key, it's Jessica.. my girlfriend" Jinki hyung said with a happy smile..

What?? Jinki hyung said that she's his girlfriend???why so sudden??? Why??? Is he really forget

about our love, didn't he promise will try not to forget about our love??? It's really really break

me into pieces..all i can feel is pain, but i have to hold it..

"Oh.. i see" I replied with a fake smile holding the pain inside..

"Hyung, can i talk to your girlfriend??" i shout at him that walk to his room..

"Sure" He shout from his room, our shared room before..

"Can we talk??" I ask Jessica..

"Sure" She replied with a smile..

Well Jessica didn't know who i am, even though Jinki hyung tell her about me, but he must be tell

her that i'm his friend or dongsaeng that always met him on the bridge..

"May i know, how long you guys have been together??" I aksed..

"Oh, honestly.. i'm his girlfriend on high school" She replied.

"Eh?? So???" I ask again a little confused..

"Yeah, i'm his girlfriend when we're on high school, when we graduated Jinki disappear, and we

don't have any contact anymore, but i'm so happy that i can meet him again today" Jessica said..

"Oh.. i see.. isn't he forget about you??" I said..

"Yeah, first he didn't recognize me, and looks like he forgot about me.. But after i explain

everything and show some of our picture he start to remember me" Jessica explain..

"Oh.. That's the reason why" I said..

"Yes, we agree to continue our relationship, since we still single.. so, why not" Jessica said with a

happy smile.

"Oh.. It's enough to explain everything" I replied try to smile..

After heard what Jessica said, i was dying inside, i can't hold this pain.. i'm gonna die with this

pain.. i almost cry, but i try my best to hold my tears.. I wanna run far far away.. i wanna scream

out loud just to let out this pain.. but i can't.. I leave Jinki hyung apartment without saying

anything to him, i just tell Jessica to tell Jinki hyung that i'm already go home..

What should i do now??? He forgot our love.. he got back his relationship with his old girlfriend..

What should i do know??? I can't breathe.. I feel like i'm gonna die soon..

I was running back to my home, and guess what??? It was raining, heavy rain.. i was thinking if

it was on movie?? If it was on movie, he will run after me, try to catch me, but he didn't.. He was

at his apartment together with his girlfriend now, try to get all their memories back.. and yeah,

maybe he will erase all his memories with me.. It hurts me a lot, to think that he will erase all the

memories between us.. I wanna share this pain, but with who??? Minho?? Impossible, Minho will

just said "i already told you, forget him before he forgot you".. Jinki hyung??? Impossible.. He

always there when i talk about my pain before, when i hate my boss because nagging too much,

he's the one that always comfort me.. But now, i can't count on him.. He's not mine anymore,

even though we didn't break up.. But it's enough when he already forgot about our love, it's

enough when i'm the one who still in love with him.. I try to think it was just a dream.. and hope

when i'm awake in the morning, everything will gonna be okay again..

I go to the bridge again..standing there, feel the morning breeze that always give hope for me,

and waiting for the one i love.. I saw him running, but today he didn't even greet me.. he's

running like there's no one looking after him.. i shout at him but he didn't look back.. i try go

after him, but all i got is pain.. he was home and Jessica greet him on the apartment door, with a

sweet kiss..should i disturbing them??? Disturbing them is the same thing with i'm gonna kill

myself with all the pain inside my heart..

Jessica didn't know who i am, and Jinki hyung already forgot about me.. I should give up with

this love, and try listen to what my bestfriend Minho said.. Forget him.. It's not forget him before

he forgot all about me, but forget him after he forgot all about me.. I can't live like this.. "I'm not

a weak guy..i'm a tough guy.." i keep on saying those words try to comfort myself.. i quit my job,

since i don't have any strength to face Minho, that will keep saying "i told you, i already warn you

before"..

Day by day passed.. i keep waiting for him on the bridge.. maybe he will recognize me or

remember me.. But no.. He already forgot all about me.. nothing left.. He just smile at me, when

he saw me looking at him that running there.. It's already a week he still didn't remember me.. i

can't survive anymore.. i can't stand it.. How can i survive when the one i love already forget

about me, didn't realize that i'm still live on earth, didn't realize that i always watch after him,

didn't realize my presence, I don't wanna end it like this, but how can i survive??? It's different if

you break up with your love, but to realize that you didn't break up but he forgot all about you

and have someone else beside him, someone that he will always love, the love that grow again in

his heart..The heartache was different.. Even though you already prepare for it, and think that it'll

be easy cos' you already prepare for it,but the fact it's not as easy as you ever think before.. I

know what should i do to lost this pain.. i already think about it.. Maybe what he said on our first

met was the best way to lost this pain and all the memories about him.. I still smiling like crazy

everytime i think about what he said that day "are you trying to suicide??" Yeah.. I'm trying to

suicide just to forget about you and let out this pain inside..That's the best thing..

Author POV

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Key decide to suicide in the bridge where he always standing every morning just to saw Jinki that 

was running.. Key can't hold the pain inside his heart.. Key that already tried his best to survive

but he can't.. The morning before Jinki past the bridge, Key jump from the bridge.. he left a note

book on the bridge.. Key's note book..

Owner name: Lee Jinki

Address: 89th street..

Page 1

Hyung i hope this note can help you to still remember me and all about us.. I didn't wrote my

name as the owner of this note book, cos' i wrote it all for you, well it's for me too ^-^.. so you

can't forget me.. i put your address too, so if you forgot where you live you can saw it here.. or if

someone got it, they will return it to you..^-^

With love, Key          

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Our first meet..

