His eyes, his lips, he loved everything. Every single bit of him.

" Jungkook-ah...", he murmured softly and smiled as they lifted their hands and intertwined their fingers. He felt so good with him in their bed just laying as if they were alone in their own world. He wanted to freeze time and rest like this forever. He closed his eyes and hold his lover tight.

" You know I love you right ? ", he whispered to his ear. He breathed in his scent and though that he couldn't live without it. He felt so at ease, he could just drift in sleep right now but he had to resist. He had to because he wanted to enjoy every precious moment with him.

" I couldn't live without you, you know that right ? "

Jungkook was playing with his hair as Jimin shifted his head to put it on the other one's chest. He could hear his heartbeat. The heart for which he lived. If it wasn't for him, he didn't know why he was alive. He already had lost everything. His life was a nightmare until he met an angel. Until he met Jungkook who appeared like a savior. Jimin's new goal was to make him happy. He wanted to live happily ever after as in fairy tales. He wanted to build their own fairy tale.  

" So where are we going this summer ? ". Jungkook's voice resonated softly in the room. Jimin loved it, he loved when he acted as a child with a cute little voice when he wanted Jimin to buy him something, he loved when his annoyed tone when Jimin was too clingy, he loved his giggles and he loved when his voice whispered him sweet things at night. He loved Jungkook's everything. And one day he hoped this same voice would say "Yes." and they'll be united forever.

" To a small town near the sea. I know you're bored that we never go out so I though that it'll be nice. ", Jimin answered. " Didn't you say you had a project to work on ? ", asked the younger frowning his eyebrows. " Yeah but at least you can go to the beach while I'm on it and I can go with you during breaks. ". Jungkook nodded and yawned. They slowly fell asleep, hugging eachother tightly as if they were afraid to fall apart if they let go. 

*

The sea air felt so good. It was refreshing and Jimin lifted his hands as a victory. Jungkook followed him and laughed. They're finally here. They loved the sea so much that it immediatly brought a huge smile on their faces. " Jungkookie let's go swim ! ". Jimin grabbed his wrist as they ran towards the waves. The water was really cold and Jimin started running away from it. Jungkook laughed and ran after his hyung to catch him and throw him in the water. They finally fell still laughing. Jimin smiled widely seeing his lover's smile. He lived for these precious moments. He slowly interlaced their hands and gave him a small kiss on his soft and rosy lips. " We're finally here babe. "

*

It was so hot. Maybe even too hot for Jungkook to handle. He was laying on the couch with the fan fully on. But even with the engine blowing at its full force, it still was too hot. He wanted to go to the beach but Jimin was busy on his computer. Jungkook stoop up lazily as if he had to force every muscle to move and headed towards Jimin. He stood behind him trying to understand what he was writing but quickly looked away. It was too complicated and his head was already hurting because of the heat. He hugged Jimin from behind and whined.

" Jiminiiie, when will you be done ? "

Jimin was so focused that he didn't hear nor did he felt the younger's presence. " Jiminiiie.", begged Jungkook. " Hum... ? " was everything Jimin was able to say noticing finally Jungkook's presence. Jungkook looked with an accusing stare at the computer. How dare it steal his boyfriend's attention like that. He burried his head in Jimin's neck knowing that it was his weakness and gave him a small peck. Jimin quickly shifted away giggling shyly and gently pushed him away. " What babe ? ". He finally looked up at him with his shining eyes. Jungkook tried to make the cuteste pout he ever did as he said, " I wanna go to the beeeach ! ". Jimin laughed at his cute face and cupped it giving a gentle kiss on the nose. " I can't Kookie, I have to send this today and I'm only halfway done. You can go to the beach without me. ". He finished his sentence releasing his face and turning away from Jungkook who now looked very annoyed. 

" Fine ! ", he finally said grabbing his towel and leaving. He was mad. He knew that he shouldn't be after all Jimin did already all he could to make him happy but he couldn't stop thinking that Jimin should have stopped for him. He sighed.  As similar as he and Jimin were they sometimes were definetly very different. He, being younger, wanted to have fun and not being bothered by things like work or commitment. On the other hand, Jimin was serious, he worked hard for them both and liked the idea of settling down.

Jungkook finally reached the beach. It was so windy. He dropped himseld on the sand and just sat there still thinking about before. He played with the sand when he heard someone shouting. He lifted his head and saw three guys surfing. The one in the middle was screaming as if he had won a cup or something. He had a cute boxy smile and brown hair. He was fit and Jungkook blushed realising that he was staring too hard at his abs. " They seem to have fun... ", he muttered kind of jealous. He looked down and smiled as he though that Jimin would never try surfing, he was too scared whereas Jungkook loved the idea. He was always keen of trying extreme sports. Yet another difference they had. He sighed again thinking of Jimin. Seriously couldn't he take a break ?! He got up and looked again at the surfers. He took his towel removing sand from it and went to a kind of " open beach bar " he found. He was really thirsty. He asked for a cocktail and as he got served he felt someone sitting next to him. 

