A few years back

Dara's POV

From: Maknae Mingkki

Unnie, are you all right?

From: CL roo 

Where are you? I'm getting worried unnie.

From: Bommie

Yah! Sandara Park! Text me! Palli! Why are you not answering your phone? YAAAH!!!!

From: Little Seunghyun

Noona! I'm not talking to hyung right now. Please, just let us know you're fine. We're really really worried noona.

Aigoo, I knew i'll be bombarded with these people. Am I alright? I guess I've gotten used to it Mingkki-ah. I'm just around here somewhere CL. Don't worry about me. Bommie, I will answer your calls, just give me sometime, neh? Seungri-ah, Noona's fine. I'm sorry and I'm thankful that you're worried. Don't give your hyung a hard time ok?

It's better not to respond to them right now. Good thing I'm good at driving, I can go any place now. I just love the fresh breeze of the sea. It makes me feel at ease. But it's not helping that mch right now.

Honestly, I don't even know myself what has happened.  I guess this is a usual thing now. Ani, I know it is. This has been going on for months, probably for years even. I saw this one coming, I just tried to conceal it to myself. I'm in too deep, I left not that much for myself. But who am I kidding? Right?

We're struggling. Or is he even? Am I the only one trying to fix things out? I've been understanding for how long? Why have I never had the courage to ask him these? Am I too afraid to lose him that I just step aside every single time? That we've never had a single confrontation? That he never even bothered to explain things? Do i deserve this? Why do I love him so much?

I didn't realize I was crying already when someone wiped my tears. I looked up and saw Donghae smiling at me, as if saying it's going to be fine.

"Aigoo, Tokki."

"Why are you here? How did you know I'm here?" He stared at me for a little too long, so I nudged him. That made him vome back to his senses.

"I don't know, probably cause we're bestfriends? And this has happened so many times now that I know where your hinding places are." He said with a wink.

I cried harder then, that he panicked.

"Yah! What did I do?" 

I just cried more and hugged him, which he fortunately returned. Ani, mulgo, it's not what you did.

It's what you didn't.

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A/N: Hello! Is anyone still going to read this? Keke. I know this has been long overdue, and I can't promise any frequency in updating. I won't have any schedule in updating. Who knows it might take another year? Hihi. But I hope you enjoy.