Last of Us (2Kim)
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Chaewon pulled the door handle, but before she went out she turned to ask Minjoo.
"Do you want this?" Chaewon asked with the red eyes.
Minjoo stares at her blankly.
"Do you really want this?"
Minjoo stayed silent and just keep staring.
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But the silence is more than enough.
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"Goodbye Kim Minjoo" she pulled the door and walked out.
Wiping her tears that are now flowing nonstop.
Minjoo stayed there. Not moving an inch.
Upon entering her aprtment complex, Chaewon ran to the stairs. She cried at the interval.
The heart broken too much.
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Minjoo inhaled deep. Hardly inhaling each of her breath.
She drove back trying to stop her tears so hard.
But she had to pull over as she can't stop crying.
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Both are broken.
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âYou said that it would last, but how come itâs the last time?â Â Â
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âI shouldâve hug you tighter the last time I saw you
I shouldâve kiss you longer the last time I saw you
Should I know it would be the last of us
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Iâd be calling your name at this hour,
Wanting to run to you.
But I donât know where you are in this world.
Ping me.
Resonate me.
Show me you can still hear me.
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But I think you would forget me.
Iâm just another face, another name in your memory.
So be happy and be free.
Iâm letting you away.
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Thank You for everything.
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I will leave my heart here at your door.
Just in case you might want it back.
Just come to me.
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If our force correlate,
In here,
You will find meâ
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Chaewon wiped her tears. Have she loves too much she got broken so hard when everything ended?
Is this how a heart breaks?
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As Chaewon drive to her home, she the music. Tuned it at 11. No make it 12.
Guess she got used to it that it now becomes sentimental.
Now thereâs no one she can annoy anymore.
Minjoo have OCD. She hates it when itâs not even number.
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On other side. Minjoo turned up the volume.
At 12 she felt âNo too loudâ .
She tuned it 11. Despite she hates the odd number but it reminds her of someone who she let away.
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Guess itâs hard to move on when youâre already used to something.
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You change yourself to fit the person you love.
To compliment each other,
To be the best companion the perfect partner
And when theyâre gone, you lose yourself.
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The Beginning of The End
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âIâm hereâ she texted Chaewon.
Minjoo fetch her up for their regular dinner date.
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Chaewon was fixing her make up when the text âarrivedâ
âOTWâ she replied. Smiling, she run down the stairs.
Opening the door to Minjoo smiling outside her car.
âYou look beautifulâ she said, smiling sweetly to Chaewon.
âYou too Minminâ Chaewon walks into her embrace. Minjoo gave her a kiss on the cheek.
âLetâs goâ Minjoo opened the door for her.
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âWeirdâ was what in Chaewonâs heart.
Minjoo would kiss her lips not her cheek.
Minjoo knows Chaewon suspected something.
But both kept quiet.
Just to not ruin the atmosphere.
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Deep in Minjooâs heart..
âI want to kiss you like we used to,
But it canât soothe my heart like it once didâ
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The drive to their destination was a quiet one.
âWeirdâ again crossed Chaewonâs mind.
Thereâs no âHow was your week? Did someone mess up with you?â Or such.
Minjoo just keep her smile.
âIs that a sincere smile or forced smile?â
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Chaewon is not oblivious.
As pure as she might look like, she's not stupid to see.
Lately it have been a bit dull.
No excitement or late night calls.
Have it been her fault for being too busy or was she not tempting like before?
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They went on a date near Hangang river.
Eating some seafoods and such.
Just enjoying simple street foods.
Smudging her white shirt with Minjooâs tteobokki sauce.
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Minjoo is such a clumsy kid.
Chaewon really need to take extra care on her.
But really, sheâs happy doing so.
Minjoo is her love and nothing she does will hurt Chaewon.
Or so she thinks...
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The date went short and Minjoo sent her back home.
Again, they just kissed on the cheek.
Chaewon tried to kiss Minjooâs lips.
But it only lasted few seconds.
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(Well Chaewon,
 You thought nothing Minjoo does will hurt you donât you?
 But you hurting now, aren't you?)