" Hey ! " The guy with the boxy smile was now in front of him smiling widely like a child. He brushed his wet hair back and asked for a drink still looking at him.  " Hey...", answered Jungkook shyly not knowing if he should look away or look back.

" I saw you staring at us, do you like surfing ? "

" Well, I actually never tried but I'ld really like to... "

" Really ?! " He sipped his drink in seconds before jumping out of his seat. " You should totally  try it ! I can teach you ! By the way, I'm Taehyung the hot boy of the sea but you can call me Tae.", he said that with a little smirk and wink that made Jungkook laugh. " I'm Jungkook, nice to meet you. ", he answered with a little smile. This guy seemed funny. " Oh I see, Kookie. Oh, can I call you like that ? ". Jungkook looked a bit unsettled for a second. Only Jimin calls him like that but he finally nodded. That was for not coming with him to the beach. Taehyung nodded and grabbed his wrist pulling him towards the beach. " But and the drinks... ? ".

" Ah, I'll pay you another one later ! C'mon ! "

Jungkook followed him to the beach and he honestly could say that it was one of the best afternoons he ever had. Surfing was purely amazing and Taehyung was really funny. They had the same humor and quickly got along very well. Jungkook though that he should tell Jimin of his new surfing skills and his new friend. But then he remembered how overprotective Jimin was and that he'll surely scold him. He could already hear his voice saying : " What ? You tried surfing with a complete stranger who isn't even an expert ?! You could have got injured ! ". No Jungkook wouldn't tell him. It would be the first and last time he would lie to him. Yeah.

*

Jimin was worryingly looking at the clock. It was already 10 pm and he still wasn't back. He didn't even took his phone with him. Jimin looked down as a wave of guilt rushed through his body. He should have went with him. Only god knows where the hell he is now. If he doesn't come back at 11 pm, he'll go look for him. " If something happens... I'll never forgive myself. ", he whispered imagining the worst case of scenarios. Suddenly he hears the front door open and familiar footsteps and then Jungkook appears at the entrance with wet hair and a wide grin on. His nose and cheeks are pink.

" Oh hyung you're still up ? You should have gone to sleep already. "

" I was waiting for you. ", responded soflty Jimin all his worries drifting away.

His Kookie was finally there, he wanted to hug him, ask him where he has been, what took him so long, he wanted to apologise but something restrained him from doing so. Something was odd. Jungkook took his phone and sat next to him. Jimin was staring intensively at him. Was that it ? Not even a " How was your day? " ? They didn't saw eachother for the whole day and that's how he greets him ?

" Eh, so where have you been ? ", he nervously asked. " At the beach. ", Jungkook responded staring at his phone. " Oh really...". Jimin tried to smile but everything seemed odd. All day at the beach by himself, yeah right. That was really weird because Jungkook never lied to him. It was as if some distance had grown between them after this morning. He couldn't understand him at the moment. Why Jungkook wasn't looking at him, was he ignoring him ? Was that because of before, was he still mad ? Jimin tried to apologise but Jungkook quickly cut his monolog. " Don't worry hyung, I totally understand. By the way did you knew that there's this bar not far away who sells really good coktails ! ". Jimin's eyes widened. His Jungkook never went to a bar by himself... At this moment Jimin was completly lost. It was as if a stranger had possessed his boyfriend's body. Terrifying thoughts were crossing his mind. No it was impossible. His Kookie would never do that.

" Maybe everything will be alright after a good night of sleep.", he though to himself. 

 *

It has been days that the younger were going out by himself. Apparently he made a nice friend with who he was supposedly going to the beach. Jimin was happy at the beginning but as time passed he though that Jungkook was actually spending too much time with the other than with his actual boyfriend. One day, Jimin caught him just when he was about to leave. " Yah Kookie, where are you going again ? Can't you stay in today ? ", Jimin asked smiling widely trying to act casually. " Oh, as usual. But you have work to do, no ? Don't worry I'll try to come back early ! ", he quickly said freeing himself from his grip. He didn't even looked at Jimin. If he did he would have saw how shocked he was earing his answer. His smile dissapeared as he looked throught he window and saw some brown haired guy hugging Jungkook. His Jungkook.  Jimin couldn't hold his tears from falling down. Sooner he had decided to not work today so that they could spend time together but apparently Jungkook was already taken for the day. " It doesn't matter... it all doesn't matter anymore... ", he whispered still crying and hiding his face with his hands. His body was shacking as his cries got louder. Jimin never cries or just rarely. He usually holds it all up but this time he couldn't control anything. They were just falling uncontrollably.

