"if we weren't such good friends I think that I'd hate you,

if we weren't such good friends I'd wish you were dead"

"oh it's so embarrassing,

I'm this awkward and uncomfortable thing,

and I'm running out of place to hide in..."

"love tears through me like a demon,

weapons to wounds and then fills them with lead

and I'm having some trouble just breathing"

"skillet on the stove is such a temptation,

maybe I'll be the lucky one who doesn't get burned,

what the was I thinking?"

~Jenny Owens Young https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=37Zn3cjNu58

-I got inspired.  The first part especially sounds a lot like Yongsun's perspective.  Anyways it seemed people weren't getting it so 

A) Solar is gay

B) Moonbyul is straight

C) Solar is in love with MB bc she's so affectionate and flirty, but it doesn't mean anything.  

D) Solar basically can't have any girl because she doesn't "look" gay.

E) the irony hurts.

the alphabet of pain describing being a somewhat feminine lesbian.  can't have it either way.  your friends are straight but you keep falling for them, and no actual gay girls flirt with you because they don't know you're gay.  tbh I hate that all the gays in the fandom flock towards moonbyul.  this isn't to assume any of the members' ualities, but like... just bc Solar is girly she's not gay?  so anyways, if she actually was gay, I figured her life would probably be a little tragic.  so here's this series ^__^  hope you enjoy being in pain