Bom's POV:

 

//What's going on with him? Where is he?And Boss?//

So many thoughts about him in my head.

I haven't see him 35 days long.

Also I have asked the others about him, but they don't know as well.

 

„Bommiee~ unnie~, what's up? What about you thinking?“ CL asks me.

I look at her.

„It's nothing.“ I answer and looking on the floor.

„Ya! I know there is something, that makes you sad and anxouis. So answer my question right!“ CL said angry.

„Uhm..., I think about him again.“ I said calm.

„Oh~, not again! Please give up to search about him, Big Bang gives also up. Jiyoung search a little bit, but not so much like the other days. So when he have time he comes back.“ CL said with her teacher voice.

„But... I miss him and I can't give up.“

„We all miss him, but we give up to search about him.“ CL said.

Dara jumps beside me and screams: „She didn't miss him, like we miss him, CAUSE SHE LOVES HIM!“ and smiling bright at me and CL.

 

„No i don't love him!“ I said to her and CL, but they are grinning at me.

„Oh, man Ok, I fall in love with him...“

„So how long did you love him?“ CL asks

„I don't know... I think when we first met and see each other....“

„Oh, Wow so long? And what's about him? Did he loves you?“

„No I don't think so.... he never say something like that.“ I said and looking at CL and Dara.

„Hmm..., but please don't think so much about him. When he have time he comes back... so please give up on him.“ CL and Dara said.

„Ok.... I try it.“ I said.

 

// But I can't forget him! I can't be without him!//

 

„I go up stairs, to sleep.... bye.“ I said to Dara and CL.

Then I stand up and go to my bedroom.

The first minutes in my bed, I can't sleep, but some seconds later I fall asleep.

 

~ ~ ~ ~

 

middle in the night I woke up.

I saw a person towards me, standing against the wall.

Than I realized, that I know the person which stands against the wall and staring at me.

My heart starts to beat faster

It was Youngbae.

I don't know how to react, so I didn't move.

But after some minutes I can't stand still, so I move.

I go out of my bed and going slowly towards him.

 

//Something is other about him...//

 

He didn't move a centimeter, just looking only at me.

When I arrived at him, he hold an hand out.

 

„Don't come close to me.“ he said with a dark and cold voice.

I go some step backwards, because of his cold voice.

„Why?“ I asked back

„It's better for you.“

Some seconds it was silent.

Then I break the silent.

„Why aren't you so long here? All members were searching for you. Where did you go?“

„I had something to do. I can't say where I was and it doesn't matter.“

„But I want to know where you are!“

„Why do you want to know that?“ he said cold.

„Because.....cause....cause I don't have to worry about you and know where you are....“

„But I don't tell, because It's to dangerous for you.“

„Nothing is to dangerous for me. Please let me know.“

„No you don't understand It! I am to dangerous for you! Don't ask again.“

„But...“

„No! I'll never tell you.... I have to go now.“

 

Before I can grasp his Hand he jumps out of the opened window.

I look out of the window, but I can't see him.

 

„Please don't leave me! Come back again... I miss you so much...“ I whispered out the window.

After some seconds I felt tears over my cheeks, I wipe them away, but when more and more teardrops come out, I let it flow.

 

I don't know how long I sit there and crying but somehow I fall asleep.

 

~ ~ ~ ~

 

When I woke up in the morning I laid in my bed.

 

// Why am I lying in my bed? But yesterday I'm asleep under the window. Did somebody carry me in my bed?//

 

I stand up and going to the opened window.

Nobody was out there.

 

Then I go out my bedroom to the kitchen.

Dara was already there and making her breakfast.

„good morning Bommie~“ she said and smiling at me.

I nod at her and starting to make my breakfast.

When I eat my breakfast Dara and CL join me and talking with me.

But I don't speak so much this morning.

 

„Bommie~ say something! What's going on with you? Don't think about him!“ Dara says

„But... I know it's sounds a little bit crazy, but I really did!“

 

„What is it?“ CL and Dara asks

„I saw him. He was in my room and staring at me!“

Dara and CL look at each other.

„Did he say something?“ they ask

„Yes, we talked. He said he had something to do, for so long. And when I ask him about where he was he don't want to answer. He said it's to dangerous for me. And when I want to speak about it, he leaves me and jumps out of my window.“

Dara and CL staring at me.

 

„Oh and when I fell asleep under my window, somebody carry me in my bed. Did somebody from you carry me in my bed?“ I asks.

„No.“ both replied at the same time.

„Hmm... that's strange....“ I said and eating my breakfast.

 

„Yes, you're right, and do you really see and talk to him last night?“

„You don't belive me, aren't you? But yes I really saw and talked with him last night!“

„But why did he go in your bedroom and staring at you?“

„I don't know....“ I replied

 

Some seconds later I had finished eating my breakfast.

I stand up and going to the bathroom.

After the shower I get back at the other three girls.

They looking at me, so I join them.

 

„Bom, do you want tell somebody of Big Bang? So that they know about him?“ CL asked.

„Sure, I'll tell Jiyoung.“ I said and going to my bedroom.

In my room I call him and he was happy about it to know about this.

 

So today we had a lot of stuff to do, like making sports, learn new choreographies and so on.

I came back at home at 11 p.m. And I get fast in the shower.

After that I go into my bedroom and lying in my bed.

Then I thinking about him again and my heart begins to ache.

Because I miss him so much, and that he didn't want to say where he is.

I want to know it so much, I need him in my side. I didn't noticed that I am starting crying, I felt tears over my cheeks. I wipe them away, and trying not to think about him.

