Do you know the feeling when you just want to grab someone and keep it for yourself? When your heart beat insanely that it feels it is about to explode? That feeling when you felt the whole world stops? That all the humans in the world vanish and what’s left is just you and that certain person. How the time passes so slowly and how that certain person’s voice suddenly disappears and the only thing that works is your stupid smile on your face you have when they are right in front of you?   That’s the feeling I’m talking about!   And yes, I like that feeling although it is torturing.   It really does torture when your heart sudden pounds rapidly, how the blood suddenly rushes towards your cheeks, how the beads of sweat suddenly trickles down your forehead although the weather is absolutely fine. It drives you insane physically and mentally.   And it truly makes me go crazy as this is my very first time.   First time I felt that everything I am feeling now is right. Every move I make is absolutely right and most importantly every smile I trace on my lips is meant to be.   I thank that certain person for giving me this feeling.   I thank her for giving me this feeling.               “Lee Kikwang!” I snap out from my thoughts when a hand slaps me right on my arm. Ouch, it hurts. I quietly complain while rubbing my sore arm. I could hear the sound of a girl giggling. That giggle is so familiar that the frown and the pain of mine immediately vanish. It is replaced by a smile and that same heart pounding.   I lift up my head and boom! I could the blood is now rushing towards my cheeks. They always attack my cheeks whenever she is around.   “Hey!” I greeted her with my shaking voice. Damn, so not cool. I am so lame. I wonder what she thinks of me with that stupid voice of mine. It won’t function right whenever she is here, right in front of me. It always somehow choked inside my throat like something is holding it in.   She smiles and shakes her head while murmuring something that I am sure it is about me. She let out a small sigh before looking back at me with that same beautiful smile on her face. “Day dreaming again, I see.” She begins.   Oh, was I day dreaming again? “Was I?”   She rolls her eyes playfully and a giggle escapes. She hit me again but gently on my arm. “Dduh. I called you many times yet you seem too preoccupied with something. What bothers you? I notice you have been in your own world lately.”        “Nothing.” I replied and shut my locker close. Oh hey, why are you here in the first place?   She narrow her eyes while gives me the ‘Oh-really?’ look.   Well, I am certainly not going to say what is on my mind. She’ll be freak out once she knows about it. She is my junior. Yes, she is still in high school whereas I am in University already.  I’m her tutor. Her mother hired me to and that’s how I met and fall in love with her.   Oh, speaking of her age, how does she found me here anyway? I furrow my brows and leans against my locker while staring at her-full of curiosity. I tap my chin with my two fingers and hums that attracts her attention.   “What?” She asks then looks at herself-checking her clothes, shoes and hair.   “How did you get in here and how on earth did you find me?” Not that I look down on her but this University is freaking big and all the guys here always play tricks on new comer or junior kids. So how she made through and found me?   She smiles proudly and crosses her arms. Oh, I know that pose. She’ll do that and she’ll say ‘You know I am so intelligent that I can even do anything that it is impossible.’   “You know, I am so intelligent that I can even do anything that it is impossible.”   See, I told you. I already remember her trademarks. Everything about her I remember well. Her favourites and dislikes are all at the tip of my fingers.   I roll my eyes and kick myself off the locker. We begin to make our way out the University. I have a class with her from 3pm to 7pm today. It is tiring (thanks to the presentation and profolios due this week) but I love every bit of time when I got to spend my time with her.   “What are you doing in here anyways?” I question her when I suddenly remember how weird it is to find her here in the crowd.   She smiles and wiggles her brows. “To make sure you don’t run away from tutoring me, that is.”   My eyes widen and half of me felt like choking her (which I will never will) at her words. I look at her with my crumple face and shake my head like a maniac. “Ey, just to let you know, I never think of running away from my job.” I huff and look away from her. “I’m a good person.”   She chuckles-totally enjoyed this game of hers. I turn to glare at her so she knows that I really mean my words but she just laugh even more. Seriously, do I look like someone who cares less about my responsibility? Her mother trusts me to teach her and turn her into an Albert Einstein so I will turn her into what her mother hopes for. I am not running away from her trust.   “Lee Minyoung, this is not funny!” I walk faster trying to get away from her.   She gasps and fastens her pace to catch up on me. “Yah, I was just kidding!”   “Hmph!” I pout and begin to run.   She whines and starts to run chasing after me.  “Kyak!” Thump! I look back. There she was on the ground. Ah, she is so careless!    I quickly rush towards her. I try to take a look at her face as she hid her face in her palms.  I had a rush of guilt hits me because she wouldn't be like this if I hadn't ran away from her.    “Min, are you hurt?”  I could hear her sniffles.    [ Oh God, did she cry? Did it hurt her so much? Damn it! It is my fault! ]   She nods but I don’t want that. I want to really make sure that she is alright.     “Come on, let’s go to the clinic.” But she shakes her head.  Oh she is so stubborn.    “I hate you, Kikwang.” She whispers and I felt it stab my heart.   “Sorry.” I quietly spoke as a hint of guilt shown.  “Can you still walk Min?” She sat there silently. I sigh and turn around, offering her to get on my back.   “Get on my back. I’ll carry you.”   I swear I heard her giggle but I did not manage to peek on her as I immediately felt her warm body against my back and that successfully make me forget about the giggle.  Her arms circling around my neck. I could felt my own heartbeating, I just wish this could happen often. “Thanks Kikwang.” She whispers. Again, blood rushes to my cheeks but this time it didn’t stop there. I could feel it flows to my ears, redden it. My cheeks and ears felt hot and my heart starts to pound insanely. I wonder if she realizes all the sudden change of me.       When we reach her house, luckily her mom isn’t around. If not, I am sure that she’ll shower me with lots of questions and she will totally fire me from tutoring her daughter. The door is un lock so I easily push it open and we went straight away to her room. I put her on the bed and immediately miss the warmness of her body against my back.   “Gotcha.” I saw her smirk.  Urghh! that girl!   My blood boils up as I realize I had been fool by her.   “Min!” I scream at the top of my lungs only to earn her laughter.   I sigh and look away. I wonder if I ever were to tell her that I love her, would she even take me seriously.  At the thought she wouldn't take me seriously make me nervous and just sad.   Her laughter died out after a while as she realizes that I didn't laugh back.  “ I'm sorry…oppa ”   I pout and glare at her before darting my eyes away from her again.   “ Oppa, I was just kidding. Let’s just begin our tutoring sess