“Hyukkie, let’s divorce” He look so nervous while looking at me, maybe expecting me to shout at him

“Uhm..are you sure about this?” finally I look up facing him right on the eyes. “Is it because another person?”

“Yeah` something like that, you do remember Jessica right uhm..she is the one.” Hearing her name make my stomach clench, it’s not that I’m jealous hell of course I am but.. I don’t know this feeling. I feel disappointed and upset toward myself, maybe I’m not good enough for Hae, that’s why he search happiness from another

“Is it because I’m not good enough for you?”

“No, it’s not like that..it’s me not good enough for you that’s why I want to divorce and it’s because i don’t like you from the start I was force to married you! God! Can’t you just agree and sign the divorce already.”

I feel like my heart is rip into two because his statement, I know that he is forced by his parents to marry me because his company is not doing well before but it’s still hurts so much.

“I-I’m sorry for being a burden to you, don’t worry I will sigh the paper but can’t it be delay for a week, uhm you know Henry will have his birthday in one week.”

I can se he is being displease right now but I can’t let Henry get disappointed because of this.

“Tch, fine just sign after his birthday! I’m going!”

“Where are you going?”

It’s almost a week after Donghae give me the divorce paper, and tomorrow is Henry’s birthday but still he is not showing his face, even though he hate me so much but can’t him just attend his own son’s birthday for the last time. I can’t help but crying agin

“Umma, are you ok, What’s wrong? Did I do something disappoint you?” Henry ask me with his worried look

“Aniyo~ umma is ok” there is so much time where I decide to tell Henry about the divorce matter but I always chicken out when I look into his eyes. He have Donghae’s eyes, the eyes I love so much

“Now Henry you are six years old, so what do you want?”

“Can I go to school like Zou mi hyung umma? Because he is already do.”

“Ohh~ here sit next to me, you know Henry ah~ you can’t attend school yet because you’re net 7 years old yet.” His shoulder slump after hearing my explanation

“Waeee~ umma I was smarter than most of the other kid, I even know that Dad is going to divorce with you.”

I was so shock knowing that Henry is already know that Donghae and I is going to divorce “Wh-where are you heard this?”

“Some lady saying this to me that Dad is not love you and me, and he will marry that lady and divorce y-you.” At the last sentence he choke at his  breath and ended crying. I hug him and crying too. It’s seem that Donghae really don’t want to have any relation with us anymore.

Donghae’s Pov

I was at my office, busy with documents on my table. God! I miss Hyukjae’s massage at this time, before this I always bring my works home because want to spent my time with him and Henry. I shook my head because don’t want to remember him anymore, how could I when I already divorce him and lived with Jessica. I smile thinking of her, she is my first love my angel.

Knock Knock

“Come in.” I said to the one who knocked my office door and let him/her in

“Sir, you have a package. Here.” My secretary give me the package she brought

I open it and see that it was the divorce paper I give to Hyukjae Pluk, something fall from the inside of the package. It was a letter. I open it and read it

Dear my Hae

When you read this letter it mean that we are already divorce because I already sign the paper you give me. I let you go, hoping you will be happy with Jessica. I’m sorry for not being good enough for you, I’m such a fail wife. If I tried more hard maybe you will love me, but it’s seems I’m not trying hard enough for making you love me.

You know what Hae? Today is the happiest and the worst day on my life. The happiest because it’s remind me of Henry’s born, and the worst is because after today I will lost the person I love the most and we will become stranger.

I’m sorry for not showering you enough love, I tried Hae I always. But I don’t regret for marrying you even after what you did to me. Don’t worry I will be strong for raising Henry. After you read this it’s mean I’m not in Korean anymore, me and Henry decide to move on and start our new life.

I won’t ask you to return my parents money, don’t worry I’m not that kind of person, I don’t care about money. And please say to Jessica that there is no need to saying such a hurtful things to Henry for getting rid of me from your life, he is only six and just turn into one today.

I love you Hae, I always do I hope you will always remember that even though you don’t need anymore but let me just saying this because after this I will tried to remove you from my memory and I won’t call you Hae or my love like what I always did before, and you won’t called me your Hyukkie anymore.

I’m sorry my love, and I love you. And when we met again I will proudly facing you without tears in my eyes and say “How are you doing, Lee Donghae ssi.”

Lee Hyukjae