"Sometimes we need to throw our pride and lean on someone...so that we didn't feel alone and didn't think this world so cruel...and have someone with you while crying is better than crying alone in the dark corner"-my own quote

Early in the morning

Donghyun pov

“yah, you two, jeongmin and youngminie, why did you guys sleep outside? Did you guys stay up too late yesterday night?”, I’m trying to wake this two min.. Why youngmin’s eyes look swollen? Did he crying? Would it be jeongmin knows about this? I better ask Jeongmin later.

“Palli, ierona.. We have scheduled tonight..we need to do rehearsal...who’s late, he going to treat us dinner tonight", with that warn, both of them run to bathroom quickly.

 

After rehearsal

 

Jeongmin pov

‘Why Youngmin looks like nothing happen yesterday? He shows that he really fine and nothing matter but in fact last night he crying really hard and that’s really big matter..He should not hide it from us..Whenever I’m going to approach him to ask about that night, he would avoid me, running away from me..I can’t let him face this alone’

I can't take my eyes from him since I'm really worried about him..and since I know the reason why he's crying..

 

Flashback

when I’m about to put Youngmin on sofa, his iphone fall..then I see something on the screen..Its make me shock and sad.. He got bashing from anti-fans..even our fans, bestfriend talking bad about him..I’m really sorry Youngmin..you face this alone..my tears fall when I scrolled down his iphone..

(on the screen phone-conversation between several people)

A : Do you know boy band Boyfriend?

B: I know it.. the one with twins..right? but I don’t like the older twin

A: Yeah me too..Don’t you think he’s gay? Look at his face..so girly..he would ruin their group image..They shouldn’t take him in a band..

B : Yeah I feel the same too..Did you hear it about him and Zico from block b? Zico confess his love to Youngmin I think

C : really? Geez..How disgusting..why don’t they feel ashamed about this?aigoo..

A : I know about that..I bet Kwangmin would ashamed being his twin..

D : I’m bestfriend but I don’t like Youngmin too..He too girly..with such feminine face..His voice even not amazing..I don’t know what his role on the band..Just 5 members are enough I think.

End of flashback

 

Donghyun pov

I see jeongmin keep his eye on youngmin while youngmin avoiding him..I need to ask one of them..I really think bad thing have happen last night.  I’m approaching jeongmin who still has his eye on youngmin.

“Jeongmin”

“oh yeah hyung..wae?”

“what you doing with youngmin last night till you guys sleep in living room?”

 

Jeongmin pov

“what you doing with youngmin last night till you guys sleep in living room?”, Donghyun hyung ask me..He not leader for no reason..That what I like about donghyun hyung..always concerned..but what should I say..I even didn’t talk with youngmin yet..should I tell donghyun hyung about those conversations?

“yah, I’m talking with you right now jeongmin!”

“err..Hyung, don’t mad..Last night I can’t sleep..so I thought maybe I can watch some sad movie to made me crying till I sleep..maybe? but then, I found youngmin in living room..he said he can’t sleep too..so we watching movie together last night..ken”, my brain said I need to tell the truth but my mouth said different thing..aish why my mouth doesn’t want to listen it's owner..hmph..

“oh really? hmm I will ask youngmin about this too since I see his eyes swollen this morning likes he crying too much last night”, with that donghyun hyung approach youngmin..

 

Youngmin pov

I see donghyun hyung talk with jeongmin hyung..they seem like in serious situation and why I feels likethey talk about me..I see donghyun hyung approach me..I have a bad feeling..

“youngmin, is it true that you and jeongmin watching a movie till you guys fall sleep?”, I heard donghyun hyung ask me..wait..why jeongmin hyung said like that? did he know why I’m crying??Impossible..I didn’t talk with him about that yet..

“Youngminie, I’m talking with you right now”

“ah..hyung..mian..yeah, we watching a movie since we can’t sleep”

“what movie did you watch?”, omo..what I should say? why hyung ask so detail..I’m in troubled.. I don’t know either what movie we watch since we didn’t watch any movie last night

“We watch Japanese movie, song of the sun...that really sad movie..we crying too much since the female cast died in the end..hey hyung, why you asking too much? we didn’t do any weird thing..don’t worry”, I heard jeongmin hyung answered donghyun hyung..fuhh..I’m glad he said something..but I bet jeongmin hyung will insist me to explain about last night

“ok..if that what you guys said..but after this don’t stay up too late and don’t crying too much..You guys look so ugly in the morning”

“aww..that so cruel hyung”, I said back to donghyun hyung..I should make him believe..seems he believe to jeongmin hyung story..Should I thank jeongmin hyung then? o.O

After donghyun hyung leave, jeongmin hyung said something to me..I’m in trouble

“so youngminie, mind to tell me the truth?”, ask jeongmin hyung

“what are you talking about hyung?”

