I started my day by continuing my oh so called hospital tour. Since weeks ago I spent my day in hospital(s). After I finished my business in the hospital, I went to campus. I am no longer teaching at university. Then what did you do,J? I kinda held accidental rendezvous with my old buddies. Yeah, I also become a consultant for the senior students who have difficulty in finishing their projects, after all I sell my brain after I went out from uni and lift my status as student. 

Besides, there were members of my buddy group who had serious matter with his gf. The two are like my own siblings. They trust me as the mediator for their conflict(s). Well at first i shared jokes to them by telling "It's funny yet ironic you guys are trusting me as your mediator, you perfectly knew that I'm a single right now, that I failed on my last love relationship". At the end I ended up as their "third party who is appointed as the bridge". I patiently listened their stories and explanations. Once it finished, I felt like stabbed by sharp unseen metal (I dont know what's the other analogy).

My thought flew to my failed relationship. The girl and the boy reminded me to my last failed relationship. I felt like the boy : seemed so dense and unable to express my love. We had similar patterns : the anxiety of doing wrong steps and trapped in assumptions (the worst possibility). The anxiety led to cowardy and confusion of doing desired actions. In short, I and him were hurting our partners without we realized because we couldn't fulfill what our partner wanted. Therefore, we created dramas. The (silly) dramas were triggered by trust and jealousy issues. I adore them (the girl and the boy) who are able to fight and struggling for their relationship. That's the main difference between mine and them. From today's meeting with them I learnt important points : direct communication and understanding is important in romantic relationship everytime we have misunderstanding, don't be trapped in your own assumption(s), expressing your feeling(s) is highly needed when you are in relationship..we are humans after all, not robots. And last but not least trust and honesty is the most important  key.

At the end I am happy because I could save a relationship. I should've acted like these towards my own relationship. I think what people say that regret comes last is true. I wish god gives me second chance to fix my broken relationship, He just let me know months after my break up.

At the end of the day all i can do is just doing self assurance by hiding behind a short reason like you and that person are not meant to be together.

PS : I'm so damn happy because the boy and the girl are reconcilling at the end. I'm expecting good news from both of you guys!.