final

had it, lost it

She was beautiful. All dressed in white, arm in arm with her father looking like an angel gliding towards the alter. She was no longer the innocent shy girl he had first come to know but she was now an elegant gorgeous woman. To him she was like no other, she cared for him like a mother, like a sister and nagged him like a wife. She celebrated with him on his success and stood by him through his hard times. Despite all the women who would throw themselves at him there ws no one else that would catch his attention like she would. Even looking at her walking down the isle he felt nervous. He couldn't believe the time had finally arrived. It was a far cry from their old trainee days when marriage was only something they could dream off. He had never met anyone who was as patient with him or as forgiving as she was. Her laughter and warmth gave him comfort when he was down, hefelt safe and at home.

Flashbakc
Wooyoung POV: 
She was the person that I would mention if I were ever to about my first true love if my kids or grandkids would ever ask about. When I asked her when did she realise she was in love she told me: 
[it was when she couldn't stop thinking about the other person that you would do anything to make that person happy even if it meant getting hurt yourself and despite the fact you've been together for a while you still have those anxiety and tingly feelings when you're together, that those emotions are still raw]

When she said those things I had drawnt a perfect image of her in my head. I remember when the wedding invitations were sent out, she was so nervous and giddy. I felt a twisted feeling in my stomach. During the wedding preparation I had never seen her so picky, her hair in a bun, looking at plates which all looked the same and pointing out the minor details. Then came that day when I went to the wedding designer with her because she wanted to design the wedding dress. It was strange as I watched her deciding what dress she wanted to wear on the day she would become a wife. Before the night ended we wanted to get something to eat, her treat she said. I remember not saying much as things began to dawn on me. She was getting married. She asked me what was wrond and I said it was nothing but she knew me too well and kept asking.
~ Whats wrong? You've been quiet
-it's nothing
~ don't lie to me
-you're actually getting married
~ yeah, why do you make it sound so bad -
I never thought a day like this would come
~ am I not marriage material? - she had that cute look on her face 
- you've been in my life for more than 10 years, but you're so close to leaving
~leaving?are you kicking me out of your life or something
-how can you possibly stay
~ why don't you just tell me what it is you're trying to get at? she asked in a serious tone
- you're going to be someone's wife and you expect me to act like everything is normal? ....... there was a silence between us that shut out the rest of the world 
~ you're too much you know that. - she said bluntly 
- I'm too much? You're marrying someone else for goodness sake
~what did you expect me to do? Wait for you forever? Wooyoung I've waited for you for too long. I was there for you through everything and I cared for you like no other and I was never sure what we were to each other it gave me such a headache. I want someone who is willing to tell me how he feels about me, with you I never got that, they were all unspoken words, I guess as I got older they were no longer enough for me. I want assurance Wooyoung, we're not young naive kids anymore...One last request I will ever askfrom you is to come to my wedding. As my friend be happy for me.
End of Flashback

Wooyoung POV:
It took all of my strength to get me here. It pained me to be at this damn wedding, to know I had my chance and I blew it. Taeyeon had always been there, and I guess I took her for granteed I expected her to be there forever, but instantly she was taken away from me. I left it destiny to put us together but all I did was stall the process to the point where destiny decided to change his plans. A closed door meant an open one for someone else who wasn't dumb like me to miss It. Who would pass up the opportunity to spend a lifetime with her?The reception was wonderful, haply faces everywhere, her members were there and so were mine. I guess this is what our wedding would've looked like. So many what ifs and maybes fill my head. I decided to say my goodbye to the bride and groom. I faked a smile and wished them all the best. I gave Taeyeon a simple kiss on the cheek, but she knew and I knew that was it. As I headed out I heard someone call my name. It was her. I couldnt look at her properly, it was too painful. The stars had come out and the wind had settled as the lights from the venue shone highlighting her perfect features
~thank you... for coming
- I wouldn't have missed it for the world... congratulations.
~thank you. -you should...
~i had always imagined what it would be like if we got married, how life would've turned out - she confessed
-why didn't we work out? Why couldn't it have been you and me?
~because... because I realised neither of us wanted to take the risk, we had our pride, neither one of us wanted to admit our feelings first and that lead us here. I felt like we tried our best but we got no where, maybe destiny had already written our story. We were both waiting for love instead of meeting half way. Our love came, but we didn't do enough to keep it going. We neglected it and took it for granted rather than cherishing it. Everything lead us to this moment ...  Wooyoung.,you will always have a place in my heart, please don't forget that
 I stared at her as the tears fell from her face. I took a step towards her wiping them away. I looked into her eyes with sincerity and leaned in closer she closed her eyes as our lips touched. There were so many emotions as my heartbeat increased. Her lips were soft and warm, I could feel her tears trickle down as we kissed. Right there and then I wanted everything to just stop, for those few seconds she was mine. But then she pulled away. I wanted more. I wanted her. But it wasn't to be.
~this is goodbye Wooyoung.
I cupped her cheeks and kissed her forehead. There were no more words to be spoken and i gave her an understanding nod. For one last time she looked at me with love before turning around and walking away from the past and towards the future.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sorry if its not too good, did it on my phone and so I had to like re do some parts cause it got deleted.. please comment and let me know what you think Thanksss!

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intomynewworld #1
bittersweet T.T love it
kiyoong #2
Chapter 1: thumbs up!