WC. 

Nakarating na ako sa bahay and I saw Mommycakes and Kenny at the living room. They were watching together. I was about to go upstairs but I heard Kenny asks, "Hi, Ate. San ka galing?" And when I looked at her, she has a smile on her face. 

"Dumaan ako sa Cafè ni Mommy near the school." I answered. Wala na akong energy, kailangan ko ng mag-pahinga muna. "Mommy akyat na po ako." Pag-papaalam ko kay Mommycakes. Wala si Mommybear, she's probably in her office. 

Right after I walked inside my room, I broke down. Ang dalas na mangyari ito.. I just started crying at the back of my door, on my knees, silent cries. I'm the Ate, I have to be the one that understands everything.. right? I need to give way to Kendall 'cause she's my sister.. right. 

After 30 minutes of crying, I had to wash up. Gusto ko na talagang mag-pahinga ngayon. Ang daming nangyari, pagod na pagod ang isip at katawan ko. But atleast, everything is cleared. I just have to bear with the awkwardness which I hopefully wish there's no awkwardness at all.. 

I just need to live with it, be used to it and get it over with. You can do it, Winter. Madali lang 'to, ilang buwan na lang rin naman at graduation na. 

I woke up a little too early today, my eyes felt so sore I couldn't even lift up my eyelid. Pagod na pagod sa pag-iyak pati na rin ang katawan ko. Kahit na gustuhin kong umabsent, hindi pwede. Ayokong may ma-miss na klase at lessoons dahil baka mas mahirapan ako kapag nag-exam kami. 

Sobrang lutang ko pagka-pasok ko. Hindi ko na nga napansin na naglelesson na pala itong professor namin. Sobrang wala ako sa sarili ko. Kahit na kinakausap ako nitong si Aeri na katabi ko, walang pumapasok sa isip ko. 

Although I managed to have conversations with some of my friends, wala talaga akong naiintindihan. This is the very first time I experienced this and I could say I'm not taking this too well. Everything is just so hard. 

As days goes by, hindi ko pa rin alam kung anong mararamdaman at nararamdaman ko. I'm new to this and I don't know what solution am I supposed to take or do. I don't wanna bother my friends and put them