That broken eyes that close and open slightly, a few sigh follow every after a drop of crystal clear tear he let escaping his rich chocolate eyes. He squeezed my lung so tight until I couldn’t help that important organ of mine to pump more oxygen in my hemoglobin to run an exchange with my heart. He took my life slowly until it was fine for me to die at the very place with my eyes open to see his form and my mouth gasping to mouth every single word I always wanted him to hear, he was my angel, my broken little piece of mirror.

I couldn’t touch him even if I could his bleeding wound, I couldn’t hate him even when he did something that I hate, I couldn’t warmth him even if I could reach him, I couldn’t hear his voice even when I listen to him, I couldn’t kiss him even when my chapped surface touched him, he couldn’t love me even if I show him my love.

Why oh my dear Lord of vanity? Why wouldn’t you let me be the one that he needed the most? And why you create me to be such a hopeless creature that needs one and every single thing there was attached to his slow beating heart? Even if he doesn’t need me, I want him to need me; I wanted to be the one who’s ready to be his everything, why won’t you let me?

It was such a shame to me. To not be able to wipe that melted snowdrop away from his soft pale pinkish cheek. To not be able to peck that locked soft chapped surface and unite it with mine, building a firm bridge to world’s unending pleasure. To let my eyes ignite with his beauty, putting all other sight into the death of its light. And does he know? There was no lust meant in every glance I share there was just dust of love that I blew to his face, to let him breathe the love I had.

 

And I would want to watch hundreds hours fall before my eyes, to watch your tears, your blink and your every move. The same gesture you did every single day ever since the first time I saw you here in the very place that I have never wanted to see you. You sat there, next to the empty ground, in front of a stone the empty stone with something craved on it, odd enough… you were there but never stares at the rock, just having a steady fun watch on the empty grassed-ground, there was some kind of magnetic pulls that you would try to come with, but sadly you were no Magneto. You would lean your head to the air, watching the sky for once in every half hour you spend here and you would rock back with those long eye lashes jointed together, perfectly fell for each other.

Your chest moved slowly up and down for despising the falling feather. Your fingers trail on the stone and then you smiled looking so peaceful, nevertheless none of that hazel iris shares a glimpse on the craven stone, and you were just looking at the empty grass next to it, you have never wanted nor willing to look at it. You kissed the cold surface and there I was, falling on my knee.

“… I love you…”

Your reddish hair brushed your shoulder, you let it fall on your face and cover your fountain from those brown diamonds. I could hear my heart shattered into pieces of broken glass, never in my life I’ve seen you this broken, never thought I’m alive when I see you like this, or was I not?

Let me be for you let me be what you want. Don’t give up on me, never give up on you. I beg you with all my heart please dear God, let me be what he wants.

I’m sorry for not be able to hold you, to not be able to caress you, to not be able to wipe your tears away… “I’m sorry…”

“Changsun?” those beautiful eyes were set on me, those perfect lips were open to say my mind, and those beautiful pale arms were reaching over me. But never… you would never be able to keep me, no matter how many time that you reach me you’d never touch me… you would never be able to love me back, no matter how many time that you did we’d never go back… there was no reason why you and I never unite… there was no reason why I have to leave you alone, running to the edge of the rainbow, chasing over my spirit… “Why?”

“Cheolyong…” I said your name, with a purr with the back of it, your beautiful name… “Mir…” my hands were all over you but I could feel nothing from you… tears roll… I knew why you were here from the first time but far more better… I knew why I am here to stand by you. “There is no why…” I said coming up with realization how much skinny the man I’ve always love become, how fragile he really is despise of the beautiful smile he had on, he must have been suffocating and stumble around the world, being overly lonely without me nor anyone else in this life

I was not alive.

 

Lips were pressed together but neither of us could feel. There was no surface no taste nothing to touch like it was before.

But there was a lot of love.

 

His tears, his crystal, his gem rolls down ghosting over my feeling. The moon, I have never realize that the moon sets high, you have made me forgotten the world, Cheolyong.

“Why are you here?” don’t talk to me with that broken voice of yours, Mir… I beg you.

I wanted to give you a thousand explanations but I knew I know none. I wanted to sing a billion love songs for you but there was no melody to emit. I only knew one reason and it was not the best reason I would want to wrap in a box and give it for you, but… “To congratulate you on your graduation, Mir…” even the cheesiest words should do for now.

 

It is now your name craven in… between your family and I… my dear… “Why are you here?”

“Because this is what I wished to God… as I’ve done everything I want in this world…” you breathed softly against my chest, with a faint smile forming on your beautiful face.

“To die?”

“No, to love you forever.”