I was standing on the bridge, at the edge of the bridge for more detail^-^.. When you are

running, you saw me there and think that i'll suicide.. You grab my hand and saying "are you

insane???why you wanna suicide.. it's a big world" looks like you really mad at me that day.. I

just can stare at you with an annoying look and replied you with an annoying tone "I'm not gonna

suicide, and please let go of me".. You're looking confused at me first and then you say sorry,

after that you continue running again..We still didn't know each other name that day.. But after

that day, we always meet at the bridge, talking for awhile before you continue running.. We know

each other name after a week we meet there..

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After we meet in the morning at the bridge, you ask me to go to your apartment, and yeah i

always go with you before i go work, make a breakfast for us and watch tv together.. It's the day

that you told me that someday you will forget about me.. I feel a little sad when i heard you say

that.. :(

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It's already a month we always meet on the river bridge, and go to your apartment, cook for you 

and watch tv together become my daily routine or habit, yeah whatever it said.. I'm happy that

you still remember me, because it's already a month.. i thought you will forget me as soon as the

other people you meet and then you forgot the day after it or a week after you meet them..

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Hyung.. i start to have a stranger feeling now.. i don't know why.. I always wanna meet you, i

always wanna be with you.. can you help me to explain what kind of feeling is it??? I never felt

like this before, even with my bestfriend Minho.. :)

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Hyung after 2 months together with you and you still remember me, i guess i know what kind of

feeling is it.. I'm in love with you hyung..You're a good person i ever met, it didn't mean that my

bestfriend was a bad person, heheheh.. but i mean good person in another way.. XD

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I was standing on my favorite place again in the morning feel the breeze.. Do you know where is

it hyung??? It's on the bridge.. :) I was feel the morning breeze on my face with eyes closed,

when you come and grab my hands again.. like our first meet.. You asked me if i gonna suicide

again.. Looks like you still remember the first day you ask me if i gonna suicide.. :) I was shouting

at you a little mad, before i realize it was you.. I'm sorry hyung.. ^-^v peace.. hehehe.. I explain

it all to you that i'm not gonna suicide.. i asked you if you remember that i ever told you that i

won't suicide, i just feel the morning breeze from the bridge but looks like you didn't remember it

anymore.. ^-^ well it's okay about that.. i understand you..

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After that day, think that you will keep forgetting what i said, i decide to make this note book.. I 

just want you to keep remember our memories together, even though those memories just an

ordinary memories, but i really want those ordinary memories have a special place on your mind,

on your brain, and on your heart.. i don't want you to forget it.. XD

Page 9

Another month passed.. i'm so thankful to God that you still remember me.. Just like our

routine.. i was standing on the bridge, you were running, and we go to your apartment, spent

time together before i go work.. I was so happy that you care about me, i feel so precious.. lol..

hehehe..

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I know you start to forgot some memories about us.. before i regret it all, i just wanna say that i

love you hyung.. i know it'll sound crazy for you.. :)

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I was happy that you love me too hyung.. i'm not gonna regret that i already told you that i love

you.. i really love you.. and wanna be with you all the time.. <3

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So happy that we can be together, spend the cold night together.. just both of us.. it's already a

week we're on a relationship.. I'm happy.. it makes me think that i'm just dreaming.. Thanks for

loving me hyung..

Page 13

It's already 2 weeks after i told you that i love you.. i'm happy that

you love me too, and i thought you really try your best not to forget about me and keep try not to

forget our love.. Thankyou so much hyung.. I love you.. <3

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I never thought that this day will come.. I was waiting for you that night, but you're home with a

girl, you said that she's your girlfriend.. it hurts me so much hyung.. i know i can't blame you,

cos' i know you will forget me.. i always prepare for myself, i thought it'll be easy if i prepare

myself.. but, the fact i still can't believe it.. i still can't believe that you already forgot about our

love.. How i wish it's just a dream, but i'm not dreaming.. we even didn't break up that day..

haha, silly me.. it hurts hyung, should i keep pretending that i'm happy?? Should i keep survive??

What should i do hyung??? I know it'll be a pain memories that everyone wanna forget, but i

thought you have to know about it too.. Life isn't complete without pain, right???

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I was waiting for you on the bridge, you show up but didn't greet me.. i try to call you, but you

didn't hear me.. do you already forgot about me??? am i a stranger for you now??? I run after

you, but all i got is pain to saw you kissing with her.. I'm dying inside hyung.. well, this is

another painful memories for me, how i wish i can forget it too.. no need to worry hyung.. i was

smiling when i wrote it..

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It's already a week, when you always show up on the bridge without greet me,without call my

name, i feel like you didn't realize that i was here.. sometimes you smile, but more than that you

choose running without knowing my presence.. It hurts me hyung..

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I already made my decision.. I guess this is the better way.. you will forget me as time goes

by..oh, yeah..you already forgot about me..haha.. Even though you read this note that i make only for

you, when you remember me, i'm not here anymore..this is the last note for you hyung.. I don't

wanna suffer all by myself.. i don't wanna disturbing your life.. It's better to disappear.. right,

hyung??? :) Good bye hyung.. i love you.. I love you with all my heart.. Till death i will always

love you.. just you.. I hope you're always happy.. One more thing hyung, will you keep this

memories??? Even though some of it are a painful memories??? Please always remember me..

Please remember me, even after i die.. I love you hyung..

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When Jinki was running, he saw Key's note book and read it all.. He just can feel the pain inside

his heart, but he still can't remember about Key till he saw Key's dead body that was on the river

under the bridge between some big rocks.. Key can't be save.. He's already die.. Jinki remember a

little about key, with the note book on his hand, and with the pain inside his heart after read

those notes and saw Key's dead body.. it's enough to bring back some of his memories with key..

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"It's too late" That's the only sentences that out from Jinki's mouth when he was crying looking on

Key's dead body and holding the pain inside his heart..

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P.S: about Jinki address, i don't know what should i wrote there, so i put his years of birth..lol

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