But this didn't help, because my thoughts went everytime to him.

 

I can't fall asleep.

 

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

 

Youngbae's POV:

 

35 days has gone like I see the others, my best friends and the other out YG Family.

I miss them so much, but I have BOSS by my side, he's always here and watching me.

But this night I must go there and look for the others.

 

First I visited Jiyoung.

He is falling asleep. I took the blanket and put it over him softly.

The others of Big Bang where also asleep.

So I don't know what to do.

Some minutes has past but after that I go to Bom.

 

 

I miss her really much and that's the reason why I left for so long.

I can't resist her.

Her soft and warmth skin and her sweet scent was an inviting for me.

I can hear every heartbeat from her heart.

 

Without noticing I get closer to her, but when I notice that I pressed me against the wall.

I staring at her, because of concentrate not to come closer to her and not to hurt her.

When I see she wakes up, she looks in my direction.

She needs sometime to realize, that I am standing here and watching her.

When I hear her heart that beats faster than normaly, I felt my hunger.

So I pressed me harder against the wall.

She didn't move a centimeter only looking at me, but some time later she gets out her bed and coming slowly closer to me.

 

When she was closer enough for me, I held an hand out.

„Don't come close to me.“ I said.

She go some steps backwards.

// Is she afraid of me? Or didn't I sound normaly then ever?//

„Why?“ I heard her asking back

„It's better for you.“

Some seconds we didn't talk.

Then Bom breaks the silent.

„Why aren't you so long here? All members were searching for you. Where did you go?“

„I had something to do. I can't say where I was and it doesn't matter.“

„But I want to know where you are!“

„Why do you wan't to know that?“ I said.

„Because.....cause....cause I don't have to worry about you and know where you are....“

//And you would visiting me there.....//

„But I don't tell, because It's to dangerous for you.“

„Nothing is to dangerous for me. Please let me know.“

//But I am the dangerous thing in the world, and I didn't want to hurt you//

„No you don't understand It! I am to dangerous for you! Don't ask again.“

„But...“

„No! I'll never tell you.... I have to go now.“

 

// I am so sorry to say that to you, I don't want to go and let you alone, but it's better for you...//

 

It's hurts so much to tell her that and to leave her again alone.

I know she would try to grasp my hand but I was faster, so I jumped out of her window.

 

In some distance I see her looking out of her window.

„Please don't leave me! Come back again... I miss you so much...“ She whispered out the window, but I can hear it.

Some time later I saw, that she wipes away something from her cheeks.

//She cries.... Oh no, please don't cry....//

I waited so long how I think she have fallen asleep.

 

Then I go back to her.

She was lying against the window and on the floor.

I can see some teardrops over her cheeks.

First I didn't know what to do, but then I take her on my arms and carry her in her bed.

After that I put a blanket over her.

Everytime I get closer to her it makes it better, but I must controll myself.

So I steattled down beside her on the edge of her bed.

She has still teardrops over her cheeks, so I kissed them softly away.

Then I must leave her, my heart aches when I go out her bedroom.

 

When I was in my house, were I live 35 days, I lying on my bed and trying to get some sleep.

That didn't cost so much time, because I fell fast asleep.

 

When I wake up it was already 10pm.

I get out of my bed and drink something, then I go into the bathroom, to take a shower and brushing my teeth.

After that I take on new clothes and went outside.

Looking for Bom.

 

When I arrived I went silent inside her room.

She was lying on her bed, and I think I was seeing that she cries again.

I can't see her face and she didn't can't see me, because she lying with the back to me.

When I heard some sobs, I was really sure that she is crying.

 

//I can't stand here anymore, she needs me.....she needs me know and forever.... and I need her too//

I was realizing and I go closer to her bedside.

When I was in front of her back, I lay down on her bed beside her.

 

I pulled her in my arms and pressed her soft against my chest.

She was so confused that she for some seconds stopping to cry.

But when she realize that I am the one how pulled her into my arms, she starts again crying and pressed herself against myself.

I begin to caress her back, so that she can calm down alittle bit.

And she does.

 

She finally stopped to cry and to make a sound, that I was really worried about her.

„Hey~“ I said softly and with a lower voice.

She didn't say a word to me but she moves her hands to my chest.

 

„Bom, I'm sorry for all the words that I have said to you, and for the long waiting for me.

You was so long alone, I'm so sorry....Bom~ look at me.“ I said to her.

She slowly moves her head, than she looks at me shy.

I take her head into my hands and looking her strait into the eyes.

 

„I am really sorry, but I am dangerous for you and all the other people beside me, but I really love you so I try hard to be by your side and protect you everytime.“ I said softly to her.

She nods slowly and look at me.

 

„Why are you so dangerous, whats the mistery?“ she asks quiet, but I can understand.

I let go of her face and take one hand in my hand.

Than I take one finger from her hand and lead him to my tooth.

She takes away her finger.

 

„This is why I didn't come back for 35 days, I don't want you to get hurt.“

„But why didn't you tell me? I can help you... I missed you so much....why didn't you call or writing a letter so that I know about this...“ she says with a husky voice.

 

„I can't told you about this at the time, like I said It was to dangerous for everyone. I'm sorry about that... I didn't have leave something for you, but it was also hard for me not to be by your side.“

I said to her and kissed her softly.

 

„I love you, and please don't do that again.“ she said to me.

„I will never do that again, like I said I will always protect you, because I love you more than everything else in the world.“

When she heard that she begins to smile.

~ End ~