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Chaewon watched as Minjooâs car disappeared into the horizon.
âDid she have someone else?â
The heart hurts, but it never supposed to be.
Tears almost fall but she kept it.
â. This hurtsâ
To be ignored it felt like being unappreciated.Â
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âItâs okay she might just have a bad dayâ
âBut isnât it cruel to let her mood affect our precious date?â
âBut itâs okay. Another bad dayâ
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(Trying to be positive aren't you?)
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Weeks passed with them only have chat for few short moments.
Guess life caught them best.
Their love story from school was not as fun as this.
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When you were 17,
Life is all about growing up and graduating.
Go to Ivy League university or any college that you eligible of.
Get good education and such.
All the while still be in love with your high school sweetheart.
There, life is simple isn't it?
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But no.
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Life donât go that easy.
One moment you are cozily sleeping,
The next moment you are in a cramped up train going for work that give you low pay wage but still you got to hold on to it.
Because you got to survive.
There are bills, rents, foods and accommodations to pay for.
There are many responsibilities on your bare shoulder.
Might need bigger shoulder to help you carry the weight of the world.Â
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Life when you were 20 was all about having fun and skipping classes.
Because your lecturer donât give AF if you absent.
Only will do if you are the peculiar or smart one.
Chaewon had the time of her life being in same university with Minjoo.
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Their summer breaks were spent on holidays to Japan and nearby islands.
Feeling the heat of summer burning on their fiery love.
Enjoying the strolls and exploring street foods together.
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They come as package.
Where there is Chaewon, there is Minjoo.
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âA Kim for A Kimâ was what Eunbi used to say.
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The memories of their youth are filled with each other.
Too much that they can barely remember any memories they have with their other friends.
On holidays or casual occasion,
Took pictures of sceneries and each other.
Stealing kisses every moment they can.
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Life is good.
When it was.
Love is great.
When it was.
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They couldnât spend a day without seeing each other.
They even shared the same apartment.
No one really wonders about them as they are both girls.
Some did get suspicious of them being lovey dovey but to hell with their assumptions.
Their life is not publicâs decision.
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Minjoo have her own room but at times she prefers to be in Chaewonâs.
(They are adult)
The sofa was their favourite place to make out and such.
(Again They are Adult. And lovers)
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Life is indeed good.
When it was.
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Everything slowly changes after they graduated.
They thought life would moves swiftly as they once imagined when they were sixteen.
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Minjoo got work offer on the other side of the state. Making it harder for them to meet.
She used to commute for work but she had enough of waking up too early and go home too late.
At one time it was too tiring.
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And hence, she knew she had to move out.
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So they decided to separate.
(I mean living separately)
Minjoo at the west, Chaewon at east.
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Separated by miles,
But their love life always bring smiles.
Their love was bounded by video calls and weekly date.
It was hard at first. Then they got used to it.
Love felt much easier.
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Life is really good.
When it was.
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But it goes back to being hard as Minjooâs works as Graphic Designer makes her occupied with works.
Both of them did.
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Someone told them, distance is nothing when you really love someone.
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But,
Not everyone can survive being apart.
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At night when Chaewon felt so lonely she feels like running to Minjoo.
But knowing her partner is stuck with work,
She will only be a bother rather than reliever.
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At night when Minjoo felt so lonely she wanted to come home to Chaewon,
But girl got to go outstation.
Life as a personal assistant to her cousin, Kim Taeyeon is so hasty.
Well, Taeyeon is a busy person.
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Seems like Chaewon can assist Taeyeon but she canât assist her personal life.
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It gets so hard to breathe,
When one day Minjoo almost called it off.
She got stressed at works and Chaewon kept asking her to go out.
âHello, what are you doing?â Chaewon starts the call excitedly.
âAh Iâm at the office finishing the designsâ Minjoo answered in quick pace. Hand sketching something on her Wacom tablet. Eyes fixed on the monitor.
"I thought you already submitted it?"
"Well the client don't like it and I have to change it before tomorrow afternoon"Â 'Fk them client'
âUrm would you like to take a break and grab coffee now?â
âNo I donât have time for thatâ Minjoo sighed.
