everytime i see you, i feel calm. 

 

everytime i look into your eyes, i feel calm.

 

everytime i hug you, i feel calm. 

 

everytime i smile at you, i feel calm.

 

everytime i close my eyes and think about you, i feel calm.

 

everytime i miss you, i feel calm,

 

but when you suddenly cupped my cheeks and pulled me into a kiss, that made me go crazy.

 

i wanted to feel calm but i couldn't, that kiss lingers in my mind.

 

everytime i see you, i feel crazy. 

 

everytime i look into your eyes, i want you to only look at me.

 

everytime i hug you, i want you to only hug me, nobody else. 

 

everytime i smile at you, i want my smile to be always because of you.

 

everytime i close my eyes and think about you, i imagine things i shouldn't.

 

everytime i miss you, i want to be with you.

 

that kiss, it doesn't leave my mind. i felt like i want to do it again. 

 

we weren't awkward about it,

 

but deep inside i was.

 

i wanted to kiss you again,

 

your soft plump lips that tasted like cherries,

 

oh how i want those to be mine only.

 

eunji, why do you make me feel things like this?

 

we're best friends since high school,

 

we're in our senior in college,

 

why did you do that?

 

i wanted to ask her that in person but i can't,

 

i'm scared that i might lose you.

 

your smile makes me feel butterflies in my stomach,

 

your stare makes me go weak,

 

your hug makes me want to do more than that.

 

that kiss, i wanted to forget about it and start anew with you,

 

but i can't, that will be forever in my mind.

 

i always think of you now.

 

-

 

it's our graduation today,

 

our parents will be going to our graduations since we both had different courses to start with. 

 

"chorong-ah! i'm glad you're still alive after that hell finals last month!" 

 

your mother said that and i just faked a smile. 

 

your mother looks a lot like you,

 

because of that, i thought about the kiss again.

 

"rong! calm down, it's your graduation. don't think of that, even just for a day."

 

i said to myself and i did,

 

i did forget it for some time.

 

but when i saw you walking to the stage when it's time for your graduation,

 

it replayed again in my mind.

 

"i should really confess to her."

 

no, i shouldn't. 

 

it's going to be awkward for the both of us.

 

i need to calm myself down. 

 

i need to be calm,

 

just like how calm i was before that kiss.

 

"yeah, i should act like what i was before that."

 

"what before that rong?"

 

omfg, i said it outloud. 

 

"it's nothing meung, don't mind me."

 

"rong, we promised each other right?"

 

"that we would not keep a secret."

 

"i know,"

 

"it's embarrassing."

 

"it's fine rong, just tell me what it is and i'll lessen that embarrassing feeling you have okay?"

 

okay, she said it herself.

 

it's now or never.

 

i pulled her into a kiss,

 

she was flustered at first but i didn't care,

 

she responded after a few seconds,

 

and that's how my calm heart became crazy for eunji.

 

it's all because of a kiss.