One minute I was chasing a suspect and the next I was lying on the floor while my friend pressed the wound to my chest, my name is Kim Noeul and I died on a Tuesday afternoon, the details of my death are unimportant but I came here to tell you how my life was, if I can call it life ,as I watched the love of my life fall in love again.

I remember when I met Soojin, I was just graduated from the police academy and had attended a robbery incident in a laundry, Soojin was one of the customers who was there and I was the one who took her statement, she was a shy and endearing woman and I fell in love with her that very day. We exchanged phones because of the investigation, phone conversations turned into going to cafes and movie theaters, and it wasn't long before we started dating. We were two college graduates with little money but so much love, my parents disowned me when I came out as a lesbian before entering the police academy and Soojin's family became mine too, the years passed, we got married and we decided to have a baby, due to the danger of my profession, Soojin decided to carry our baby and she gave me a beautiful little girl, my Hayun

Seeing Soojin crying for me was one of the most horrible things I've ever felt, the pain of my parents' abandonment didn't compare to what I felt when I saw her crying as she hugged my photo, my only consolation is that Seo and my squad never left her, especially Shuhua, I always knew she was a great person but she surprised me, I still remember when she showed up at the police station, she looked like a teenager, she was childish and a lot of times lazy but after my death she took over the reins of the situation, she took care of Soojin and Hayun like a lioness and I have never been so proud

I never thought I would become one of those ghosts who follow their loved ones but I couldn't let them go, I missed them so much and I knew that my family missed me too. For a long time I feared that grief and pain would consume Soojin and she would do something stupid but little by little Soojin smiled again while Hayun became a happy and playful little girl, I listened to Shuhua and Soojin tell her stories about me but as much as it pained me to admit I had become just a face in a portrait for her, she knew who I was and my importance but she was too young to remember me

The years passed quickly and a conversation I had dreaded for years happened, Mrs Seo asked when Soojin would start dating again, she smiled awkwardly and quickly changed the subject, that night she fell asleep wearing my shirt but I could feel something changed in her, I knew she would never stop loving me but Soojin's heart was big enough for someone else if she allowed herself. I cried a lot that night as I watched her sleep, we made so many plans together, why did I have to die and leave her behind? The possibility of someone else touching her body and taking my place made me crazy.

I was watching my daughter and Shuhua play when my mother in law suggested that my wife and Shuhua get involved, at that time I stared at her in surprise, Soojin and Shuhua? Since when would they make a good pair? I can't deny that in the last few years they had grown very close, in addition to taking care of Hayun together, Soojin and Shuhua became confidants, Soojin tended to Shuhua's wounds while she talked about her day, just like she used to do to me, Shuhua would tell her the story behind each of the scars on her body  and in return Soojin would tells her about her childhood, her hopes, dreams, fears, I loved listening to the conversations they had when Hayun went to sleep but I hadn't thought about the possibility of Shuhua taking over my family until now

Both Soojin and I had my mother-in-law's suggestion in our minds, I noticed that she started to analyze Shuhua more closely as if seeing her for the first time and I felt like a bad cop for not noticing the change in their dynamics until my mother-in-law commented, Shuhua made Soojin smile the way I used to, the way it was reserved only for me, have they always looked at each other so tenderly? I saw love but I also saw fear and doubt when Soojin watched as Hayun had laughed at something Shuhua said with a wide smile, causing her to crack a small g