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âI can come to your place. You donât need to drive hereâ
âBut itâs dangerous. Youâre not used to this place and I still have lots of work to doâ
âDonât worry Iâll be okay. And I wonât disturb you. You can just do your work. I just want to see you. Thatâs allâ Chaewon convinced again.
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âChaewon, what actually happened that you suddenly want to come here? It should always be me going to youâ
âNothing. i just want to see your faceâ
âReally? We can just FaceTime later onâ
âBut I wanted to see your face. We can get a cup of coffee or a drink. I donât care so come out for a bitâ
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Minjoo put down the pen, let out another deep slow sigh, leaning her back on her chair.
âShe donât understand doesn't she?â
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âChaewon. How many times should I tell you I donât have the time. I want to meet you but I am too busy now. Why is it so hard for you to understand?â Minjooâs tone got louder.
Chaewon knew it that she should step aside and let the girl deal with her works.
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âO..okay, okay.. Iâm sorry to disturb you. You can continue our works. I will call you this weekendâ
âYeah thank you. No I should be sorry. I need to go nowâ
âOkay.. i love you Minminâ cutely Chaewon said. Hoping for a cute reply.
âYeah yeah me too. Goodbyeâ Minjoo slammed the phone off without hesitation.
âShe probably too busy and stressedâ Chaewon gulped.
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That time, Minjoo felt like Chaewon couldn't understand her.
But she didn't realise she got stuck in her own thoughts.Â
Chaewon on the other side trying to help, but she offers the wrong hand it got messed up instead.
(It's simple misunderstanding like this that would be deadly)
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Chaewon put down the phone.
Laying back on the sofa.
They used to and laze around together on that sofa.
Now itâs hard to even get Minjoo inside her house.
Or should we say, their-once-shared-apartment.
Minjoo is always chasing something or having some new projects to finish.
And Chaewon also got occupied being the assistant to the famous businesswoman Kim Taeyeon.
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Chaewon stared at the empty table.
Suddenly she remembered, she bought something in advance. Of thinking to surprise Minjoo. But it didnât worked out.
Chaewon poured and gulped down the soju. Minjoo didnât get to join this, soju goes to waste.
âMaybe you can accompany me tonightâ Chaewon âtalkedâ to the bottles.
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Chaewon the tv.
Nothing interesting.
She took her phone. No notifications.
âPfftt even my phone mocks me huh?â
She clicked on Netflix app.
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Eyes on-screen but her mind lost in another dimension.
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Chaewon sighed as she keeps on watching.
âNetflix and chill my . Pffttâ she chuckles before continue chugging the soju by the bottle now.
"Aaa Kim Minjoo why are you not here?"
âI miss youâ
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On the hindsight,
Minjoo knew she should never push Chaewon away.
But again, she did nothing wrong.
Well of course she does.
But she have to put affront her work too.
It canât be avoided that being a designer requires her to be fully immersed in her works and what more she have to always be on time.
Being a designer, you have to deal with people.
Dealing with a stranger is already a pain in the what more several clients.
Sometimes she hopes that Chaewon could understand her more.
Yes Chaewon does.
But she hope that the girl doesnât think of anything ridiculous.
Minjoo is just to busy with her works.
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But she never miss their regular weekly date.
Thatâs good right?
Or at least for Minjoo it does.
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You canât expect people to always be with you.
Especially when theyâre far away from you.
When Minjoo told Chaewon I Love You,
Thatâs all true.
Chaewon should never doubted her.
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Minjoo was really hoping Chaewon could understand her.
But she still donât have time to talk to her girl.
âAh itâs okay Iâll call her laterâ
From which later turns to never.
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If one thing Minjoo do good,
Is designing
One thing she isnât good,
Is understanding.
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Minjoo called Chaewon the next evening. But it goes to voice mail as Chaewon actually on the plane going outstation with her boss.
She saw the notification but had to ignore it as she's busy.
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Itâs Minjooâs birthday.
Chaewon prepared the dinner from early morning.
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