Jongin woke up to the sound of waves.
He tried to reach for someone who was supposed to stay beside him when he woke up.
Instead he felt the empty sheet.
Panic rose inside him.
Where is he?
He tried to find him all over the rooms in the beach house, but there was no sign of him.
suddenly, he remembered something
I want to see the sunrise...before....
No. No. Dont. Please.
Jongin opened the door harshly to get out of the house.
He ran along the shore ignoring the beautiful scenery surround him.
Because, everything wouldnt be beautiful if he wasnt with me
He should find him.
No. I need to find him.
Jongin slowed down, because he finally spotted the one he tried to find.
He was sitting on the edge of the deck.
Feet dangling, swinging back and forth, creating small splash of water.
Jongin could almost see his smile.
Jongin took a deep breath.
Put on his smile.
Walking slowly along the deck, nearing him.
Isnt it pretty, jongin?
He turned around.
Showing his beautiful smile.
The smile that could make jongin weak on his knees.
The smile that could make jongin's heart beating like crazy.
His white and too big shirt, only compliment his beauty.
Jongin couldnt mutter an answer, too mesmerized by his smile.
Jongin only nodded.
Jonginah, why are you standing there? Come here. He patted the space beside him.
Arent you tired? You sweat bullets. Must be because your "morning run", huh?
He chuckled.
Jongin didnt say anything but moved slowly nearing him to sit beside him.
They sat in silent.
Then he held jongin hand. Jongin intertwined their fingers. Jongin traced his thumb over those bony fingers.
I have been dying to see the sunrise on the beach.
Dying. Just how much Jongin hated that word.
It is so beautiful, jonginah. The sunrise reminds me that i got to wake up to start another day.
Please, stop. Lets just talk about something else...
Why? Isnt it the truth? Should i be grateful that i got to wake up and see the sunrise?
There is the possibility that i will not see the sunrise tomorrow. So why should....
Jongin let go of their intertwined fingers.
STOP. WILL YOU!!!!!
Jongin knew he was taken aback by his outburst. But he wouldnt stop.
NO, HYUNG! You have seen the sunrise and you will see them everyday until we get old, with me. So please stop talking like you will not see sunrise tomorrow. Dont talk like you will leave me tomorrow. Why do you want to leave? Are you that selfish? Do you only think about yourself?  Then, What about your parents? What about me?  Why dont you think about us? How will we feel if you leave?
Jongin couldnt hold back his tears anymore. He let them flow.
He took jongin hand back in his.
Jongin couldnt hold back, he hugged him tightly. Sobbing harder.
He wanted to embrace him forever. Shield him from anything that could separate them.
After a while, Jongin felt he hug him back. Only weakly....
That broke jongin heart even more.
Hyung....
Jonginah.... He paused
Jonginah. Im sorry. I dont want to leave. It is just hard. It is hard seeing everyone is sad because of me. I want to stay. Believe me. But.... I dont want to be burden. Everything they have done hasnt work out. Im not getting better, jonginah. Im tired...
He finally broke down.
Shush shush, hyung. You will get better.
You will be here. You wont go anywhere.
Jongin hugged him even tighter.
But, Jongin couldnt feel him hugging back.
Instead jongin felt he let Jongin go from his weak hug. 
Something dropped. Rolled over the deck.
Empty sleeping pills bottle.
God. NO. Dont.
Jongin felt he had gone limp in his hug. He couldnt felt his heart beat against his chest.
NO! God. He wont ever do this.