Ever since my world have crumbled down I wasn’t able to get back up. I still see him around faintly as if my heart did not want to accept he was gone. Not now, not ever. The assessment week was coming up and I can only think of the song we both sing together to perform. 

The CEO walked in along with my brothers members. They looked shocked as they saw me I motion my index finger to my lips, not wanting them to say something in front of the other trainees 

“Jamie, please come on” I stood up leading myself to the microphone. 

“This is going to be interesting” Jungkook leaned forward impatiently as he wanted to see what type of performer I am

“It’s either good or bad” he said watching closely to me 

“What, are you singing jimin shi” said one of my brother member 

“Me.. I’m gonna sing insomnia by Wheesung” I said smiling at all four of them and Bang Si- hyuk, I grabbed the microphone tight and starting to sing my heart away. 

“Feels like insomnia X4

Going on the path towards you even though it’s lonely

love, love, love, love

No matter how many times I fall I’m going to get back up and keep going

but, but, but, but

Watching you and not getting enough sleep

I got sick, sick, sick, sick

If I can’t have your love then I can’t get better

forever, forever, forever, until i die” 

My heart exploded as I gushed all my feelings into the song hitting the high notes as I was taught, closed my eyes remembering the times I sing this song with him, my eyes gushed down with tears and it also got all the members remembering him again. I opened my eyes and see them with pain and remembrance of the time he sang this very song. 

“Wow jimin-shi, your emotions are very powerful” all of my brothers members wiped their eyes with tissues 

“Wow, I didn’t expect that at all” said suga

“Yeah me to” I said Jungkook as he looked at jimin, wondering the tears behind the song 

“Gwenchana” I mouthed to all the members and smiled as I wiped my tears wit my bare hand

“As expected, she’s good” they said to each other. 

                                           ••• 

I secretly went to their practice room 

“Oppa” I said to all four of them 

“Jamie” they all hugged me 

“Why didn’t you tell us” they said

“I didn’t want to bother you, especially things have been hard for you too” I said 

“Pabo-ya, Your his sister, we are technically brother and sister. Why would it be a bother for us to help our very own sister” I smiled and hugged them once again crying. They patted my back and bought me my favourite chocolate ice-cream 

“You really have the trait of his powerful voice”  they said

“Of course I do” I said smiling, happy to express my true feelings In front of someone I trusted. 

“If anything happen we are always here” they said with a smile 

“I know” I walked out looking left and right walking quickly as possible back to the trainee rooms. 

                                           ••• 

I breathed feeling a sense of accomplishment 

“I did well didn’t I” I said again on top of the roof top 

“Hey ugly duckling” his irritating voice ringed again my ears, I turned around

“I liked your voice” he said 

“Of course you should” I said 

“But you really poured your heart out there” he said 

“I had to” I looked at him, meeting his eyes and he looked into my soul 

“That sad look though” he said, I suddenly teared up, as if he was the only trainee that notice my pain. He walked closer and closer, his hands warm wiping my tears 

“Your really g...” jimin walked to the rooftop 

“I knew you were here” jimin said, Jungkook and jimin looked at each other and then at me. The atmosphere went quiet, but it’s not like I’m not use to that already. The silent went on as I looked at the stars above and walked down with them back to the studio. As they went to the room I looked for yerin to see how she went with her group 2 assessment after the break

                                        ••• 

“I didn’t know you were this close to Jamie” Jungkook said to jimin 

“I didn’t think you were either” said jimin 

“She just have this sad aura around her” they both said at the same time. They both laughed 

“But I just want to protect her” said jimin

“Oh.. why” said Jungkook 

“I don’t know, I just do” jimin said after a gulp of water 

“What about you” jimin said 

“I just like teasing her” he said gulping his water down also.

                                             ••• 

“Good luck with your performance, you little rat” Yerin was more nervous than ever 

“Shut your mouth” I said again barging in 

“Arghh if it isn’t little miss crybaby, just because you cried in front of the ceo and a band they think you are good” Tzuyu said rolling her eyes 

“And just because you think your pretty, doesn’t mean you own the world” I said 

“YERIN FIGHTING YOU CAN DO THIS” I said she went in with a big smile 

“Arghh please all the luck she have she wouldn’t even make it a good performance” Tzuyu arrogantly said 

“Just wait and see” yerin voice and clear and beautiful as it can get, Tzuyu eyes grew wider and wider

“See how talent she is” I said Tzuyu pushed me to the ground 

“What was that for” I angrily yelled 

“You both won’t make it, maybe you have the voice but you’ll never have the looks” she said me 

“You better shut that mouth of yours”, my brothers members came to see the commotion 

“Omg” Tzuyu put her face down 

“I can’t tolerate girls like you” they said, her tears start to form. All their hands offer me a hand to stand up.

Jungkook saw he rolled his eyes as he couldn’t stand seeing Jamie all hurt and in pain 

“Why does this ugly duckling always look like she has troubles” he walked and looked back seeing the professional singers giving her a hand

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