Thoughts of Love
One Ok Rock
Three days. Three days since I last saw you, and my mind is already coming up with the worst scenarios. I leaned up against the brick building and took one final puff of my cigarette. The cold air hit me like a thousand needles. I pulled my jacket closer to me and threw the used cigarette on the ground.
The nights had never been kind to me and it felt like pure torture being away from you. I sat on the ground looking up at the stars. What are you doing right now? Are you thinking of me right now?
I pulled out my phone and read each text you sent me, over and over again like some love struck teenager. Love. Is this what love feels like? Having you on my mind constantly, and picturing you everywhere I go. Is this love or is this obsession?
I’m not one to believe in love at first sight but how else can I explain it? That moment I first saw you, something changed in me. I don’t know why but I just wanted to grab you and pull you into a tight embrace and never let you go. We were both strangers and the moment I heard your voice, I knew I would never want anyone but you.
Everything about you drew me in and made me want you even more. That cocky smile of yours that you made when you didn’t want to follow orders. Those piercing dark eyes that were so full of innocence and rebellion. The way you pushed your hair out of your eyes. That little pout you made when you didn’t get your way. The way you were so shy when you came near me. Everything about you made me want you. You were like a drug to me.
I’m in love with everything about you. We can be surrounded by a sea of people, but the only person I see is you. I’m hopelessly and completely in love with you.
So this is what love feels like, I thought to myself. I chuckled at the thought. Oh what a joy it is to love someone like you. I never want this feeling of complete happiness to ever end.
I’m a complete mess when you’re not with me. I feel as if my life has no meaning without you in it. I just want to see you soon. For once, I want to be the one that comes running into your embrace. I want to be the one that looks up into your eyes and says, I love you. For once, I want you to be the one that holds me and promises to never let go. The only thing I truly want is you.
I want to feel the touch of your fingers when they’re intertwined with mine. I want to hear you whisper how much you love me into my ear. I want to feel the touch of your lips against mine. I want to run my fingers through your hair while you’re curled up next to me. I want to feel the warmth of your body while we lay in bed together. I want to take away every fear and doubt that you have.
I never want to make you cry. I never want to argue with you. I want to always be there for you and support you no matter what decisions you make. I want to hurt anyone that has ever hurt you. I am yours completely.
You have me in every possible way. I am devoted to you and only you. The truth is, I love you.
I smiled as I let the thoughts of love consume me. If this is really what love feels like then I never want it to end. I must seem like some crazy person staring down at his phone and smiling like an idiot.
I guess people really do crazy things when they’re in love.
I bit my lip and sighed in satisfaction. I read the last text you sent me over and over again.
I miss you like crazy. I keep thinking that you’ll just pop up right in front of me. Does that sound crazy? Oh well. Haha. I love you so much. I can’t wait to be back home.
p.s. I love you…even though I already said it.
I smiled at the phone still in my hand. I texted back.
I miss you. Come back to me soon.
p.s. I love you…..forever.
I looked up at the night sky and smiled. For once, I was completely and happily in love.
To Be Continued….
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