Walking down the corridor towards my office, earbuds blasting music in my ears. But even so a voice penetrated through it all   "Xiuman!!!!"    "Ack.. Lay? Why are you so loud in the morning?" I spoke, turning around already knowing who said voice was.   "Am I? Well I can't help it, I have an amazing reason to be"   "Oh really? Well what's... The- OMG HOW ARE U STANDING? OMG"   "Took you long enough to notice. I waited until they told me you came to show you. Thanks to you in finally better, I can finally go home..."

Smiling to myself I laughed a heart-filled laugh and gave to Lay.

"Congratulations on your admittance out... You will be missed..."

Hugging me just as tight back, Lay whispered in my ear, his words errupting a blush upon my face.   And with that he walked away, away from me, and out the hospital. His words leaving a yearnig feeling in my chest. Compared to him Luhan is very playful, and energetic. While Lay is straight to the point and blunt. I couldn't help but think this over again and again and I couldn't help but come down to the same answer.

"Who said this was Goodbye..."

His heart throbbing words left me in an unwanted state. But was it really unwanted? My head said no but.. my heart said yes!

Racing out side after Lay I realized, I wasn't confused to begin with. I was holding back for Luhan. Always when I questioned myself It'd be for Luhan, Luhan, Luhan. But what is it that I want for myself??

The sunlight blinding me slightly as I exited the building, I looked up and down for him. Left and right, but he was gone from my vision, long gone...

"I should've known..."

That's right I should have known... I'm not one who can just expect to get what I want so willingly.. I'm not worthy enough for Lay. Maybe he realizes that and has moved onto better thing's.

"Yeah you should've..." I was turned around and pulled into an instant kiss. Shocked by what was happening I closed my eyes and tried pushing whoever this was away, but they would not budge. Finally opening my eyes I saw it was none other then Lay... His structure was larger then mine's and his long arms wrapped around me giving me the feel of contentment. Without realizing yet again, I allowed myself full pleasure..and Kissed h