I hate it when they do this to me. I can’t handle it anymore. I don’t know why they do it all to me. Why do they always throw every piece of they have on me? Why me? Why now? Why every day?  They don’t understand. They will never understand. Why do they ask me to go away when it’s the times I need them the most? When I really need their support, need to talk to them. How can they ask me to go away when they know what will happen? I don’t know what to do anymore, who to trust? Who to talk with? I have no one I can let everything out to, no one that knows me like they think they do. I deceive people, I hide my true self. I’m conceited and I deceive people in to think I am someone I can never be. They will never understand anyways, so why bother telling them? Why bother with trying to explain something that they will never get? Why show them my true self? That will just make them step away from me more than they already do. It’s not worth it, at all. And it will never be. I hate the fact that I have to hind behind a mask. But that’s just how it will be.