she knew she shouldn't have lied.

she should've just went with them.

she could have went through the day, putting on a fake smile, with them.

she should've gone with them to see her happy.

but then again, she couldn't.

she couldn't stand seeing her behave lovingly towards someone else.

she couldn't stand hearing all the sweet words exchanged.

she also couldn't stand falling in love with her all over again, if that was even possible.

moreover, she couldn't stand feeling her own heart break again, wishing that it was her instead of him.

maybe she should've just said no when nayeon asked to invite him along.

heck, maybe she should've just told nayeon her true feelings back in high school. maybe then, her wish would've come true. mina tells herself this every. single. time but she's always too big of a coward to do anything.

clouded by her own thoughts, mina just decided to stay at home, consoled by the warmth of her bed and slept her troubles away. she was never one to confront. instead, she just ran away, from her responsibilities, her problems and reality.

the plan (unfortunately, or maybe fortunately) backfired because nayeon decided to take care of mina when the latter told her of her cold, which didn't even infect her in the first place. mina rarely fell sick so nayeon cancelled her special plans to check up on her best friend.

it was in high school when mina realized her feelings for nayeon, and apparently so did the rest of the school population. mina thought it was just a mere crush at first and that she'd get over it with time.

oh boy, was she wrong.

mina only fell deeper, especially when nayeon told her about all her love problems and how it hurt mina to see nayeon being in pain like this. it was like falling into a deep dark hole with no chance of escaping. because she knows nayeon will never love her back the same way. she would try crawling her way up, distracting herself with something, anything. but at the end of the day when she sees nayeon smile that smile, eyes curved and gums revealed, she would always fall back to the bottom of the pit. mina has always been a shy one and expressing her thoughts and feelings would always pose as a challenge. knowing her feelings for nayeon go past what a friend should feel, mina has never seen confessing as an answer; their friendship would be gone and mina would rather have nayeon as a friend than not having her in her life at all. sometimes she'd wish that they were never best friends to