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- Yahh are you sleep? - I heard voice man driving car I look at him and nervous smile said:

- anyo....I'm a little bit nervous - he smile calm and said:

- don't worry they not bite, they are nice so calm down - calm down, easy to said but how can I by calm when I must live with few boys in the same home?! you call me why I'm so nervous becpuse I'm a girl and I must added I'm kind of shy around boys well I have boyfriend but he was the one who make a first step and I was suprise becouse boys are not interested me....nevermind you ask my why I must live with boys.....becouse .....becouse no one know I'm a girl right now....stupid right....but it;s true it's all fault my parents becouse of them I born together with my brother....hell brother....what I want to said is I have twin brother he is sick and he have secret waepon on me and I must by him on some time when he back to healty and....right know I will by live with SHINee as they new member....but I start to from begining

 

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- today special news SM Entertaiment search 6 member to knowing band SHINee, he bring to them new fresh air and make them more popularity all intereting boys invited on special audition which on will by in next saturday ....blablabla

_ Yahhh!!! Ri-chan are you heard! - my brother run to my and start to jump from happiness -

_ I heard so what?

_ so what? are you crazy it's my chance

_ on what?

_ aishhh you are worst them father, will you ever listen to me?

_ sometimes

_ aishhh.....I told you few weeks ago that I want to by Idol, our parents alwaya forced us to this stupid music lesson and dance lesson and I have chance to used them

_ you said they are stupid...

_ aishhh maybe they are but they maybe made me famous

I shrugged my arms and back to write I know it's kind of old school but I write my diary I like this well as you heard my brother Chaesung is my twin brother but he is completly different then I',m he is like fire and I'm like water, he have short temper always do something later he think I do always from other side, before he tell anyone he go to this audition, and well the truth is I know he is good but I didn't know he is that good, he without any troubles go to the final and have a lot chance to win this and become SHINee 6 member, two week before the final audition start he start to fell bad and I was worried anyways he is my brother

_ are you alright Chaesung? you dosn't look to good

_ I don't know - he said sit next to me - maybe I'm just little tired, but I don't give up

I smile to him but I staert to go on his practice and look at him careful, he dosn't like talk about fact he is sick or he feel bad but I know him and I fell something is wrong, and I have right one week before final audition he fainted, when he was in hospital doctors said he catch a raelly serious cold and he need time to back to healty but he know he didn't have time becouse he can;t give up his chance on beeing famous when we stay alone in hospital room he ask:

_ you must me help Ri

_ how? - I said make his pillow better position he catch my hand and said:

_ I ask you seroius

His eyes make me worried a little, I make a step back and said:

_ I will not kidnap you from hospital and not bring you on this stupid audition - he look at me and burst of laught then he said:

_ well this will by our plan B araso?

and he wink to me, even when he was in that bad condition he still try to by funny and not make me worried, he was always like that even when we hate each other sometimes well we always where together from the begining I sit next to him and ask:

_ then how you think my help should look?

he smile and said:

_ only you know my choreography right?

_ so?

_ only you have the same talent as you right?

_ so what? it's only becouse mother take us on the same lesson

He smile again and then he said:

_ and when you cut you hair only you look the same as me right?

I was silent becouse all his words must come to me slowly and then.........

_ ARE YOU LOSE YOUR MIND??????

I burst what he think we change place few times but we were kids small kids not right know when we somehow are definitly different, well boys and girls are different when years past right?

then he smile and said:

_ well you dosn't have to much women sign if you know what I mean....you have B or A size?

_ Yahhh!!!! you not make your position better this way!!!!

_ I'm sorry I just try to realize you facts this will by not that hard and....

_ I right know realize you fact that you can never stand up from this bed when I come closer to you!

_ calm down Ri I just joking

He never have good sense of humor, but then he take his phone and said:

_ I though I will by not have to use this but - and then he show me few picture from day when I run away from home in night to meet with my boyfriend before he must leave on week I open my eyes more then I shouted:

_ you stalked me?!

_ anyo I just like have some special weapon on you becouse you never want to help me

_ becouse your idea are always so stupid and dangerous especially for me!

_ please I can't give up....It can by my only one chance...please

_NO!!!

_ then I will by have send this to father...I think he will by not to happy that his lovely doughter lie him and...

_ stop It! we can talk as a adult person right?

he smile, I hate this smile He look at me and said:

- just to the moment I back to healty, I know you are to shy to by famou but you can try on few days right?

I look at him without words he sight and said:

- you pretendet me many times when I have troubles and no one find out this

_ but we have 10 years when I do this last time

- so?..... just forget we grown up, listen me you know how to dance my choreography, you know me as no one else and you know only you can help me right now Ri

he have right I know it will by hard, raelly hard but....this person that can help him really can by only I

I sight and ask:

- what about father? he can recognize us

_ he never watch this kind of programms and he isn't in country right know then we have sometime

He second time have right, but will I really can pretendet him right now? I didn't have choice as agreed

I cut my hair, practice his choreography days and nights to by enought good and go on this auditions, I put his clothes and prayed everything was alright

I try my best as never before and.....two hours later I really did....I win for my brother...and I think I can rest but

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- you was great chaesung - said middle age man stand in front of me I smile he look at me and added:

- you look amazing cute as on your age it's good you will by perfectly match to SHINee members I today send everything to the boss

I almost go away when he said:

- ah I almost forget tomorow you will by ready from the morning I send someone for you

- send? - I was kind of shocked what for? he smile and said:

_ you will not think you will by live in your home and coming on brodcasting right? tomorow you meet SHINee members and you moved to their dorm you all need to meet closer to become a great band

he go away, I stand in place little frozen...NO very frozen....I and 5 boys....in the same home....I have black mind I try to beg my brother he will not ask me go there but he couldn't stand from bed yet and I have no other choice but just go becouse next morning in front of my home stand car and some man waiting on me I qiueckly packed my brother staff, and go with this man he said he is SHINee menager he talk me alot about SHINee and everything but I didn't listen him all my way I was prayed and ask GOD why me?

maybe I made a lot of bad things in past life?

_ Yahhh are you listen me? - SHINee menager ask stand in front of car door, I look at him suprised He smile and said:

_ I said you can go out we are here - and he show me some apartaments standing in front of the car, It is it I'm in my hell....and this way I start to my life as my brother I open the door and come out from car take a deep breath and start to go after menager only one mind in my head right now I'm boy"