That broken eyes that close and open slightly, a few sigh follow every after a drop of crystal clear tear he let escaping his rich chocolate eyes. He squeezed my lung so tight until I couldn’t help that important organ of mine to pump more oxygen in my hemoglobin to run an exchange with my heart. He took my life slowly until it was fine for me to die at the very place with my eyes open to see his form and my mouth gasping to mouth every single word I always wanted him to hear, he was my angel, my broken little piece of mirror.

I couldn’t touch him even if I could his bleeding wound, I couldn’t hate him even when he did something that I hate, I couldn’t warmth him even if I could reach him, I couldn’t hear his voice even when I listen to him, I couldn’t kiss him even when my chapped surface touched him, he couldn’t love me even if I show him my love.

Why oh my dear Lord of vanity? Why wouldn’t you let me be the one that he needed the most? And why you create me to be such a hopeless creature that needs one and every single thing there was attached to his slow beating heart? Even if he doesn’t need me, I want him to need me; I wanted to be the one who’s ready to be his everything, why won’t you let me?

It was such a shame to me. To not be able to wipe that melted snowdrop away from his soft pale pinkish cheek. To not be able to peck that locked soft chapped surface and unite it with mine, building a firm bridge to world’s unending pleasure. To let my eyes ignite with his beauty, putting all other sight into the death of its light. And does he know? There was no lust meant in every glance I share there was just dust of love that I blew to his face, to let him breathe the love I had.

 

And I would want to watch hundreds hours fall before my eyes, to watch your tears, your blink and your every move. The same gesture you did every single day ever since the first time I saw you here in the very place that I have never wanted to see you. You sat there, next to the empty ground, in front of a stone the empty stone with something craved on it, odd enough… you were there but never stares at the rock, just having a steady fun watch on the empty grassed-ground, there was some kind of magnetic pulls that you would try to come with, but sadly you were no Magneto. You would lean your head to the air, watching the sky for once in every half hour you spend here and you would rock back with those long eye lashes jointed together, perfectly fell for each other.

Your chest moved slowly up and down for despising the falling feather. Your fingers trail on the stone and then you smiled looking so peaceful, nevertheless none of that hazel iris shares a glimpse on the craven stone, and you were just looking at the empty grass next to it, you have never wanted nor willing to look at it. You kissed the cold surface and there I was, falling on my knee.

“… I love you…”

Your reddish hair brushed your shoulder, you let it fall on your face and cover your fountain from those brown diamonds. I could hear my heart shattered into pieces of broken glass, never in my life I’ve seen you this broken, never thought I’m alive when I see you like this, or was I not?

Let me be for you let me be what you want. Don’t give up on me, never give up on you. I beg you with all my heart please dear God, let me be what he wants.

I’m sorry for not be able to hold you, to not be able to caress you, to not be able to wipe your tears away… “I’m sorry…”

“Changsun?” those beautiful eyes were set on me, those perfect lips were open to say my mind, and those beautiful pale arms were reaching over me. But never… you would never be able to keep me, no matter how many time that you reach me you’d never touch me… you would never be able to love me back, no matter how many time that you did we’d never go back… there was no reason why you and I never unite… there was no reason why I have to leave you alone, running to the edge of the rainbow, chasing over my spirit… “Why?”

“Cheolyong…” I said your name, with a purr with the back of it, your beautiful name… “Mir…” my hands were all over you but I could feel nothing from you… tears roll… I knew why you were here from the first time but far more better… I knew why I am here to stand by you. “There is no why…” I said coming up with realization how much skinny the man I’ve always love become, how fragile he really is despise of the beautiful smile he had on, he must have been suffocating and stumble around the world, being overly lonely without me nor anyone else in this life

I was not alive.

 

Lips were pressed together but neither of us could feel. There was no surface no taste nothing to touch like it was before.

But there was a lot of love.

 

His tears, his crystal, his gem rolls down ghosting over my feeling. The moon, I have never realize that the moon sets high, you have made me forgotten the world, Cheolyong.

“Why are you here?” don’t talk to me with that broken voice of yours, Mir… I beg you.

I wanted to give you a thousand explanations but I knew I know none. I wanted to sing a billion love songs for you but there was no melody to emit. I only knew one reason and it was not the best reason I would want to wrap in a box and give it for you, but… “To congratulate you on your graduation, Mir…” even the cheesiest words should do for now.

 

It is now your name craven in… between your family and I… my dear… “Why are you here?”

“Because this is what I wished to God… as I’ve done everything I want in this world…” you breathed softly against my chest, with a faint smile forming on your beautiful face.

“To die?”

“No, to love you forever.”