You wanna know a secret? Ok ok..

He’s not my first love and I’m NOT his first love. Definitely not.

So what is it that made me love and cling to him this much?

Well, he’s irritating, loud, and he’s not sweet! He’s weird, he smokes, he drinks, he goes clubbing on a weekday, and he fights and bullies a lot. Take note, A LOT. He is very moody and a bit blunt. Oh yeah, he even threatened to kill me. -- for short, HE IS A GANGSTER.

NO he’s not a criminal,  a mobster, a hoodlum or a thug. I have my own definition of a gangster you know..

I kind of pushed all of his bad traits. OK FINE. I’m sorry.

He’s nice (at times), he lets me feel that I’m extra special (kinda), he protects his friends (true), gives freebies (true) WELL HE IS RICH YOU KNOW! And he’s smart.. in a way. I mean in his own little way. 

Well, let me clear this, It’s not LOVED coz I STILL LOVE him. And yes, he threatened to KILL ME.

So let me start the story now. It was a very sunny afternoon and very boring too. I was logging on to my MSN account checking if my brother Nathan is on.

Well to my surprise, someone IMed me, and it wasn’t my brother.

I am Sushi says: Bee, in the same place ok?

Who the heck is I am Sushi? I have added him loooong time ago but we don’t chat. I don’t even see him on.

Princess Athena says: uhh.. who’s this?
I am Sushi says: Yah! Why are you like this?

Why are you like this? What the heck did I do?? What’s wrong with asking him who he is?!

Princess Athena says: seriously, I don’t know you.
I am Sushi says: This is Myungsoo !!!
Princess Athena says: OH! I don’t know anyone named Myungsoo.

I am Sushi says:I know you don’t love me anymore but please. Don’t be like that. Don’t act like you never knew me at all.

I’m starting to get irritated. I’m bored, alone and his screen name is making me hungry! I won’t get killed if I’ll play a little, right?

Princess Athena says: So what if I’m like this? what is it to you huh? A*shole
I am Sushi says: I’m really sorry. I love you… Athena, lets fix this. It’s been 4 months.. Please.. I miss you badly..
Princess Athena says: What if I don’t want to? Is there anything you can do? LOSER. GET LOST!
I am Sushi says: don’t say that.. I told you, I’m sorry. I know you’re happy with him now but please.. Meet me later.. I’ll wait for you there. Whatever it takes.

Wow. He is pathetic. And I am enjoying this game.

Princess Athena says: you wanna know something? I AM HAPPY RIGHT NOW! WITH HIM BESIDE ME. LOVING AND CARING FOR ME! SO PLEASE STOP THIS NONSENSE AND GET LOST! IM GONNA LOG OUT NOW!

I logged out. It was kinda fun playing with that sushi guy, but I feel bad, coz he seemed serious.. oh well I don’t know him, so what.

After an hour, my BESTES-ok-no-such-word-FRIEND texted me to go to Starbucks BF.

[A/N: BF is a place]

I took a shower then went to starbucks BF. There I saw her sitting, alone. WOW she’s alone!

“What’s up? Do you owe me?”I asked her

“Sure, what do you want? OH wait. Look at that guy, he’s so cute oh wait, he’s so HOT! He looks sad and I think he’s waiting for someone..”She said

Cute? HOT?! WTF?! HE IS SO NOT HOT!! NOT EVEN CUTE!! I hate his hair! The color, length and the style! I hate the way he dresses. Ok fine I’m discriminating him. OMG he’s smoking! I totally do not like him. He’s not my type. There’s one way to describe him.. He definitely looks like a.... GANGSTER!

“Do you like him? Eww.” I said

“Its not like that, Ughh I mean the word ‘Like’ . Hello!! Look at the other people here! There’no handsome here! His face is outstanding.” She said

“I know. ‘Coz he looks like a ghetto.” I said

”Aish! Because you only like pretty boys. You’re ideal type is the one who can’t protect you from other people.” She said

Here we go again. She’s nagging me again about my ‘ideal’ guy. So what if I like pretty boys? Don’t they look adorable?

“Whatever. By the way, when are we going to school? It’s already August 14! We didn’t attend classes, 1 week already!” I said
“Ok. On August 16, lets go to school. We already enrolled right? So that means its ok.” She said


After our cheap thrill, we went home.

Oh yeah. I haven’t introduced myself yet 

I’m Athena Dizon, 17 years old, was born in the Philippines, stayed here for 2 years then went to Korea. I grew up in Korea, I lived there for almost 10 years. I stayed in the States with Sara for 3 years then went back to Koreajust to ask our parents permission to allow us live in the Philippines. I’m a pure Filipino. I have a 20 y/o half-brother his name is Sang Min but his English name is Nathan. He’s half-Filipino half-Korean. We can both speak Tagalog. My dad told me that my mom died because of a heart failure or something like that. Oh well. My step mom treated me well. She’s like a real mom to me. She loves me more than Nathan oppa! ^____^

Sara Jung is my best friend. She’s a 50% Filipino, 25% Korean and 25% Japanese, am I right? I in math. Sorry. Her mom and my dad were best friends since pre-school. Basically they’re like us, me and Sara.

So now, we transferred to another school because of 5 reasons:

FIRST that school
SECOND we got bored
THIRD too many sl*uts
FOURTH they found out about our secret
FIFTH I think I’ve said it all, so I’m going to cancel the fift one .


Again, I logged on to my MSN. Sushi boy is online. I’m feeling guilty of what I did earlier..

I was about to IM him when

I am Sushi says: I waited for you.. I waited there for 5 hours..but you didn’t came..What happened? Whats your problem??
Princess Athena says: Did I say wait for me?!What your problem huh? Stop it.
I am Sushi says: Meet me tomorrow? Please? 3pmok?
Princess Athena says: WHATEVER! BYE!

Then again, I logged out.

I took a shower and went back to my room.