a day late friend (a tribute for my otp)

» “Annyeong, oppa.” I waved my hands as I sat next beside him.

No one knows how long I’ve been gathering my courage just to talk to him. We have been too busy. From the day that our career boomed and fame and luck came to us. I don’t know if I should be happy. I earned fame but I lost someone.

“Hey Jessica. Long-time no see.” He smiled at me as he closed the book which he was reading a couple of minutes ago. I hesitantly asked him but luckily, words came out of my lips. “How’s life?”

“Well, never been better.”

I smiled. I’m happy for him. I am... I guess.

“That’s really nice to know oppa.”  I smiled, looking at the ground. I can’t dare to look at him. I’m afraid that my eyes would tell him what my heart wants to say. “Fans had been really frantic about YoonHae,” I added, “you look cute together.”

“Thanks.” He smiled at me, patting my shoulders. I looked at his hands, it had been too long since the last time I felt his touch. He never knew how long I’ve been yearning for his love but I never really dared to tell him. I guess it’s better off this way.

“Oppa, I have to go – practice.” I smiled at him and he beamed back. I stood up, bowed, turned around and left. For the last time I took a glimpse of him.

To me, Donghae is more than a friend. At one point in time I fell for him but unfortunately, things never really worked out. He saw me as a friend – his best friend. And that’s when I realize so should I. It’s a story that I don’t want anybody to know, neither my girls nor my friends.

I do love him but... I guess... sometimes, you just have to let things go. Past is past like what they say. I don’t want to discard it neither to forget it. I want to move on and learn from it. Maybe it’s the best thing to do for me to grow, to be better. And next time, if he’s really for me, I’m never gonna let him go.

And so, I left.

» author's ramblings:   My haesica heart is crushed 3 You know? No more moments ='( And I supposed Donghae likes Yoona. And Jessica is recently scandaled about dating Taecyeon, saying that they were just spending time together as friends. To them: I'm not stupid. You two are dating =.=" Ugh! This . I don't want to ship anymore. Everytime I ship couples I feel like they're drifting apart. P.S That gif below broke my heart. Look at Jessica's eyes before she turned sad!!! She looked at Donghae first! It looks like she's longing for him and yet! Donghae just continued to walk and ignored her =.=" I really really really really want to kill my OTP for breaking my heart. I'm so not gonna ship anymore! =^= » layout credit