You wanna know a secret? Ok ok..

He’s not my first love and I’m NOT his first love. Definitely not.

So what is it that made me love and cling to him this much?

Well, he’s irritating, loud, and he’s not sweet! He’s weird, he smokes, he drinks, he goes clubbing on a weekday, and he fights and bullies a lot. Take note, A LOT. He is very moody and a bit blunt. Oh yeah, he even threatened to kill me. -- for short, HE IS A GANGSTER.

NO he’s not a criminal,  a mobster, a hoodlum or a thug. I have my own definition of a gangster you know..

I kind of pushed all of his bad traits. OK FINE. I’m sorry.

He’s nice (at times), he lets me feel that I’m extra special (kinda), he protects his friends (true), gives freebies (true) WELL HE IS RICH YOU KNOW! And he’s smart.. in a way. I mean in his own little way. 

Well, let me clear this, It’s not LOVED coz I STILL LOVE him. And yes, he threatened to KILL ME.

So let me start the story now. It was a very sunny afternoon and very boring too. I was logging on to my MSN account checking if my brother Nichkhun is on.

Well to my surprise, someone IMed me, and it wasn’t my brother.

I am Sushi says: Bee, in the same old place. Ok?

Who the heck is I am Sushi? I have added him loooong time ago but we don’t chat. I don’t even see him on.

Princess Su says: uhh.. who’s this?
I am Sushi says: Why are you like that!?

What the heck did I do?? What’s wrong with asking him who he is?!

Princess Su says: seriously, I don’t know you.
I am Sushi says: it's Myungsoo!!!
Princess Athena says: OH! I don’t know anyone named Myungsoo.

I am Sushi says: I know you don’t love me anymore but please. don’t be like that. don’t act like you never knew me at all..

I’m starting to get irritated. I’m bored, alone and his screen name is making me hungry! I won’t get killed if I’ll play a little, right?

Princess Su says: So what if I’m like this? what is it to you huh? A*shole
I am Sushi says: I’m really sorry. I love you… Suzy let's make thing clear.. it’s been 4 months.. please.. I miss you badly..
Princess Su says: What if I don't want to? can you do anything? LOSER. GET LOST!
I am Sushi says: don’t say that.. I told you, I’m sorry. I know that your happy with him, but please.. meet me later.. I’ll wait for you there. Whatever it takes.

Wow. He is pathetic. And I am enjoying this game.

Princess Athena says: you wanna know something? I AM HAPPY RIGHT NOW! WITH HIM BESIDE ME. LOVING AND CARING FOR ME! SO PLEASE STOP THIS NONSENSE AND GET LOST! IM GONNA LOG OUT!

I logged out. It was kinda fun playing with that sushi guy, but I feel bad, coz he seemed serious.. oh well I don’t know him, so what.

After an hour, my BESTES-ok-no-such-word-FRIEND texted me to go to starbucks BF.

I took a shower then went to starbucks bf. There I saw her sitting, alone. WOW she’s alone!

“What’s up? Youre treat?” I asked her

“Sure, what do you want? Wait. look at that guy, he’s so cute oh wait, he’s so HOT! He's already here earlier, he looks sad and I think he’s waiting for someone..”

Cute? HOT?! WTF?! HE IS SO NOT HOT!! NOT EVEN CUTE!! I hate his hair! The color, length and the style! I hate the way he dresses. Ok fine I’m discriminating him. OMG he’s smoking! I totally do not like him. He’s not my type. There’s one way to describe him.. he definitely looks like a.... GANGSTER!

“You like him? EW.”

“No. Hello!! Just look at the other people here! There's no handsome! But his looks is really Outstanding.”

“I know. ‘Coz he looks like a ghetto.”

“Haaay. Coz you like pretty boys! Your ideal man, is like they can't even protect you from bad guys!”

Here we go again. She’s nagging me again about my ‘ideal’ guy. So what if I like pretty boys? Don’t they look adorable?

“Wait, when will we go to school? It's already August 14! Were not in schoo in 1 week! We also have 1 week in the house!”

“Ok, on 16 let's go to school. We already enroll there, so everything's ok.”

“It's hard already, why did they knew our identity. Arghh.!”

“Let them be, We already get the half our tuition.”

After our cheap thrill, we went home.

Oh yeah. I haven’t introduced myself yet 

I’m Bae Suzy, 17 years old, was born here in the Philippines, stayed here for 2 years then went to Korea. I grew up in Korea, I lived there for almost 10 years. I stayed in the States with Jiyeon for 3 years then went back to Korea just to ask our parents' permission to allow us live in the Philippines. I’m a pure Filipino. I have a 20 y/o half-brother his name is Nichkhun. He’s half-Filipino half-Korean. We can both speak Tagalog. My dad told me that my mom died because of a heart failure or something like that. Oh well. My step mom treated me well. She’s like a real mom to me. She loves me more than Nichkhun oppa! ^____^

Jiyeon is my best friend. She’s a 50% Filipino, 25% Korean and 25% Japanese, am I right? I in math. Sorry. Her mom and my dad were best friends since pre-school. Basically they’re like us, me and Jiyeon.

So now, we transferred to another school because of 5 reasons:

FIRST that school
SECOND we got bored
THIRD too many sl*ts
FOURTH they found out about our secret
FIFTH I think I’ve said it all, so I’m going to cancel the fifth one.


Again, I logged on to my MSN. Sushi boy is online. I’m feeling guilty of what I did earlier..

I was about to IM him when

I am Sushi says: I waited for you.. I waited there for 5 hours.. but you didn't came.. is there something happened? What's youre problem and why you didn't came??
Princess Su says: Did I say that I would come?! What's your problem? Please stop, youre disturbing me!
I am Sushi says: Meet me first, tomorrow? Please? 3pm ok?
Princess Su says: I DON'T CARE! BYE!

Then again, I logged out.

I took a shower and went back to my room.

*bzzzt*