*

Jungkook knows that everything has changed but it doesn't change his feelings. He still loves Jimin and Jimin knows that right ? That night he was still at the bar with Tae, they were laughing as always. Seeing Tae's smile immediatly brought one on his face. He was just so shiny and happy all the time. " Hey, do you want to come to my house tonight ? We could play some video games if you want. Only if your boyfriend is okay of course ! ". Jungkook looked at his watch, it was already pretty late but he didn't want to go home. Not yet.  " Sure ! Ah don't worry he's probably working again, he won't be against it. ". Jungkook wasn't doing anything bad, right ? Jimin knew that he loved him and only him and he was surely busy with work. And Taehyung was only a friend. Nothing wrong, right ?

It was very cosy and welcoming. He recognized Taehyung in the weird decorations he saw. " Time to play ! ", Tae shouted jumping of his couch and turning on his console.  They laughed as they battled on the playstation. Jungkook was really competitive and he had to admit that Taehyung was really good too. He didn't even saw time passing as they played then finally after long hours they fell on the floor tired as hell. Taehyung brought Jungkook closer and hugged him putting his head on his chest. Jungkook yawned and played with his soft chocolate hair. Suddenly Taehyung pulls himself up and traps Jungkook between his arms. His stare, Jungkook gets shy and looks away. " I know you know. ", he slowly whispers. His hand goes and lifts up Jungkook's chin locking their gazes together. Jungkook closes his eyes. He's afraid of what he saw in the older's eyes and of what Taehyung could have seen in his. All this thoughts are suddenly stopped when something presses itself against his lips. His mind drifts away in a haze.

*

Jimin doesn't remember how it all started. How it all went wrong. All he knows is that his eyes never felt so sore because of crying. It has become an habit for him. Crying when he was out and smiling when he was finally back. He felt like a zombie, he felt dead. It all became a nightmare after Jungkook started going out, after he found the messages and it all got worse when he didn't came back at all. Jimin was asking himself what he has done wrong to deserve this. Why everything he loved had to leave him. It was unfair. So unfair.

He was unable to work as his thoughts were all centered on one person. His precious lover who maybe wasn't his anymore. He felt like he was the one still believing in them. He was scared to look in Jungkook's eyes and see that all hope was gone. He lifts his hand remembering the feeling of him being next to him, his warmth. It was all gone. He closed his eyes as a tear rolled down on his cheek. 

When Jimin woke up, it was already 4 am. He was even more tired now. He felt worn out even though he hadn't done much. He slowly got up from the couch. With shacking legs he went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. His throat was burning him. Suddenly the door opens and he turns around halfway through the living room. His lover is back. 

Jungkook stares at Jimin with big eyes as he moves towards him and takes him in an embrace. " I haven't seen you in a while...", Jimin tries to laugh but ends up coughing because of his itchy throat. " You'll seriously be the end of me. ", he tries to joke again. Jungkook feels guilt slowly eating him. How can Jimin still love him ? How can he still act as if nothing had changed ? Jungkook doesn't deserve him. Jungkook deserves hell. He whished they didn't end up like this. He whished he didn't lied and ignored him. He knew that he'll always love Jimin because... Jimin was still his everything. " I-I didn't mean it... ", Jungkook's voice trembles as he pronounces these words but Jimin pats his head whispering "I know, I know..." in his ear. He will never have forgiveness. He can just go die in a pit because he'll never forgive himself of what he has done to Jimin. Jimin might forgive him because of his undying love for him but he could never. He disgusts himself. 

All of a sudden, Jimin takes a few steps back and Jungkook can see his bottom lip shacking. Jimin is starting to lose his mind. He saw a hickey and Jungkook's scent wasn't there. It was gone. It was replaced by another male's scent. Someone else touched his precious... Jimin bit his lip as he felt another dagger pierce his heart. How much will his heart support until he finally reaches the point of no healing ?

Jimin rushes to the door and Jungkook grabs him by the wrist as he opens the door. " Jungkook-ah... let me go... I need some fresh air... ", he mutters looking away. "But it's raining ! ", Jungkook's voice is full of worry. Jimin's not in his normal state but then he hears him say : " You know... as long as you're happy, I'm happy too. ". Jimin turns around and Jungkook sees his beautiful smile that he hasn't seen in ages and with which he felt in love with. Jimin brings himself closer to Jungkook and whispers looking deeply into his eyes.

" You know that I love you right ? You know that I couldn't live without you right ? ".

Oh yes, he knows. 

It was as if everything was back to normal. As if they were back to their old happy days. But the smile quickly vanishes and Jungkook founds himself staring at a closed door. He left. Jungkook feels himself breaking down.

Jimin looks at the sea as tears and rain roll down on his body. He doesn't feel the cold, he doesn't feel anything. Only this burning pain that became a good friend of his. He hears the thunder somewhere far away as he walks towards the sea. The cold water slides on his skin and seems to calm the burning. It feels good. He wants to drown all his misery, all his memories, all his thoughts... He looks up at the gray sky. The rain is pouring even more than before. " Jungkook-ah...", he murmurs as if someone could hear him from the distance. He tastes the sound of his name as if it was the last time he'll say it.

" You'll be the death of me."