Warning: English is not my first language. Dear Luhan, Hi. How are you? I hope you're dying right now because I'm not by your side. That's what I'm feeling. You said I'm your other half so it would be weird if i'm just the only one who is suffering. Remember the first time we met, Lu? Do you remember? You found me on the street after being bullied by the s people called students. You promised you will always be there for me. You promised you will always protect me. You said you will never let anyone hurt me. But I guess you're an exemption. Because look what you've done to me. Remember our first anniversary? You said we will be forever together. You said you will never let anyone comes between us. You said its just you and me. But i guess you already forgot what you said? Remember the time your love had started fading away? You promised me you will still fight. You promised me that even though you didn't love me anymore, you still be here with me. But i guess promises are meant to be broken. Lu, i wish i could changed anything. Maybe then you're still here with me. What happened to us? Did i not shower you with enough love? Is my cooking that bad? Did you get tired of hearing my voice everyday? Sick of seeing my face every hour? Please, I'll do anything to make you comeback. Did you realize that we were never meant to be? Why, Lu? You are the one who said that we are a match made by heaven. Lu, what happened? This alcohol I'm drinking now isn't helping. I still remember you. I still remember the memories we made together. We were happy. We were until problems started crossing our paths. I still remember the time you held my hand. I hold on even though I know that you're already drifting away from me..I hold on because I love you too much that I'm afraid I will lose myself all together without you. I thought we'd fight together. We were so happy back then. Or is it just me and you're just pretending? Its been 6 months, yet i still cry myself to sleep. No matter how drunk I am, i still can't sleep unless i cry. See what you did to me? You cause me so much pain, and i should forget about you because of that but i can't. I ...i love you too much. You taught me how to