there are a lot of things joy wishes she hadn't seen,

all of them would probably be from seeing her lover in the hands of someone else.

she thinks of promises, unfulfilled and broken.

there's this envy and resentment she harbors, to wendy and her current lover.

how her 'new lover' is so attentive, so caring, and oh so sweet.
how she's not the one gets to make her laugh, to hear her cries and see her smiles, 

and a bit of her heart breaks everytime its not her.

how could it be her, when wendy can't even see her? 

yet seeing her living, being free and happy, joy still selfishly wishes she hadn't moved on.

she's so stupid and naive for thinking her love would carry beyond the grave.