N woke up at the sound of his alarm, he lazily reached for his phone and turned it off. It was 5:00 in the morning, he was tired but he needed to wake up earlier than the members so he can avoid all the chaos of who's going to take the shower first.

    He went to the bathroom and he looked at his face in the mirror, he studied every inch  of his face and he was sad, his eyes are swollen from crying last night and the bags underneath his eyes are so dark, he's pretty sure will notice it later, and it will just make them worry about him more, so he needs to do something about it, but he was too tired to care.

"Geez, I'm gonna get myself in trouble because of this!!" He said with a sigh.

    He took off his shirt stared at his half body in the mirror  he realized he was getting skinnier and he doesn't care anymore. He continued undressing himself and took a shower, Relief .. That is what he's feeling as the hot sensation of the water brings as it ran through his body giving him comfort, it burns but it felt safe that he didn't want to let go at all.

    After taking a shower, he took a black jeans and a plain white shirt from his cabinet and wore it, He was thankful that the shirt wasn't so big that it can hide his skinny figure and so does the jeans,

    He looked at his phone and saw the time, 6:30, 30 minutes left before he wakes up s when he remembered that he needs to do something for his eyes, so decided to get some ice cubes in the kitchen, he was suprise to see his manger in the kitchen drinking coffee, it's quite unusual for him to be up so early. he remembered his eyes are swollen and  so he didn't want it to be obvious so he tried to act normal.

"Ah hyung why so early? have you eaten something to wake you up so early?" He jokingly asked
"Nothing, I just couldn't get back to sleep so i decided to just get off my bed" His manager replied
"Ah, likewise" he said as he headed to the fridge to get some ice cubes. It became silent and the atmosphere suddenly became awkward and he doesn't know why. he was about to get out from kitchen the until his manager cuts him off.

"What's with the ice cubes?"His manager asked
"Uhm, this?" he was caught off guard, luckily he was fast enough to think of an excuse
"I hit my foot on the table when I was changing my clothes" he continued

    His manager was confused to see that his foot wasn't swollen so why does he need the ice cubes.

"You know, you don't really have to do it?" His manager suddenly blurted out and he was confused
"do what? the ice cubes? they told me it's the best remedy to--" he answered when his manager cuts him off again
"No hakyeon, this, waking them u