“why you crying last night? Please don’t hide it from me..share with me”

“ani..it just.. I’m missing my family..yes, I miss my family..I mean..I miss my mom, my dad and hyunmin..it’s already a long time since our last meet”, good youngmin, you stuttering

“hmm..you know what, you really bad at lying,youngmin”, with that jeongmin hyung leave me and handing me his mp3

 

(skip to performance..now they already back to dorm)

 

Youngmin pov

Now we have our own free time..I plugged earphone to my ear and click button play on jeongmin hyung’s mp3..i hear his sweet voice..he singing English song..i think the title is you can count on me by bruno mars

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea,
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see,
I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of
When we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

 

after that song, jeongmin hyung sing one more song..a comfort song.. (click here to listen the song while reading i think :) )

 

Give me a smile, Don’t be sad 
It’s going to be alright. Don’t shed a tear 
The song that I am singing now 
I hope that it can bring you a bit of comfort 

Give me a smile, Don’t get hurt 
It’s going to be alright, although you are going through a hard time now 
Time will pass 
Everything will look up again 

Give me a smile 
I am right here by your side 
I love you, can you hear my heart? 
Close your eyes 
No matter what, I believe you 
I am always here for you 

Give me a smile, look into my eyes 
I love you, I have always been looking at your heart 
It has never changed 
You can lean on my shoulders 
Take a rest, 
Give me a smile. 

I am here for you, 
me who believes in you 
always and forever. 

“Youngmin r..i know why you crying last night..can’t you opened up to me? You know,seeing you crying last night really make me sad..when I know the reason why you crying, I'm also crying..I feel useless..I can't protect my dongsaeng..you through this alone..why?why don’t you lean on us? Or at least on me? If you already willing to share with me, you know where to find me..and youngmin r, it doesn’t matter what they talking about you..the most important thing,what you thinking about yourself..we can't closed people mouth..just take it as one of challenge for you to success..i believe on you..don't ever think you didn’t deserve to be our members..without you,is not boyfriend anymore..”

I burst into tears after hearing jeongmin hyung song and words..i really feel stupid..I let them down my mood..its normal right to have anti-fans?but I will try to prove them that I’m not like what they think..I run to find jeongmin hyung in studio..I know he likes to spend time in studio practicing his guitar skills..I think?

I found him..its not make think twice to hug him to show my gratitude..I'm crying on his shoulder..I feel guilty to make his cloth wet..

“gomawo youngmin..for opened up to me”,I heard jeongmin hyung ask me..his word just make me crying more..he really kind to me..

“ani hyung..it should be me thanking you..thanks hyung for the song,for the words and for your care to me..I really feel suffocate that time..I don’t know who should I share with since I don’t want anyone worried about me..but now,I'm realize,sometimes we need to lean on other people since its really hurt crying alone..”, I blurt out all my feeling to jeongmin hyung

“shh..dont worry..I'm always with you..don't mind about them anymore..just being yourself..I miss your smiley face and your bubbly personality”

“yeah hyung..I will be myself..I’m not going let them make me down anymore..thanks to you hyung”, I smiled to jeongmin hyung

“oh ya, by the way hyung, your English is not so good..don't ever to sing English song anymore if you doesn't want to make Seoul flooding..arachi?”, I stick out my toungue before dashing out from studio.

“yah! What did you said?? Wait..you will dead once I caught you!!”, jeongmin hyung try catching me and of course he cannot catch me since I run fast than him and since I have long leg than him..hihi :D

 

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First, I'm sorry for making those conversation..I even crying making this..I'm really sorry..please dont hate me.. T.T i already solve it..i think? sorry too if this doesnt come out as what you guys predict..sorry too for any wrong spelling..im too sleepy and too lazy too recheck the spelling/grammar..thanks for reading..feel free to throw your opinion ^.^