Its our 4th year anniversary. I still cant believe that we will make our relationship this far but we made it and I am glad though its hard at some times but that doesn’t matter as long as Iwill be able to hold him, kiss him and as long as I can hear him say those three words.

I really hope that he would be happy about my surprise tonight

I went up to his apartment and open it with the spare key he gave me. Its dark inside, maybe hes in his room, I tiptoed my way to there and was about to surprise him but what I saw didn’t only surprise me but left me breathless and broken..

He is in there, in his bed with a girl making out…I stood there cant believe what im seeing, I dont know for how long the next minute then I saw the girl with him, its my bestfriend…

Chaerin-ah! I said out loud without meaning to

They stop their deed and look at me with wide eyes, 

Her is in schock

Him is surprise….

“Dara-yah ” he called my name and stood up from the bed and make his way towards  me

“Why? How dare you both do this to me? Am I not enough? What else do you want from me? How could you do this to me, how could you” I shouted at him, tears flowing freely

He was just looking at me, with regret in his eyes

Mianhe, baby, I don’t know what happen, please listen to me, I love you

“you do? Really? Then what the hell is this? it jiyong, you know how much I love you, you know that I will do anything for you right?.... I will do anything you ask me for?...But why?” I told him while crying and with a pained voice I added

“You just could ask me to die, if you don’t want me anymore, you don’t have to this because I can’t take this, I can’t bear this pain jiyong! How could you, just kill me! JUST please kill me”

Unnie...

No don’t call me that you , I love you, you are my bestfriend, of all the people you are the one who knows the most how much I love him, then why did you do this? Did I hurt you? Did I do anything bad to you? If I did you could have just told me chaerin-yah, , I will give anything for you to forgive me, I will pay you but not this…not this… “ I told her then run away from that place, run away from the people I love the most but the same people who hurt me. I can hear them calling my name, running after me...

I run, run, and run until I trip into something, I didn’t even realize that it’s raining already, here I am soak, crying and broken.

Oh God, please help me, please let this pain go away, please just let me die right now, I can’t take this…

What did I do to deserve this? 

Am I not a good friend?

Am I not a good girlfriend?

Am I not enough?

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 my life was perfect

I was successful

I had a boyfriend

And I was happy

But all of it is all in the past…WAS

Now

My life is in shamble

I am broken 

He breaks my heart into pieces when he decided to cheat on me with my best friend